Next day

 

I woke up with a sleeping Carol in my embrace and she look so cute when she hold my hand tightly because she don’t want me to leave make me smile and kiss her chubby cheek

 

When I moving I notice that Mathew hands is on my body back hug me tightly same like Carol he also don’t want me to leave him

 

If someone look at us now , they will said that we really like a family make me smiling again  while caress Carol smooth and long hair while observe her cute face

 

When I still enjoying my heavenly moment suddenly my phone ringing make me slowly release myself from Mathew and Carol because I don’t want to disturb them

 

BRIAN

 

I sigh when know who’s calling me , why not ??? he want to kill me last night and now he calling me like he don’t do anything to me

 

C:Hallo ?

B: Where are you ?!

 

Oh God he sound mad (?) no Carla don't scared to him , this is your decision

 

C:House

B:Don't lie to me ! I'm in front of your house and your maid tell me you not at home

C: Do what do you want now ?

B:What do I want ?

 

He challenges me now

 

C: Yes

B: I want know where the ing fiancé of mine

C: I'm at home

B: You lie to me not for the first time but for several times

C:I'm not lying

B:So? Where are you now ?

 

He must be mad now , i'm sure

 

C: That's not your business

 

He don’t have know where I am now , I don’t want he hurt Mathew or Carol

 

B: That's my ing business you !!!!

C:Don't call me like that you bastard

 

How dare he curses me !? I be patient cause I know he must be mad

 

B:Okay just forget that I'm sorry, can we talk and meet now

C:What do you want to talk ?

B: We want to get married next month honey , we can talk about that

C:I want talk to you but when you in your state

B:So when ?

C: I'll text you the time

B:I'm sorry babe , see you

 

I hung up the call and sit quietly at the stair in front of Mathew room, I can't let he know Brian call me now that’s why I choose to keep silent here while hold my tears

 

I know I was wrong  for lying towards Brian about this because he’s my fiancé but sometimes he so mean to me, he never believe in me , he always though I was wrong even I know i'm right .

 

It’s  also my fault about lying when I told him I love him because my heart don’t feel anything towards him and I can't ignore my own feelings towards Mathew, I can't fool myselfforever for saying I love Brian while the others know how much I love Mathew

 

I still trying to calm my mind while wipes my invisible tears , I can't let anyone in this house know about this so I choose stay there for couple minutes until a pair of hands back hug me

 

What happen babe ?’he ask me

 

No nothing ‘

 

Don't lie ‘

 

How can he know I was lying ???

 

Did he call ? ‘He ask make me nod

 

He want to meet  ‘i mumble

 

Do you want me accompany you ?’

 

I can go alone , don't worry ‘

 

I need finish this alone without involve Mathew or anyone

 

Are you sure?’he ask me again make me nod

 

Don't always try to be strong sweetheart because I know you also a human ‘ he hug me

 

This man know how to make me feel save and loved , he never hurt me not even once but I already hurt him several time

 

I can drive you there if you want ‘

 

I can go alone

 

Really ?? ‘

 

Don't worry to much Matt,  I'm Carla after all ‘

 

Yeah , I'm forgot your Carla Caroline Stewart the baddest female of orchard road  ‘he chuckles while I smile

 

Suddenly I remember how amazing my life when I still in senior high school and collage .

 

Well, I was born with silver spoon in my mouth but luckily my parents not have narrow minded that's why I can enjoy my childhood days with so many wonderful memories and I also can become my own self without faking my personality.

 

I miss that day ‘

 

I miss my baddest girlfriend too’ he hug me while I smile

 

Why you miss that ?? ‘ I ask playfully

 

Because now I just can see my angel girlfriend ‘ he added

 

I'm not a angel Matt and I'll never be angel cause I'm still lacking in everything ‘

 

You're more angel now than in the past babe ‘ he smile

 

I remember when you slap Bethany just cause you think she kiss me ‘he continue make me chuckle

 

I miss that ‘ I muttered

 

I wonder where she's now ‘

 

Cindy must be know that cause you know how update she is ‘

 

Yeah, But more important is Imiss my lovely girlfriend ‘ he hug me tightly

 

