Its been 7 years.... Still why am I the one waiting... My dark black hair shined in moonlight.. Wind is playing with my hair carefully. Street lights begin to brighten up... Its getting dark. I am holding something special in my hand right now. Its a gift which I was suppose to give him long before. Red ribbion wrapped is shinning in street light like blood. My heart beats are increasing. Hope he will show up soon. Just recalling memories i can feel the sweet smile appearing in my lips. I should have followed my heart. But I...... I never regret anything..

"I, CHO KYUHYUN... HAVE NO REGRETS ABOUT MY PAST AND I AM NOT ANXIOUS ABOUT MY FUTURE.. BUT I AM LIVING IN THE PRESENT..."

My love for you never had an expiry date. I loved you... I love you... and I will love you always. We might have had a different story. But I do like everything happened till now. Even the saddest part. 

SM Town is the place where SM artists, idol groups perform together. For me SM Town means him. SHIM CHANGMIN, MAX CHANGMIN, CHOIKANG CHANGMIN, FOOD Monster... etc... His names are alot but for me My bestfriend CHWANG. Everything turn around when he became my boyfriend. Even after knowing everything I shouldnot have accepted his deal. 

It happened in one of kyu line meeting. Being single for a long time both of us decided to try dating each other. It was all for fun at begining. But it turn out to be worst. Pabo... He should have let me know he is interested in someone else. We should have break up in a nice way and still continue being best friends. Instead of that he caught red handed by netizens being appearing in her SNS post in a spoon and entire SM entertainment has to answer for such an idiotic act leading our nasty break up.

After all this scandal we met at SM Town. I was so cold towards him. For fans i placed a fake smile. I hugged him.. trust me i was forced to hug him. He was so happy. He smiled with his mismatched eyes and gum showing smile. I even got to perform epical Boys day performance with him. He came to hug me personally then i moved back from his affection. I declined his offer. I broke up with him with plain simple words and I disowned him being my bestfriend again. 

I still do not know why i was so cold towards him then. But he betrayed me. He should have told. More over HER.... seriously.... I didnt cried back then. Because that issue made me strong and i got something more precious. A Family....  

Lets move to 8 years before. I hate flashbacks. But I should give you some surprise right!!! This year is really important others i will skip... As evil you consider me that much kind I am.

"CHO KYUHYUN....... WAKE UP ELSE I WILL SLAP YOU ON YOUR   AND MAKE YOU DO ENTIRE DORM DUTY FOR A MONTH". Yeah you think right... it is none other than Suju diva KIM HEECHUL.... "Chullie Noona let me sleep 5 more minutes..." I replied. You heard right also. I refer that namja as noona because he love that honor too.. Not even once he corrected me. 

After 15 minutes peaceful sleep I moved towards hall where I can see teukie eomma busy struggling with manager and schedule list. Kangin appa busy with his running man episode at tv. Wookie doing  new cakes final touch. I hugged teukie eomma from back and peek into schedule. Then chullie noona dragged me from behind to his room. Eventhough concerned teukie eomma dont want to interfere in chulliez business. 

We reached at his room. He shouted aloud enough to let others hear " ARE YOU DATING SHIM CHANGMIN? BUT WHY!!!!!!...." I bet that his voice hit every living being in our entire building. I took a loud gulp making diva stare at me with wide eyes and folded hands. I can hear heavy foot steps heading towards chullie noonaz room. I prepared myself to get buried.