When he leave, I think everything will become dark, when he leave I know there’s no more the lovely Carla , there’s no more smiling Carla and when he leave I know that’s the end for all my happiness .

At least that’s what I thought until now .

Until everything changes, yeah that’s what my close person tell me .

But honestly, nothing changes, cause my heart still belong to him no matter how hard i'm trying to accept Brian for me he just a second choice.

And deep in my heart i'm still waiting him to come back to me …. Even I know that’s just impossible …

I know Brian love me, I know but I can't fool my own heart cause I don’t love him and never can love him because my heart will always yours  …. Mathew