2 weeks before the wedding

 

 

Oh God ‘I run to bathroom for nth time today cause I feel very dizzy and I want to vomit when I move around

 

God what happen to me ?? ‘I wash my mouth while go back to my office and finishing my work

 

Today will become the last day I'm working before I take 2 months rest for my honeymoon but doesn't mean I don't do my responsibility it's just I don't come to office

 

Ma'am ‘Shasa knock while enter my room

 

This is the last paper for today ‘she hand me a envelope

 

Thank you sha ‘

 

That's not a problem ma'am , I'm happy finally you get married ‘ she smile while I nod

 

Well- ‘before I can continue my words, I already feel nausea and run to the bathroom

 

Ma'am?’ Shasa help me tie my hair while I vomit

 

Did you okay ma'am ??’ She ask worryingly

 

I'm fine maybe just little bit tired ‘I assure her while she give me mineral water

 

Don’t doing overboard ma'am ‘

 

I know Sha but you know I'll take a long rest right ??’

 

I don’t want make Shasa have to do all my task that’s why I finish all the report and paper last night

 

But you also have to take care of your own self ma'am ‘

 

Knock .. Knock

 

I'll check it ma'am‘Shasa said make me nod

 

My head feel so dizzy like my world spinning now I want back to my chair but I can't so that's why I'm stay at the bathroom

 

Babe ?!’ I heard Mathew panic voice

 

Honey ? What happen? Did you sick ??’ He ask while hug me tightly

 

I'm fine just tired’I said while try to stand But I'm fall make he grab me in hurry

 

You not fine honey, you look so pale ‘he cares my face while check my temperature

 

You burning ‘

 

I’m fine babe ‘

 

No you not, we have see the Doctor 'he said while carry me

 

I can walk babe ‘

 

Please, we in public now Matt, even I want you become this sweet but I can't so many staff will be here and it’s ashamed

 

You not, I'll carry you ‘

 

Oh God’ I mumble while hide my face in his neck

 

Sha, can you finish Carla work ?? ‘he ask Shasa

 

Don't worry sir, I'll take care of it ‘

 

Thank you ‘ Mathew said while Shasa pack my things and follow Mathew

 

Sha’ I mumble

 

Ma’am it’s for your own ‘she coax me

 

You not helping Sha ‘ I mumble while Shasa smile

 

Like what I predict when we walk out from my office all eyes already follow our steps with so many soft words heard

 

Yeah ,they probably wondering what happen to me and why Mathew can be here ?? I know , I know ‘ I talk in my head

 

We have to go Sha’ he tell Shasa while he put me down slowly to the passenger sit

 

I’ll finish the task ma’am don’t worry ‘ she smile at me

 

Tell madam Monic ‘

 

I’ll ma’am ‘ she smile while close the door and Mathew enter the car

He drive to the nearest clinic with maximum speed I think, because I want to vomit when he stop the car probably because i'm dizzy .

 

Babe ?’ he look at me

 

You drive like crazy ‘I glare at him while he smile

 

I’m panic ‘

 

I'm fine’

 

You not’ he walk out  and help me walk

 

Since when you like this babe ?? ‘

 

Several days ago ‘

 

Why don't you tell me anything?’ He ask

 

I'm fine actually’

 

Always deny ‘

 

I'm swear I just feel like normal ‘

 

So how you ended vomit since several days ago ‘ he shake his head

 

Hmm,  maybe just cause I don't get properly sleep last night ‘

 

Why ?’he ask

 

I have so many unfinished work ‘

 

Don’t force yourself babe ‘he hug me

 

I'm not ‘ he sigh while hug me

 

Babe ‘ I call him and push him away

 

What ?’ he surprise

 

You smelly ‘

 

What ?? I wear the same perfume babe ‘ he said while sniff his own

 

I'm swear you smelly ‘ I keep say

 

Yes, he so smelly today and I don’t like his smell

 

You strange babe ‘ he said make me rolled my eyes

 

You the one who smell but you told me strange ‘

 

Miss Carla ‘

 

Yes ?’ I answer while approach the nurse

 

The doctor is waiting ‘

 

Thank you ‘ I smile

 

Ah, sir who are you ? ‘the nurse ask Mathew

 

We married actually ‘he corrected the nurse make me slap his hands

 

Okay ‘ the nurse smile

 

Just in case ‘he smile while we heading to the doctor room

 

Good morning miss Carla ‘the beautiful doctor greet me while I nod

 

And ?’

