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            Baekhyun smiled in front of his PO Box locker. It was the shortest letter PokerFace, or Pokey., that’s how Baekhyun liked to called him, has ever sent him. His pen pal never sent him letters less than 4 pages. He liked to tell stories about everything. About himself, about his family, about the city he’s living in, about his work, the songs he made, everything. And it’s pretty weird to read a one paged letter, barely one page actually, from him. He’s been sending letters with this pen pal since 6 months ago. He met this guy on a phone-call at a radio show, where he was one of the guest. He was invited to the show by one of his best friend since high school, Kim Jongdae, who was a DJ there. Jongdae wanted him to be a speaker for their topic that day, which was “nothing’s wrong with being gay”. Being one of a few people who called themselves aual, Baekhyun knew he had different orientation since he was a child. He never had any ual interest in girls, or when he was older, women.

           His passion was ever only in fashion. Since he was a child, fashion had stolen his heart and mind. When other boys were busy playing with their robots and car toys, Baekhyun helped his elder sister mixed and matched her Barbie doll clothes and dresses. When other boys was busy playing bicycle, he choose to stay at home watching his sister draw clothes pattern and helped her sew sometimes. When other boys were playing basketball at highschool, Baekhyun choose to take sewing courses after school, and designed some of the clothing in his sister’s online cloth shop. And when other boys choose law school, or business major at college, Baekhyun choose the art department, majoring at fashion and he graduated with a very excellent mark. He now has his own fashion label, concentrating in wedding suits and gowns, and he was pretty famous in Seoul.

          So, at first he thought it was because of his field of work, where most males who worked in the fashion world were gay, but even to guys, he had no interest. Yes, he did e a couple of times in his life, but he himself couldn’t remember what he was thinking when he did it, or what made him did that. Sure he talked about girls, and guys, with his friends, he praised a girl when she’s pretty and he envied good looking guys, but never did he had experience a ual or romantic attraction to one of them. Until he met this one guy, through a phone call.

          “I was born from a wealthy family. I have two loving and wonderful parents, and an older brother who I won’t trade with any other brother,” Baekhyun and Jongdae were melted by what this guy said. “I was.. I liked girls at first, my first kiss was in elementary school to a girl that I really like. She was pretty and.. I really liked her. But it was just a game for us, I mean.. we’re still such a kid. It didn’t last long. I realized I was attracted in the same for the first time at high school. I went to Beijing at 15 and went to high school there. I had quiet a lot girlfriend but.. I don’t know, the feeling’s just.. not right..”

           “Wow, quite a lot? You are pretty much a player,” Jongdae said and