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EXTRA

*Seungcheol and Jihoon's perspective when they both met each other and the last time they saw each other.

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THE DAY SEUNGCHEOL AND JIHOON MET (NOV 22  2 0 1 5   - JIHOON'S BIRTHDAY)

November 22, 2015

SEUNGCHEOL

God, this place. I'll be stuck here again for 6 hours and for what? A few spare changes?

This bar I'm standing at feels like a cage, really. People always crown the corners and they all talk the same time, Everytime I leave here I

end up sweaty. Everyday just keeps going. Few familiar faces and lots of new ones, And speaking of new ones, I find this cute right there

stealing lots of glances from me highly distracting. After Wonwoo gets back from his lunch break I can get excused and chat with him.

A hundred more orders later Wonwoo arrived with his friend Jeonghan who works here too. Okay two people will be more than ehough to

cover for me. I moved to the staff room fixing my hair and wiping the sweat on my face, gliding to the boy with an outstanding skin, damn

this far you could tell, the boy was raised very well.

"If you think I didn't notice you the moment you sat down in this bar you're wrong." I said trying to give the boy a slight shock, He was even

cuter up close. Though the boy didn't get a shock, I was really delighted to see him smile at me. Damn, who knew smiled could look this

pleasant.

"I was waiting for you to approach me." He said to me. Oh , this boy knows how to press my buttons. I just know it, This boy will

manage to up my heart and I won't be able to do anything anymore about it.

"I'm Choi Seungcheol." I said offering my hand, my expectations for this boy just keeps going up because his hand is actually the warmest

hands I have ever touched, and the softest too.

"Lee Jihoon."

His name, prettiest name. Really.

"Glad to meet you, cutie." I said trying to act cool and confident, actually I'm not, I'm freaking out so much.

"Same here." 'Jihoon' said to me, i'm not sure if its the 'glad to meet you' he's saying 'same here' at or if he thinks im cute too. Either was,

I'll take it.

We talked some more, And one thing I never would have thought was that this boy, was indeed a special snowflake. The kid told me he

has COPD which at first of course I didn't know about but he explained it to me. And I know, I'll take care of him. He already has me hooked

in his bait, it's impossible to leave.

JIHOON

We talked some more, This, Seungcheol guy has a very funny way of telling his stories. He'd act as if he's crying or he'd jump up if it's

funny, really. I'd give him 100 for the story delivery.

Soon Soonyoung stumbled between the two of us leaning on Seungcheol as if he'd known the man for years. I almost forgot It's my

birthday.

When we walked home Seungcheol came with us, my best friend on his back, knocked out. I'm lucky this boy's not a douche. He actually

offered to take me home. He ALSO has these very attention seeking muscles, like i didn't mean to look so long but those thighs are bomb.

Eventually we reached Soonyoung's house. He's lived there since he was like 16 when we attended University, I originally signed up for a

4-year course but I had to drop out the Third year because of this goddamned COPD of mine. When we dropped Soonyoung by his couch

we left him there, see, we're nice people. Though I already found it hard to breathe, we didn't even walk that far. Somehow Seungcheol

noticed this and wow was he quick to put me on his back.

The boy's hair was soft(-and smells like mint), despite it having sweat earlier. It feel's good being this tall. I wish I'm this tall.

He placed me down the bed of mine, and he went down stairs, running and coming back with a glass of water. I gulped it down, and

placed it on my bedside table.

He just stood there awkwardly, not knowing what to do and decided to help him out.

"Seungcheol, we literally just met hours ago but, if you don't mind can you stay the night?" Woah, im brave tonight. But I might take a

chance because you won't experience this everyday. I started swinging my legs due to nervousness.

Luckily he doesn't mind.

"Oh, good." I said to him, releasing a sign that took away my nervousness.

"Was that another test?" He asked.

I shook my head slightly ans said "No, not really. Just wanted to see if I'm lucky enough to get to cuddle a cute boy before I rest in peace."

"I don't know about you being lucky, but you are damn cute enough so come here."

Okay, He's too smooth for my heart but yeah, guess I am pretty cute, If I can make a (really cute) boy cuddle with me without hidden

agendas.

THE DAY JIHOON AND SEUNGCHEOL LAST SAW EACH OTHER (NOV 25 - NOV  26  2 0 1 6  -  AT THE HOSPITAL ROOM)

November 25, 2016

JIHOON

I opened my eyes and was greeted by the blankness of the ceiling. I couldn't move much right now, feels as though every part of my body

became numb. I felt the shifting beside me and the warmth come closer, I'm holding onto my boyfriend's hand near my heart. Now

Seungcheol was up, his face visible above me he smiles at me everyday he wakes up, and everytime his smiles are prettier. I, too, tried

smiling but just then I feel the familiar ache by my lungs and my heart, like there's needles clogged in my veins and every sharp breath I

take the more the needles felt like going deeper.

It went on until all I can see is darkness I asked myself if this is what it feels like to be dying. This pain is the most painful attack I've

experience, like im being chocked while being crushed.

I hurts so much and I feel myself let go, I feel myself loosen my hold on the hands I want to hold so much.

And I just drifted away.

Last thing I knew was Seungcheol's shouting my name.

There's only darkness here, I'm walking and even the floor looks just black like in trapped in a sphere with only darkness enveloping me.

If this is death, I've long decided that I don't like it.

Then I saw a flash, I saw light. I saw the first time I met Seungcheol, the time Seungcheol told me he wanted to be my boyfriend the time

He got the rings, the they they said I love you, they were all happy memories, the ones he kept close to his heart.

If only one more time he get to touch Seungcheol's hair, his hands, kiss the top of his head, he'd be able to let go peacefully.

He wants to see the man once again.

Seungcheol.

"Seungcheol." Jihoon sobbed. "Seungcheol."

He kept repeating it. More tears falling the more he says the other's name.

Then he opens his eyes. He sees the hospital, He sees Seungcheol sleeping, the older's head rested on his bed, he moved his arm

soothing the opther's hair. Seungcheol. So warm, Seungcheol was Jihoon's warmth.

He searches for the other's hand and when he sees it he hald it tight. He tangled his fingers and then let go. The last time he'll be able to

admire the older. He smiles weakly and leans in to kiss the top of the other's head.

He then went back to rest his head on his pillow, closing his eyes a few times, then. He fell asleep the last sight he's seen was Seungcheol

begining to open his eyes and then he's back.

It wasn't darkness this time. But there was just a long hallway. filled with light. The hall was so long and wide he can't see the end.

But it was warm there. He felt safe. He just walked and walked.

He doesn't know when he'll reach the end but he wants to find out, so he took step after step and walked to eternity.

What Jihoon doesn't know is that when he reaches the end of the hall, he'll be awake again, but as a different person, different year, different parents, but deffinitely not the different boy to love.