 

Mathew, her husband ‘ he said make the doctor nod

 

Newlywed? ‘

 

Yes ‘Mathew smile

 

Waiting the good news probably ‘ the doctor look at me and smile

 

So , What happen to you miss? ‘

 

I don't know doc, it's just I vomit several times since 3 days ago and I feel dizzy’

 

When the last time you period? ‘

 

I don't know, I forget that cause so many things running in my head ‘

 

Hmm, first let we check your urine miss ‘she handed me a cup

 

 

Did she want me test my urine ?? did she think i'm pregnant ?? oh God please not nowbecause my wedding just coming soon and Carol also still don't know anything about our new relationship plus I still don't know how to tell Carol about this

 

Let me remember when the last time we doing ‘that’ ?

 

So what the result doc ? ‘ I ask

 

Well, the test show you pregnant miss ‘the doctor announcement make me shock while Mathew look at me with his smiling face

 

Oh God’

 

I forgot eat the pill and Mathew also don’t wear any protection that night !

 

Are you sure doc ?? Can you check that again ?? ‘ I ask

 

Yeah, I'm pretty sure you pregnant miss and it's one month already ‘

 

Oh My God ‘Mathew hug me tightly while my mind still don't know how to react

 

Did I have to happy ?? well honestly i'm happy about this but how will Carol react ?? will she hate me ??

 

Did you want to see the baby ? ‘Doctor ask while Mathew nod excitedly

 

Please' he said make doctor smile

 

He look so happy because this news , i'm not saying I don’t happy right ?? i'm happy now i'm pregnant but how will Carol react about this ?/

 

Do you see the little dot there ?’

 

Yes’ Mathew answer with his hands still held my hand tightly

 

That's your baby ‘

 

When the doctor say that I don't notice my tears streaming down from my eyes because honestly I still not believe in my womb living a baby

 

Thank you babe, thank you ‘ he kiss my forehead while I also notice his eyes teary

 

Congratulations sir Mathew ‘

 

Thank you doc ‘

 

In our way home one of Mathew hand don't leave my stomach make me feel happy yet worry about how to explain everything to Carol

 

Babe ? ‘he call make me look at him

 

Did you not happy about the baby?’ He ask carefully

 

He maybe feel that because I don’t react

 

It's not like that, it's just I worry about Carol ‘

 

Don't worry about her babe, believe me she'll be happy ‘ he assured me while kiss my hand

 

Believe me ‘ Honestly I also just can hope Carol will happy with this news

 

Don't tell the others until I'm ready babe ‘ I said while we want to enter my house make he nod

 

When I enter my house it’s  really quite ?? where are my daddy and my mommy also where Carol ??

 

Mom’ I shout while walk in

 

Garden ‘

 

Slowly ‘ he told me make me nod

 

Before I reach the garden Carol already running towards me make me smile and carry her

 

Oh God, did you miss me that much?’ I ask while nod and kiss my cheek

 

Forget you have a daddy little lady ‘ Mathew speak make Carol giggles and she pull her daddy towards me

 

I miss both of you aunty and daddy ‘she smile

 

Why you so late ?? ‘ she ask me when Mathew already get her from me

 

I have finish some work honey ‘ I answer make she nod

 

So, what are you doing little princess ?’ he ask

 

I help Nanai and Yeye plant some flower dad ‘

 

Are you really helping babygirl ? ‘ he ask

 

Of course ‘ she proudly said make me smile

 

God, I never want more when I have them besides me because they lighten my world and they make me feel so lovable just because their present in my life .

