Genre: Angst, slice-of-life

Rate: pg-13

Summary: The land and sky are meant to be separated, but they can watch each other from a distance. [take time to read the authors note at the end please]

 

 

Hello, it's me

I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet

To go over everything

They say that time's supposed to heal ya

But I ain't done much healing

 

They were different.

But for some reason, their differences made them come closer together.

People would say that they were bordering the line between friendship and romance, but they knew exactly where they stood.

They were friends.

Bestfriends.

They went to neighboring schools, they have only met twice, they’ve never hugged, but they know more about each other than they do themselves.

With calls till 4 a.m, school day or not.

That one time they made their skype usernames into “Jongsoo” just to trick their friends.

The secrets they told one another, the “I love you’s” that were said but without the heavy meaning held behind it.

Everyone saw it.

Kyungsoo’s friends, Jongin’s friends; some of the people who often joined their calls. But in the end, no one could keep up with their rigorous hours.

They always started the call with hello and always ended with goodbye, maybe the occasional “I love you” but that was it.

Everything was perfect, they were perfect.

But that was only in their eyes.

“He’s rude Jongin.”

“No, he’s just, honest!”

No one could understand Kyungsoo the way Jongin did, viceversa.

They were different, but they matched.

What did the conversations of land and sky look like?

 

 

 

 

Kyungie: What if I had that disease.....?

Kyungie: Would you stay at my hospital bed?

Jonginnie: If I had a special relationship with you

Jonginnie: Then I'd stay by your side

Kyungie: Oh so we don't?

Kyungie: Well, okay...Ima just go cliff diving now.

Jonginnie: I mean yeah if our relationship grows

Jonginnie: I'd stay by your side

Jonginnie: And like idk feed you soup

Jonginnie: Whatever sick people eat

Kyungie: I can imagine that.

Jonginnie: Wait imagine what

Kyungie: I can imagine you spooning me food. XD

Jonginnie: Oh oki

Jonginnie: Yeah I've been to the hospital a lot

Jonginnie: I hate it

Kyungie: yeah

Jonginnie: I hate the smell

Jonginnie: I hate the beeping of moniters

Jonginnie: Ugh and I hate the people that watch over them

Kyungie: What about them? They're doctors?

Jonginnie: The nurses the caretakers the ones who just like give out food and stuff like that

Kyungie: oh

Jonginnie: Their disgusted faces when they see patients, like they don't even care

Kyungie: woah.

Kyungie: Deep.

Jonginnie: Nigga pls I can be hella deep

Kyungie: Woah there.

Jonginnie: I can be deeper than a in a

 

 

 

 

What does it look like when land and sky meet?

When they notice that the sky is to high and the land is too low.

 

 

 

 

Kyungie: Actually not that bored, I've always loved storms.

Kyungie: Have you?

Jonginnie: yeah, it’s comforting I guess

Kyungie: What I'd do to just stay outside in the rain. I'd be sitting on a porch. And just watching the rain pound against the floor.

Jonginnie: i like playing outside and running around or like stick my feet out at the rain. i like sleeping during a storm tho its like comfortable

Kyungie: Not for me XD

Kyungie: We kind of have different views

Jonginnie: but we still both like the rain

 

 

 

 

What happens when land and sky collide?

A fight.

A bad one.

Where the sky let down a rain and drowned the land, or where the land rose high past the sky, cutting through it.

Details won’t be said, because there is too much to say and not enough time.

What happens when land and sky make up?

Let’s just say that when the land is damaged, vice versa, nothing can be the same.

 

 

 

 

Kyungsoo: I want to time travel, now that would keep me busy.

Kyungsoo: If you could travel back in time, what would you change and why?

Jongin: Ummmmm, our argument.

Kyungsoo: Haha, that was a pretty stupid argument.

Jongin: it really was.

 

 

 

 

What happens when land and sky are forced together?

 

 

 

 

The sound of glass breaking is deafening.

“Jongin! Jongin, stop!”

“C’mon Sehun! Why don’t I just tell everyone how much of a cheater my father is! Look, Kyungsoo is on! Why don’t I tell him huh?”

