Carla pov

When I wake up because of the light of the sun I notice a pair of hands hugging me tightly sent a warm feelings towards my body make me don't want to leave this pair of hands and this is definitely not Brian hands, i'm swear because his hands never sent any feelings towards me and i don't know why ??

When I try to look around, make me realize this also not my bed or Brian bed and definetly not the Hotel because how can Hotel look so dull and old like this ?? i keep searching and wondering why i feel so familiar to this room ? did i have go here ??? but when ?? and why i don't remember ??

Because i feel so distrub with the tight hug arround my body and I try to release myself from that's hands but the hands hugging me more tightly

Babe let me sleep more,  don't move ‘ a deep voice said in my shoulder make me shock at first cause that's definetly not Brian voice but when i know who's the owner of the voice, i froze

Let me sleep 5 minutes more, Honey ' the y voice keep ringing in my ears

Oh God, How can i end with Mathew ?? Don't we just talk last night ?? Or did we do something ??

I miss your scent babe ' he said while kiss my shoulder

When his lips touching my skin i feel the electrict around my body and i can't lie about i'm missing his touch

We will get into the trouble today ‘i mumble

Let we face the problem together honey ‘he broke the hug and face me

Morning beautiful ‘he smile sweetly to me make me remember about our younger day

He's the first guy who get my attention cause of his genius in music , he the only guy who come to my house and get my daddy permission for taking me in to a date , he the one who get my first kiss and he also the guy who take my ity , he the reason for me to keep survive and even my mouth say I don’t need him anymore, my heart can't lie i'm missing him

I miss him, i need him and I love him so much, if i can choose i want be with him for the rest of my life, i never imagine how i can't life without him in the past and when i have trough this painful life i'm regret leaving him, i'm regret 

Can we back together babe ? ' he ask while kiss my lips

He never failed amazing me when we have a relationshipo for 5 years , he never hurt me never but when i look at his face i remember Brian, i remember how many time Brian hug me when i'm crying because missing Mathew , how many time he bring me Book to make me forget about Mathew ,

I know i don't love Brian but i can't cheating behind him with Mathew because I'm still his girlfriend

I push Mathew and stand from the bed

Babe 'he call me probably because he also shock

We can't continue this Matt ‘ I said while get all my things

Why not ?? Do you ever love him ??’

Maybe don't love him but he love me so much ‘ I said while get my bag

' he curse

I will call taxi for you ‘ I say while leave him dumbfounded

I can't back to him even I want it, I can't ,yes you can't Carla you have Brian and I'll get married with him no matter what happens…. Yeah I have made my decision

I enter my car with confused heart and I don’t know where to go .

I can't back to my home cause my mom will investigate me and bombarded me with hundreds question  ask me to spill everything to her ‘ I thought

Office ?? Yeah maybe office will the safe place for me now or not? Shasa must be there and  I also can't go to office cause shasa will also ask me why I don’t attend the meeting last night and I can't spotted in hotel cause it’s  will ruined my career .

*Phone Ringing*

CINDY

Yes ,cindy ‘ I thought

Cindy : Halo ? Carl ?

C: Where are you ?

Cindy : Home , why ?

I hang up the call while drive to cindy apartment , yeah I need her now

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When i arrive in Cindy's Apartment, i don't have time to retouch my make up cause i know my face will look swollen and red, well, effect of crying. So, i just enter the elavator and go to Cindy Unit

OMG Carla ‘ Cindy surprise when find me so messy make she hug me

What happen ?? Why you ?? ‘ Cindy ask me

Did you sick ?? 'she ask while we enter her apartment

Did Brian hurt you again ?? ' she keep asking while help me sit in the couch

Carla ?? ' she call me again

Carl, i told you about leave him ' she wipes my tears

He hurt you everyday '

I love him Cin , so much ‘ I sobbing in her embrace

Who? ' she ask

Mathew' i sobbed

I know about that Carl , all of us know la ‘she tell me make me crying more

So, what happend ?? '

We can't back together ‘ I continue

Why not?? ‘She ask me but I'm still sobbing

Why Carl ?? Why you can't back to Mathew ? ‘

Last night you go with him right?’ She ask and I nod

So ? What's the problem now ?? ‘

Brian ‘

Brian ?’ She repeat my question

Yes'

What happen to that beast ? '

He's my fiancé Cin ‘

Oh gosh , why you have think about that beast ??!!’

He's my fiancé, You can't change the fact Cin  ‘

I know, I can't change that ing fact but the whole world know the truth of your heart’ Cindy snap me with anger

We know you never love him Carla ‘ she look so angry(?) or disappointed (?)

I love him '

Don't saying ing joke with me!! I know you don't love him not even a slight ‘

I'm your bestfriend Carla, i know you more than you think i know '

No, i love him ' i still trying to strong and to stand of my decision

You never love him Carla why you have fool yourself?? Why ??’she said frustrated and I see tears on her eyes

I don't fool my self '

Whatever you say !!'

You never let me tell anything to your parents about Brian even im knelling in front of you !!! why ?!!!' cindy shout while teary

I know i'm just your bestfriend, i know i can't do anything for you but i just want you to be happy Carl ' she crying hard now

It's not like that Cin ‘ I try to talk

So what? What do you want to tell me? ‘she ask me

How can you changes become this week Carl?? why ??'

You use to protect me when the spoiled brat bully me, you always standing strong behind me to push me become more and more good but why now you become this week ?? why ??? ' she broke down in front of me make me crying

Cin' i hug her

Why you have let he hurt you ?? '

He crazy Carl, you don't need him '

Let Mathew back to your heart , let he complete you Carl'

I just think Mathew and me will never can back together ‘

Why? because that beast ?’ She ask sarcastically

We have our own life ‘

Yeah you have your perfect fiancé ‘

Don't always fool yourself Carl , don't always say you love him but you not ‘

But I can't do anything ‘

You can but you don't want to fight you choose to give up before you know how the end that's the ing truth of your perfect life  Carla ‘ Cindy leave me alone with many things in my mind

Cindy leave dumbfounded in living room while thinking about every single things she told me and her words make me realize somethings that I never realized

Cause I know every single word Cindy say are truth, I know I'm still love Mathew with all my heart and I can't even forget him since 6 years ago, and leaving him was the hurtful mistake that I regret so much but I also can't forget who beside me in the past 6 years, who comforts me in my struggles time ? I can't abdomen Brian, even I want back to Mathew, I can't, I can't

Cause Maybe…….. This was my destiny……… maybe this is what I've to trough(?)