 

The day before the wedding

 

Since last night my body feel so tired and I don’t know why because i'm not doing anything for the past 2 weeks since I get my long break from Vouge

 

But since last night I can't eat or walk out from my bed make Mathew so worry about me that’s why he come to my house and enter from the window

 

Are you sure that you fine babe ?’ He ask while caressing my back and held my hair

 

I'm fine ‘ I said while sit at the closet and he kneels down

 

You look so pale now honey ‘ he cup my face while I maintain to smile

 

Can you handle the wedding ?’ He ask make me nod

 

Don't worry too much honey , we'll be fine ‘ I said while place his hands in my flat stomach

 

It’s still feel unreal for me ‘ I told him

 

Yeah, this pregnancy still amazing for me why not ?? I never expect pregnant before the wedding day but here i'm now

 

It’s not just for you babe ‘ he smile

 

Sorry ‘ he hug me

 

He always say sorry since I sick last night because he can't do anything to take the pain from me

 

Baby don't make mommy so weak ‘ he talk to the baby

 

I can't bear look her like that ‘ he continue while I smile

 

I'll be fine babe ‘I smile while he peak my lips

 

Thanks for standing this strong babe and sorry again because I can't do anything ‘ he kiss my hand while I nod

 

Thank you also for giving me such a beautiful life babe ‘ I said he hug me while suddenly my mom and Carol enter my room

 

Carl ?’

 

Bathroom mom ‘

 

Matt ‘ my mom look surprise

 

Hello aunt ‘ he smile

 

How can you here ? ‘ my mom ask while little Carol come

 

Daddy ‘

 

Hi babygirl ‘ he smile

 

Don’t daddy can't come here ?’ Carol ask but Mathew just smile

 

Why both of you stay here ? That's not good for bride and groom meet today ‘she remind us but before we say any words

 

Lala you look pale honey ‘she reach my face

 

I’m fine mom ‘

 

Did you sick ? ‘she ask but I shake my head

 

So ? ‘

 

That's normal mom ‘ Mathew suddenly said

 

Oh my, Matt why you say that to my mom ?

 

Normal ? ‘my mom question again but Mathew let her thinking

 

Aunty ? Did you sick ? ‘Carol ask while I sit her in my laps

 

No honey, I'm just tired ‘

 

But you look so weak ‘

 

That's only your imagination babygirl ‘ I smile while kiss her cheek

 

Don't sick aunty because I love you so much ‘ she said lovingly make me tearing

 

Oh God the pregnancy hormones ‘ I curse while Carol notice my tears

 

Don't cry aunty ‘she wipes my tears

 

Carl did you pregnant?’ My mom suddenly ask

 

I maintain my poker face while Mathew already smile ear to ear

 

Oh my God , is that true ? ‘my mom ask me while I slowly nod

 

Carla ‘my mom hug me still with Carol in my laps looking so confused

 

Thanks God’

 

Carol you'll have a siblings ‘my mom blurred make Carol shock

 

Mom ‘ I stop her

 

I will have what aunty ? ‘she ask me with her shock face

 

Please

 

You will have a sister or brother babygirl ‘Mathew added

 

Not you also Matt

 

I’ll have a sibling ?’

