Chapter - 9

Bleeding Blue (SEQUEL!!)
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‘Dear Baek,

I’ve graduated and I am already taking up some coaching. I’m going to go out soon and find a job.

By the way the guy I told you about, Xuimin? Well he finally came out of the library to celebrate my graduation with me but it so happened that my friends seem to recognize him as Minseok, I don’t know who is Minseok but my friends says he’s a snob.

I haven’t seen Xuimin since then. After all we have only meet up thrice after the first meeting.’

* * *

I let out a huge breath of relief as the call ended. Then I let out a shout of delight. My mom who was sitting beside me on the couch clamped with her hands in delight and we hugged each other till we were breathless.

I couldn’t believe this but I had got a job at a reputable company. I had three interviews two of which I had failed but I got the third one. This job entails a good result after what I earned my degree from college in and some additional certificates I had. I had tried so hard for the exam and for the interview and I was so glad that I had got this.

This job was not much actually, although I was surely going to sit behind a desk and all, and get less pay but it was going to be on my resume that I had worked on a reputable company if I ever decided to leave.

“I’m so happy for you!” My mother gushed, her eyes wrinkling up in delight. I could only let out delighted laughter at that.

“I’m so happy too,” I smiled at her, “Maybe I’ll study online for further education. I’m so glad. I’ll be working hard to get promotion when I get to work.”

“You do just that. I know you’ll do great.” My mother smiled proudly at me. “I can’t believe how far you’ve come.”

Dad then comes waltzing in with cake in his hands.

“Tell me you got it,” Both mom and I beamed and we nodded our heads. He lets out a hearty laugh and the three of us are hugging and bonding so happily. The cake is cut and we celebrate me getting my first job.

But as I watched on the two of them being so proud of me my cake suddenly tasted bitter. There was the need to tell them someday about Baekhyun right? Maybe not, not today at least.

* * *

The first day of work made me feel jittery and all the butterflies that I thought had died attacked my stomach and my brain was fuzzy but I couldn’t help but be excited. I felt alive as my heart beat faster with each step I took. This feeling of excitement, this feeling of hope had been gone for so long and it was finally here again. I felt happier than I had ever been in a long time.

I had finished my coaching and this will be a piece of cake. I told myself and let my lips pull up into a smile. I let out a deep breath and willed myself to go through the spiral glass door. Everything in here screamed luxury and I allowed myself to admire the man-made beauty.

I wonder if Baekhyun would also love to come to such a fancy place and work?

I smiled unconsciously as I pictured Baekhyun looking incredibly handsome wearing a suit and tie and being busy. Maybe someday… or some other life.

I had arrived 20 minutes early to get myself acquainted with the place and be calm by the time it comes. I looked around and everything I saw swept me off my feet. I pictured myself working here full time, getting promotion after promotion. Maybe this is what I really want, I tell myself. An established life with a future that wasn’t bleak and full of uncertainty.

But would I be happy without him? My thoughts decided to hold a debate as I turn and try each door in our department. I could stay here and never go back there and start over with my life. Maybe I can get a boyfriend and get married and have kids. Maybe I will work here till I am gray and spent. And maybe I will pass on here after my time is up… that’s what a perfect life is all about and maybe I could have it but why is my heart not excited at that thought? Why was this huge glass building less appealing than the glass surface of the ocean?

I was employed under ‘Snow’ business which handled everything from shoping malls to high end bouquets. They had a hotel in Seoul and one in Busan. Ah! The rich life of the Kim family and the amazing chance of being able to work under them.

I was in the foreign trade department since I was fluent in English, my mother being born and bought up in the UK. She was the one who had personally tutored and taught me English. Now I was going to use her teaching to my advantage.

“All the new employees are to report to the conference room for a short meeting. The CEO will be meeting you all.” A smooth voice trailed out from the speaker stationed almost everywhere in the hallway.

We were meeting with the CEO today but that wasn’t surprising. The heads normally show up the first day and encourage us and then disappear because they are too busy.

My feet took me to the conference room which I had seen earlier on. There were already some people there and more people started coming in.

Within a minute the place was filled with more than 50 of us. It made me self-conscious. If I did not deliver well I had great chances of saying goodbye.

But there was no time to dwell on that as the doors opened and very important looking people walked in onto the raised platform.

My jaw dropped when they finally faced me. I was sitting three seats from the front but that cannot for all the world deceive my eyes because right now I was looking at Xuimin who was Xuimin in all physical aspect but different in every way. This was not the Xuimin I knew, this guy was confident and looked at people in the eye like he was looking straight into mine. He excluded an aura of confidence, of poise, and of good breed. I felt greatly incompetent just looking back at him with admiration, with surprise and with wonder. He looks away nonchalantly and gave a good sweep of all the employees currently present.

I curled my fist tight and kept all the thoughts that I had in my mind. Maybe he has a twin and this was the Minseok that my friends were talking about.

I scanned him and decided that this was not Xuimin. This could not be Xuimin… not at all.

They began with their welcome speech, going over their working policies and the rules and regulations in the office. I hardly caught anything because I was really getting worked up with the Xuimin look alike.

