Previously

Suho was taken by his father. Se Hun seeks for God to make sure if it was God's interference. 

CHAPTER 8

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Suho

“Dad”

“Son”

My dad and I are in like staring contest.

“Can I?”

I asked.

He just stared. He didn’t answer. I’m so tired of asking permissions. I normally don’t because he is disapproved of many things I did. But when I think back, I never really asked his permissions before. I just did s and my dad cleaned up after me.

“Honey? Can we speak? Please?” My mom dragged my father. And everything is really quiet I almost heard everything they said.

My mom is talking about how I never asked respectfully before and convincing him he should. I didn’t see the good outcome but the way my Dad isn’t yelling at me? I think my mother is winning him over.

“Are you sure you’re not eloping with him?”

“No… Dad, I don’t wanna get married. I’m 23. I just… you said he was… he approached me because of orders. I just want to see and hear if those are true. I just need to, please understand me.”

“Honey”

My mother is looking at me like she understands me. But does she really? I am not sure. My heart, my mind is confused. I feel many mixed emotions and I’m pretending like I’m fine. That it’s cool. But no, I feel like punching someone. I feel like drowning also. Why is it about him might not be in love with me makes me feel all these?

Going to Se Hun’s house is… a like nerve-wrecking. What am I even gonna say to him? Ask him those questions and if he said yes? I know he loves me. BUT, I hate that I am not sure about it. I hate that small percent of me is doubting him. My mind traveled to that night. The last night we had . All those words coming to me like waves, like hurricane, it hit me. And I smiled. All those things we had done. How can I doubt his love? I mean, if he doesn’t love me, if that one hell of speech is a lie, every other things he said could be a set up.

It’s kinda messy to be set up. It can’t be it, a set up. He loves me and I love him. I’m gonna see him. I will say sorry. I will apologize to him that I doubted his love. I smiled.

All the way to his home. I don’t bother knocking or ringing the door bell because Se Hun said it’s our home. Also it’s unlock, I just go in. I ran to the living room, he isn’t there. I ran to the upstairs. He gotta be somewhere at home. I…

You know, there’s a split second that changes everything. Everything you believe in, put your faith in, everything around your just collapses.

My mind shut out what I found on the floor. My mind shut out what I heard from the room in front of me. I shut my mind off. I stop thinking. I stop seeing. I stop… breathing.

Se Hun’s voice, shoutin