 

Honey it's not like you think ‘ I try to reach her hands but she walk away from me

 

Carol ‘Mathew call her softly but she already crying and run away from us

 

Oh my, Carol ‘ I want to catch her but my head so dizzy

 

Babe, don't push yourself ‘ Mathew remain me while I already crying

 

I told you she'll hate this babe , I told you ‘ I sobbing hardly in his embrace while my mom caressing my back

 

I'll try talk to her‘ my mom said while leave us

 

She'll be fine babe‘ he assume me

 

I want meet her ‘ I walk to the guest room where my mom still trying to coax Carol

 

Knock…..knock

 

Carol, honey let Nanai talk to you babygirl ‘my mom still knocking but no respond from Carol

 

Carol ‘

 

Babygirl, let me in ‘

 

Carol, it’s me Carla ‘I knock the door again  but no response

 

Let her cooling down first babe ‘he stop me

 

I need talk to her first ‘

 

Mom do you have double key ?’ I ask and my mom nod while get the key

 

Honey just let her calm down first ‘Mathew said

 

I just want know why she so upset after that I’ll stop ‘I said while my mom give me the key

 

Carl ‘my mom come and give the key for me

 

Don’t push her to much Carl ‘my mom remain me again make me nod

 

Are you sure babe ?’ he ask me again

 

Don’t worry ‘

 

Babygirl? Carol ? I'll in ‘ I said before enter the room and I find Carol crying beside the bed make me approach her while sit beside her

 

Why you come ? I want alone’ she sobbed while I reach her wet face but she refuse

 

I come because I'm worry about you ‘I tell her softly

 

I don’t need you ‘she said make me feel stabbed in my heart

 

Why you crying that much babygirl? Did you hate me that much ?’ I ask while hold my tears and ignored her words

 

Just leave me ‘she said

 

Just tell me you hate me and I'll leave you alone forever ‘ I tell while try to stand but she held my hand

 

Don’t you want me to leave you ? ‘ I ask her but she just stay in her position

 

Don't go, don't go aunty ‘ she sobbing while I hug her tightly

 

I'll never leave you babygirl never ‘

 

I love you aunty ‘

 

I love you more than you know babygirl ‘

 

Did you will hate me when the baby born ? ‘ suddenly she ask

 

What ? ‘

 

Did you will hate me later ? ‘

 

Why you did say that ?’

 

My friends tell me when my stepmother have her own baby she will hate me and kick me out from the house ‘she innocent said while I release her

 

And you believe it babygirl?’I ask her but she just keep silence

 

Did you believe that ? ‘

 

They say you'll do that even I don't believe because I'm not your own baby ‘ she sobbing make my heart feel hurt

 

Did you love me babygirl?’

 

Of course ‘

 

Did you love me even if I'm not the one who giving birth you ?’

 

I love you more than I love mommy Di ‘

 

So how can I don't love you back ? You love me even I’m not your own mom and I'll never be’

 

Are you tell me the truth aunty ?’she ask while I nod

 

Even when the baby born ? ‘

 

The baby will become your siblings honey ‘ I tell her

 

But their your own baby while i'm not ‘

 

Before they born , you already become my babygirl how I don’t love you ? ‘

 

I'll love you babygirl even if you hate me I'll love you ‘I said while Carol already hug me tightly

 

I don’t hate you aunty ‘

 

And I'll never hate you aunty ‘

 

Really ? ‘I ask her make she nod

 

Thank you babygirl ‘ I hug her

 

Sorry mommy ‘Carol suddenly said make me look at her

 

Did you call me mommy ? ‘I ask her make she nod

 

Can I call you mommy?’she ask while I already crying and nod

 

Why you have to ask honey ?’ I ask while hug her

 

Thank you mommy , thank you ‘ she mumble while I still sobbed

 

And I notice my mom also teary standing beside the door with Mathew

 

Aigoo ‘my mom wiped her tears while Mathew come and hug us

 

Don’t cry again both of my love ‘he said

 

Daddy, i'm sorry ‘Carol apologize

 

Forgive me to babygirl, I don’t think about your feelings  ‘

 

Now, let open our new life the three of us ‘ he said make me nod

 

No daddy ‘

 

What ?’

 

The four of us ‘Carol said make me smile

 

Yeah the four of us ‘ he hug us again

 

God, thank you for give me such a beautiful life with the person I love and with the cheerful girl in our life .