Then they welcomed the CEO to the stage and Xuimin walks up confidently without hesitation. There was no need to feel anything but my heart dropped unwillingly. Here I was sharing my deepest thought with him and he did not even tell me his real name. I felt embarrassed and wanted to walk out.

He started speaking and it was the voice I remember and know but it wasn’t Xuimin’s. This was Kim Minseok as he had introduced himself and there was no stammering in his speech and not even an ounce of nervousness.

I felt cheated although I had no right to be. He never asked, I was the one who shared with him, but there was no denying that I felt thoroughly ashamed. If he really was Xuimin than he would be trying to find an excuse to dispose off a girl who was madly in love with someone who is apparently very far away and won’t return her letters and who had bouts after bouts of depression.

I suddenly began to feel my anxiety rise. This isn’t good. I closed my eyes and curled my fist tightly and began breathing in and out like my dad told me to. I should control it before it controls me… I chant as I felt it go away slowly. I did not care anymore what was happening outside. I was going to be fired anyway.

I decided then that before I opened my eyes I need to forget that little boyish-like person in the heart of the library and that this person was someone I had never met. This person wasn’t worth working up my anxiety.

* * *

My desk was small but comfortable. I liked it the moment I saw it and I mentally began to formulate how I was going to design it. Although it was right in the middle of the room with people flanking me on every side I did not mind because my back faced the wall which was thankfully filled with the most beautiful wild flowers.

My heart thumped as I admired them. Why are wild flowers the theme flower here? Coincidence?

They reminded me of Baekhyun. He grew up in the wild yet he managed to bloom so beautifully he has been lingering in my mind this whole time.

“We redecorated our room yesterday,” a smiling woman with a huge stack of file came to me. “I’m glad you like it.”

I nod my head, “It is so beautiful…” I exclaimed. “The department surely has great choice.”

“Oh no…” She says as continued to walk to where her desk was, “It wasn’t any of us. It was the CEO.”

* * *

A call came. It was almost 12 but I was up writing him a letter. Those wildflowers did a good job in bringing me back the memory of a shy Baekhyun who hesitantly gave me a bunch every time he returned from the gulf.

I sighed looking at the number displayed on the screen. It was not saved which means it was unknown. Do I pick it up or just let it go?

But then someone calling at this hour? Must be urgent.



For a second my heart stood still and it felt as though a lightning hit me. Excitement and anxiousness suddenly coursed through me.


This time though my heart dropped so low in massive disappointment that the previous moment seemed as though it never happened.

I thought I heard Baekhyun’s voice over the phone. He calls my name with the same kind of tenderness that I wanted to hear him call me over and over again and I’ll smile at him as he does so. 


“It’s me,” A pause, “Xuimin,” another pause, “Minseok.”

I held my breath. So it really was him. Minseok was Xuimin and Xuimin was Minseok. But why was the CEO calling me at this hour?

“Ah…” That was the only thing that came out. I barely knew Xuimin much less Minseok and this calling at night thing wasn’t what I was accustomed to.

“I’m sorry,” He says, “I did not even tell you my real name.”

I kept quiet, not really sure how to answer. What do I say? It doesn’t matter? But it did. I felt humiliated although it was entirely my fault.

“I want to meet you,” he says and I held my breath, “In person. When can you be free?”

I chewed on my thumb unknowingly. Just what am I suppose to do in this situation? If this was Xuimin I was talking to I would gladly march out even at this hour and met with him but this was Minseok and he was not really someone I thought I would like very much.

“I-er…” I cleared my throat because it suddenly felt very itchy. I scratched my ear and my knees and picked up a pencil and then put it down. “Um… you’re the boss… haha.”

I managed to squeak out. I thought I heard some sort of quiet laughter from his end but it must just be because I was so worn out.

“Jo,” he calls and my heart thumped wildly. Please don’t say my name like that. “I’m Xuimin… I will always be Xuimin when I am with you.”

* * *

He took me out for coffee. I sat there straight back, hands fiddling and my teeth chewing the inside of my lips. This felt like another interview all over again and every time I look up at him he seemed to be looking at me with a smile.

The roles were reversed here. I was squirming and he was smiling.

“Hi…” He said extending his right hand, after what felt like an eternity, “I’m Kim Minseok.” He gave me a smile, one which brought out his gums and his cheeks. He looked exactly like a super cute chipmunk.

Why is it that people associated with me all resemble animals in the cutest way possible?

I must have been squinting at him because he pulled back his hand, shook his head and drastically turned into Xuimin. What the hell just happened? Did I witness the transition of Minseok to Xuimin?

I blinked at him, shocked that he suddenly and literally shrank down in his chair.

He had come and picked me up at home like I told him to and not from the office. Imagine the uproar it would cause especially with the ladies because boy, have I heard of fangirling among the lady employees.

“So um… who are you exactly?” This coffee house, the one he brought me to literally serves customers with very warm pockets only. It had an extremely cozy interior and even cozier cubicles where there was no way people will overhear any conversations because they were all miles away from each other.

He slides up a bit and I sort of wanted to giggle at that because in his suit he looks like a little boy trying to be a grown up.