Kyungsoo is added to the call and the first he hears is a scream, the second is a crash.

“Jongin? What are you doing? What’s wrong?”

“My dad’s a cheater that’s what’s ing wrong!”

“Jongin, don’t.”

“No Sehun! I should just tell every single ing person! , what the am I going to do! He promised he ing promised he wouldn’t do it again. Mom doesn’t know what the am I going to do!”

The last word is accompanied by a fist. No one questions where he punched.

Kyungsoo knows this sound.

“Jongin what are yo-”

“I- It was just, in the moment- Kyungsoo I didn’t mean to-”

“Jongin put the glass down…”

There is nothing on the other line, Sehun is crying, Jongin is breathing, but Kyungsoo can almost hear the blood dripping from his wrist.

“I’m sorry Kyungsoo.”

“Sing for me.”

“Wha-”

“Just do it.”

So Jongin does. His voice is shaky, and he always knew that he was way better in the dancing department.

Jongin is crying, well, he was, now he’s smiling.

He’s sitting in his bedroom in the middle of the mess he has made, with Sehun and Kyungsoo on the line.

When he’s done, Kyungsoo speaks.

“What was that song called?”

“Beautiful by Byun Baekhyun.” Jongin replies.

“Wow, that’s exactly how your voice sounds.”

Jongin teaches Kyungsoo the song and they spend the rest of the day calling with Sehun.

Everything is back to normal.

But the land and sky can never meet.

 

 

 

 

“Where are you?”

“Oh, I just left…”

“I just came!”

“Kyungsoo it’s okay! Really, I can give you your present another time.”

It was Kyungsoo’s birthday.

They were going to meet at Kyungsoo’s school dance but his parents said no.

Jongin went anyway and hung out with their mutual friends, Chanyeol, Baekhyun, Tao and Yifan.

When Jongin left the dance, he missed Kyungsoo’s car parking.

He missed Kyungsoo running into the venue.

He missed the look on Kyungsoo’s face.

And after that, for some reason, they didn’t speak of meeting again.

They barely talked after that.

 

 

 

 

Kyungsoo: When I talk to you guys.

Kyungsoo: It doesn't feel the same. The spark. I can't feel the same way I did a year ago.

Jongin: what about when you talk to me?

Kyungsoo: It's not the same.

Jongin: i don't want it to be but I want it to exist

Kyungsoo: I'm not the cool and serious guy I'm shown in the outside. On the inside. I'm loud and weird. That doesn't fit together.

Jongin: and on the outside, I'm loud and weird. on the inside. well. you've seen the inside.

Kyungsoo: A boy with amazing talents.

Jongin: not really, that's the outside, its always been the outside, and I've seen how you really act sometimes

Kyungsoo: How?

Jongin: how you can be happy and weird, you must not remember some calls that well, everything you don't remember, I probably do

Kyungsoo: We've been talking over on a phone, not in school.

Jongin: you talk to me when you're alone and no one is watching, not face to face, and you show me sometimes what you really feel

Kyungsoo: I'm not the guy everyone wants me to be.

Jongin: but I don't want you to be anything

Jongin: I just

Jongin: ugh

Jongin: I just want YOU again in my life

Kyungsoo: Don't worry Jongin

Kyungsoo: We're still friends.Just not as close. Anymore.

Jongin: bUT IT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE IT! and maybe its my fault that you can't let go either

Kyungsoo: No it isn't.  I'll still remember the calls. But it's hazy. The talks we've had.

Jongin: i miss it so goddamn much

Kyungsoo: Stop missing it.

Jongin: that's telling me to forget

Kyungsoo: Forget then.

Jongin: then it won't exist

Jongin: and that's all I ever wanted

Jongin: just what do you think I want from you?

Kyungsoo: The guy I was back then.

Jongin: no

Kyungsoo: I'm not the same guy Jongin.

Jongin: I don't need the same guy I really just need you in general

Kyungsoo: Stop being dramatic, you'll find more people like me. Or better.