Why ?? ‘

 

Cause you can be so cute when we spent time together but now you look so classy ‘

 

it's cause the situation still not in the right way babe ‘ I smile

 

I just hope everything can change more good in the future ‘

 

I hope so ‘

 

Hmm, where's my morning kiss?’he suddenly become so cute

 

You can bet carol with that face ‘ I chuckle while he smile

 

Good morning to you to babe ‘ he peak my lips

 

Did you awake because of me?’ I ask

 

I notice you don't beside me that's why I'm searching for you ‘

 

Sorry ‘

 

Don't be , did you stay for breakfast?’

 

I can't , I've meet Brian ‘

 

Don't you need me there ?’

 

No , I'll be fine like you say I'm the baddest babe  ‘

 

I know but when you need anything call me ‘ he kiss my forehead while I nod

 

Did you guys will be fine if I'm leaving?’I ask

 

We'll be okay honey I promise you ‘he continue while I smile

 

Say my apologies to your mom ‘I said and he nod

 

I've to go , take care ‘I smile while I kiss his cheek

 

 

 

 

 

Mathew pov

 

When Carla leave I sit quietly while thinking about my younger life it so beautiful and colorful because I have Carla and my supportive parents make me feel that I don't need anything because of them .

 

But look at my life now make me realize in life there’s no steady place cause we never know when we’ll be in the highest place and when we have down to the lowest place .

 

No one can stay in one place as long as they life , we always move from the dark to the bright side , from the bright to the dark and God will lead us the the bright again , Yeah ,…. That’s life

 

And I know now my life still in the dark but God already give my angel back to me for bring me back to the bright side make me feel so blessed .

 

T‘ my mom snap me

 

What are you thinking bout kiddo ? You look serious ‘my mom ask while sit beside me

 

It's nothing mom ‘

 

Don't lie ‘

 

I'm serious mom’

 

Whatever you say ‘ my mom rolled her eyes

 

Ah where's lala? I don’t see her  ‘

 

She have finish something mom ‘

 

She don't tell me when she leave‘my mom pout

 

Yes, my mom love Carla so much cause since Carla become my girlfriend , she always come to my home and spent mostly her time with my mom because my mom don’t work so she spent her time at home while Carla's mom working . That's why both of them really close to each other.

 

She just go when her boss call mom ‘

 

At morning ?’my mom ask make me nod

 

Ah I just miss her so much mom ‘

 

Both of us miss her T , but how can you meet her ?? ‘

 

She working in Vouge mom ‘

 

Really?? She must be successfully ‘my mom smile proudly while talking bout Carla

 

She's Carla after all mom ‘ I smile

 

Yeah, but what happen to her face ? Did she really slipped?’

 

Until now just believe she slipped mom ‘

 

Why ? Did something really happen? ‘She look worry

 

No mom ‘

 

Why you hiding that from me ?’

 

Until everything clear just leave this issue mom ‘ I hug her while she nod

 

But promise tell me everything later ‘ I nod

 

Where's Carol ? ‘ mom ask

 

She still sleep mom ‘

 

Did Carla tug her to bed last night ? ‘ Mom ask while I nod

 

She really love Carol , not like Diana ‘

 

You know Diana don't like kids mom ‘

 

But Carol is her own kid ‘

 

Don't talk about her mom ‘

 

Sorry ‘

 

Don’t be mom, ahh you give so much time for Carol and abandon me ‘ I whine while hug her

 

Cause you old already ‘ my mom tap my nose while I smile

 

No , I'm still young daddy ‘

 

Full of yourself babyboy ‘ my mom smile

 

Did we have move here mom ???’