“I don’t even know anymore!” He sighs exhaustedly and then the Xuimin I knew was back – the helpless and always bored persona.

“You’ve got like, what, a company under you?” He pouts as he gave me nod.

“My father is even lazier than me,” he sighs, “Now he only drinks tea and goes to party with mom leaving the heavy load to me.”

Now that he was relaxed and back to being someone I actually knew, I begin to relax as well.

“Minseok seems like a really…” I stirred my coffee,”… Well, not you.”

“I know,” he replied, slouching down once again becoming the kid I knew. Thankfully now that we were in a cubicle people couldn’t see him act like a spoiled little kid, “he’s a douche bag.”

“So which is the real you?” I decided to prob.

“Which one do you think? That guy is a front I have to put up to run something,” he says with his eyeballs both up as though he if recalling or really annoyed by something, “I have been taught that since I was birthed into this world. It since I have a real shy personality. I am terrified all the time being him.”

“I thought I was hallucinating when I saw you there,” I sipped my coffee.

He laughed but his cheeks were up making me almost coo at him.

“I didn’t know our company took you in either,” he smiles and sits up

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Chapter 10: I really love this story:)
I have never cried this much while reading any fic but bleeding blue really pulled my heartstrings. I don't think there can be any other book rather than bleeding blue itself which can make it's readers cry so badly.
Hopefully their is sequel for this and now I am going to read it and let my heart cool down for both Baek and Joo.
I really really loved reading this!!!!
Thank you author for writing such an amazing and lovely fic♥♥
parkshiza #2
Chapter 10: writer nim yes I really wanted to kill u now ....and now I think my balls are coming out from my eyes because of all the cries heart is bleeding now........its the best fic for crying ...I'm leaving a comment here for reminding myself of a strong reason to cry again
Chapter 10: Hiiiiiii .....
Yeah i was reading this last night I just craved it and wanted a reason to cry🙂....and i think i should change my name from stick to stickcreep 😭....
And one more thing...
As yk I can't just stop reading it ok so and I really want more people to appreciate this as well as running red!!!!....
So I'm going to put this story link on my Instagram as a story or even as a link in my bio I just can't stop thinking about this and feel ing happy because this story is literally like a baby for me and this story and the sequel needs more attention.... I will NOT do this without your permission obviously so please say yes😭😭😭....
Chapter 11: Look who's here to scratch the wound open!!!!...

Absolutely not me :')....


( I'm crying and my mum's giving me looks and idc now)......


I'm gonna read running red now!!!
AiiSoo #5
Chapter 10: I admit. I’ve delayed reading this for the longest time because I took a peek of the last chapter. Just a small peek. I figured I can’t handle all the heart-wrenching sorrow at that time, so I postponed reading this story till now. I came back because of the sequel. I haven’t read it yet but reading the title kinda makes me recall that I’ve read a similar title but not sure from where. After I started reading this, then I clearly remember. Thank God that i read this in my room alone so I can cry buckets without restraint. I was a sobbing mess. Never wanted my parents to see this sight of me.
This is a really good read. I appreciate the sweetness that Baekhyun and Jo had on the island despite their not so sure future and inner conflicts. I felt the joy when they mingle with the islanders, felt the pain when they lost Grandpa. I think this is why I prefer to read rather than watching movies. I can pause to reread to feel and imagine the things happenings whenever and for however long that I want. It’s been so long that I cried real hard like this, so thank you for writing such a great and wonderful story. Eventhough the ending is not a happy ending for Baekhyun and Jo, I know that they’ve found their closures. And I’m glad for that. It is as if they are real characters alive. For me, your writing comes alive. I hope i expressed it good enough. I’m not that good with words.
I might need a few hours break then I start reading the sequel. From the foreword it seems like fluffs and I can’t wait to read it. Hoping for a happy ending for Jo and Baekhyun. Thanks again for this beautiful writing.
I'm crying, this is such a heartbreaking story. Oh my poor heart can't handle this. Your writing style is beautiful, I love those poems and letters. I was hoping it just Jo's dreams or something but nooooo— he's gone, Baek is gone. If only fate could be nice to them😔
Guess what, blue has always been my favourite color. I think from now on I will always remember about this story every time I see blue, or every time I go to the beach💔 But that's okay, it proves that this story IS AMAZING. Thank you so much for making this story, I really really really enjoyed it! And I'm so grateful you give us the sequel. Can't wait to see their happy ending there❤️
Chapter 10: Dear author u made Me a crying mess . I don't know how to describe my feelings. I'm so sorry to read this diamond this late. Thank you sooo much for the story.
Chapter 10: Where have i been???!!!! Oh my god this is so beautiful, i literally bawling my eyes out. I no longer have tears anymore.

BRAVO!!! *standing ovation*

Thank you for sharing this story.. and thank you for giving us a sequel.. I'm gonna go and read it now <3
gogogirl26 #9
Chapter 11: This so beautifully heartbreakinv T.T
Their love is soooo pure. But fate wasnt with them. Baek is such a poor boy in this cruel wolrd he just simply want to be happy and beinhg loved. Cant stop crying for baek T.T he sacrifice all even his life for the one he loved the most