 

Why so sudden  ? ‘

 

I know the truth mom ‘

 

About what ?? ‘

 

About why Carla leave me 6 years ago ‘

 

Why ?? ‘

 

She leave me to save me mom ‘

 

Save you from ??? ‘

 

The death ‘

 

Why you tell that ??? ‘

 

Cause Cindy told me that mom and I already confirm that ‘

 

OMG’

 

Yes, she choose hurting herself and let me blame her for anything just because she want me to be save ‘

 

Carla ‘ my mom tearing now

 

She have a angel heart ‘ my mom said make me nod

 

So what your decision now T?? ‘

 

I want to marry her , mom ‘

 

But she engaged Matt ‘

 

Until the wedding ring not on her finger I'll still waiting for her , mom ‘

 

I'll pray for you Matt ‘ my mom hug me

 

So mom , do you want move here ?? ‘

 

But Don't you have responsibility there ?’

 

I still thinking bout that mom but if I ask  yourself did you want to move here ? ‘

 

Of course I want , this country is my hometown I born and rise here ‘

 

I'll ask daddy first mom ‘ I smile while mom nod

 

Don't to hurry when you want make a decision believe me if you and Carla mean to be you guys will back together,just take it slow ‘

 

I know mom , thank you for supporting me and loving me unconditionally‘I hug my mom tightly just want she to know how much I love her

 

I also thank you also for still standing strongly beside us Matt and prove me you not my babyboy anymore ‘

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Carla pov

 

Okay, I can't wait any longer about this matter. I have finish this no matter what even the bruises from last night still not healed I have meet him and clearing the things between us

 

B:Haloo? Babe ? Finally you call

C: Where are you now? Can we meet?

B: I'm in office babe okay I'll pick you

C: No need , I'll wait in coffee shop near your office

B: Okay I'm on my way

 

I walk nervously to the coffee shop and order Americano while get the nearer chair and wait for Brian . After several minutes I notice Brian running towards the coffee shop while I just waving my hand

 

Sorry make you wait ‘

 

It's fine ‘ I say while he smile and catching his breath

 

Did you order ? ‘ he ask while I rise my cup

 

Just order first ‘ I say while he nod

 

This is the right way Carla ‘ I mumble

 

Sorry ‘he mumble make me nod

 

So what you want talking bout babe ? ‘ he ask while held my hand but I refuse him

 

I want talk about us ‘ I said seriously

 

I know what I do to you last night probably my fault honey ‘he apologize

 

No , this not the first time Bri ‘

 

I know babe , I know I'm wrong ‘

 

You don't know Bri you never know and you never think about me ‘I snap

 

You almost kill me last night and now you apologize? Are you think I'm robot ?? Do you think you can treat me like that ??’ I rise my voice cause how frustrated Iam

 

Sorry babe sorry ‘

 

I don't need your sorry Brian , please see  the doctor you need that ‘

 

I don't say you crazy but this for your sake Bri’I finish

 

I'll babe, I'll do anything for you ‘

 

No don't say or do anything for me , do that for your own self  cause I don't think I can Stan longer beside you ‘

 

What do you mean?’

 

I… Want we take a break ‘I can notice the shocked in his face

 

We can talking bout this matter babe, please ‘ he beg while grab my hand but I refuse

 

We already talking bout this not for the first time Bri’

 

Babe ‘ he want to reach me but I push him

 

Let me talk first ‘

 

You always say I cheating behind you but you never let me explain anything ‘I speak with the serious voice

 

You always get mad before knowing the truth , you always hurt me Bri physical and emotional ‘ I can't hold my anger any longer

 

I'm sorry Carl , I'll change ‘

 

No , you'll never change beside your own self want it Bri, I can't change you and no one can ‘

 

But you promise to stay with me babe , you promise ‘

 

You also promise to get therapy and see the doctor but you don't keep that ‘

 

But-‘

 

I already take this decision Bri please appreciate that ‘

 

I can't life without you Carl ‘ he tearing while say that

 

You can Bri , I know you can ‘ I wiped his tears

 

Carl ‘ he cry make me hug him

 

Sorry I can't ‘ I release him

 

Thank you for everything Bri , thank you for always standing for me ‘ I kiss his cheek while the tears keep flowing from his eyes

 

I have to go , see you around ‘ I smile while hug him again but he crying so hard in my embrace

 

Bye’ I said while leave him

 

If you ask me how I feel now ???

 

Hmm, now i'm feel free (?) or relief (?) , finally my heart feel so lightly and it’s  feel like in my younger time

 

I enter my car while drive to my parents house or should I say my home ?? why I feel so have when remember about my parents face?? It’s  that because finally I don’t have lying to them anymore about Brian ?? or it’s  because I miss them ??

 

MATHEW

 

C: Hallo ?

M: Carl ? Are you okay ??

C: I'm fine Matt

 

I smile when talking to Mathew cause it's feel so good

 

M: Did you meet him ? Did he hurt you ?? Where are you now ?

C: So many questions

M: I'm worry babe

C: I'm fine Matt and I on my way home

M: Your way ??

C: Yeah

M: Where you go ?

C: Home

M: Do want me to come ? 

C: No, I'm fine I'm swear

M: I miss you already

C: So cheesy

M: I tell you the truth

C: I know you serious

M: Did you drive ??

C: Yeah

M: Call me when you arrive babe

C:Ok

 

I hug up the call while smiling, maybe that’s just simple and normal question but for me it’s  more than that because Mathew know how to show his worry towards me and how he protect me

I still wonder how can this boy still make me feel butterfly in my stomach after he left me for 6 years ??

 

When I arrived, I notice in the garage my dad car already parking there

 

Mom, I'm home ‘

 

Still remember your house ‘ my mom said sarcastically

 

Mommy ‘ I hug her while she tap my nose

 

Mathew’s  mom call me last night and tell you at their house‘ mom said while I sit at living room

 

Yeah , Mathew daughter beg me to stay ‘

 

Did she cute ?? I look at Mathew picture and she really cute ‘

 

She really cute mom , she also really cheerful ‘

 

Oh God, did you love kids now ?’ My mom ask

 

I never hate them mom ‘

 

Don't kidding with me , you even glare every time kids come here ‘

 

I don't hate them mom , I just hate when they make a noisy ‘

 

Whatever ‘ my mom rolled her eyes

 

What happen to your face again ? ‘ my mom grab my chin while notice the bruises

 

Nothing happens mom’ I get my bag and leave my mom

 

I need to escape before she ask me a tons of question

 

Carl ‘

 

Did Brian do this to you ?’ my mom ask carefully while I sigh

 

Who tell you mom ?? ‘

 

No one ‘

 

Mom, forgive me for lie to you and daddy ‘ I hug her

 

Finally , you want talk bout this Carl ?’

 

Mom , sorry ‘ i'm crying now

 

I know everything Carl‘she reach my face

 

Not because someone told me but because since the first time he hurt you I know’ she caressing my face make my tears don’t stop flowing

 

I never ask you anything cause I think you love him so much but when I know you don’t love me I angry towards you Carl, how can you lie to me ?? how can you let me believe you love him ?? ‘ my mom also crying now

 

I notice every time you back with swollen eyes and bruises everywhere in your body ‘she look at me while still crying

 

I always covering you from your daddy cause I know how  much your daddy love you and he will explode when know someone hurt his daughter ‘

 

Sorry mom, I can't tell you anything bout Brian because I don’t want you hate him’

 

How I don’t hate him ?? i'm your mom but I never hurt you , never ‘ she sobbing

 

Mom ‘

 

How can you stay at him for 3 years Carl ?? How???’

 

Honestly , he’s so kind mom, he help me so many times , he help me standing again ‘

 

But he also hurt you Carl , I know when your pelvis broke and get surgery , i'm coming to hospital but I just can see you from afar ‘

 

Oh God, How I don’t know my mom know about the surgery ?? I already make sure no one know of this , I even told the hospital manager to keep their mouth shout , but how can my mom know ??

 

He not that bad mom ‘

 

How can you still backing up him with everything he do to you honey?? ‘ my mom ask me

 

He just sick mom but deep in his heart I know e love me so much and he never want to hurt me ‘ I explain while my mom hug me

 

I'm glad Mathew back and I know you will happy with him babygirl ‘ my mom hug me tightly while I sobbing

 

Mom ‘

 

Please be happy my princess , you deserve that ‘

 

You deserve the happiness now babygirl ‘

 

Thank you mom, thank you ‘ I smile while my mom wiped my tears