Jongin: im not being dramatic im being honest. I just want it to be somewhat normal

Kyungsoo: It's not normal anymore. I'm just a guy that everyone will forget.

Jongin: I don't need a Korean drama, i have enough of those, I just honestly, 100%, want to know that this is still gonna exist

Kyungsoo: It can't anymore Jongin.

Kyungsoo: Maybe it will. With another person. But my part is done.

Jongin: why won't you let me in?

Kyungsoo: I'm a careless man.

Jongin: and I'm someone who cares, just stop pushing me

Kyungsoo: I can easily just forget you.

Jongin: just try boi I'll always be somewhere in your heart, even I know that I made an impact. if you made an impact on my life, I'm pretty sure I have to yours

Kyungsoo: I've been trying to forget my past life.  And it has been working well.  I'm sorry Jongin. To be really honest with you. If you haven't talked to me today. We probably would've never talked. Ever.

Jongin: which is what my job is, to keep reminding you that i exist

Kyungsoo: You can keep trying Jongin, but I'll be trying to remember what happened. And it won't be there. It's like a computer. I delete all of my files.

Jongin: I'm the flash drive :^)

Kyungsoo: Which I threw away. I probably won't remember you. I barely even know you.

Jongin: but you knew me and that's all that matters

Kyungsoo: Just stop trying.

Jongin: I'll stop trying to make you remember when you stop trying to forget

 

 

 

 

But the real question is, when land and sky collide, will there be anything left?

Will anything exist?

Will land and sky grow farther apart?

 

 

 

 

Jongin: IM JUST SAYING THAT YOU COULD IGNORE ME! BLOCK ME

Kyungsoo: The only reason I'm talking to you right now. Is because I feel bad for not talking to you in a long time  Stop making this longer than needed.

Jongin: but that's what you want not what I want and if you really don't want me to talk to you you already know what to do

Kyungsoo: I don't block people.

Jongin: then I guess I'm still here then huh

Kyungsoo: What if I just stop talking right now?

Jongin: but you'll read my messages I know you will so go ahead and stop I'll just keep talking even if youre not reading

Kyungsoo: Stop wasting your time.  Just STOP. I'll feel bad for blocking you.

Jongin: yes you will

Kyungsoo: But maybe not as much if it were a year ago.

Jongin: but you'll feel something

Kyungsoo: I'll feel nothing.  I feel like I'm acting too cruel.

Jongin: you're doing what you can to forget me and I don't blame you I'll keep trying even if you're not listening even if you'll never see all the messages

 

 

 

 

But what is land without a sky? What is sky without land to shadow over?

 

 

 

 

There's such a difference between us And a million miles

 

 

 

 

 

Jongin: YOU BETTER ING BLOCK ME IF YOU TALK ALL HIGH AND MIGHTY ABOUT FORGETTING and I know you see this but just do it please

Kyungsoo: Look at you. So helpless

Jongin: I really am so do it

Kyungsoo: I'm really sorry about this.  I'm just getting tired. Of hearing you whine.

Jongin: I'm not i'm telling you to just do it. now. Kyungsoo let me forget too

Kyungsoo: I find it funny. This whole conversation. Jongin, tell me you're cool with this.

Jongin: I'm not,but you are, and that's ok, so do it

Kyungsoo: Just don't hold it against me.

Jongin: I won't

Kyungsoo: Don't be sad tomorrow. Or any other day. Just don't let your friends into this.

Jongin: The only thing in this is you, me and the memories. so go now before I change my mind and say something stupid

Kyungsoo: Stop hanging on to me.

Jongin: I won't make any promises

Kyungsoo: JUST STOP

Jongin: JUST BLOCK ME

Kyungsoo: If that's what you want. Farewell.

Jongin: it's what you want you just needed me to say it

Kyungsoo: Any last words?

Jongin: If you ever want to remember, then unblock me and read what I have written ever since this day but for now see you Soo

Kyungsoo: See ya.

 

 

 

 

What were the messages that the sky left the land?

Who were the sky and the land?

 

 

 

 

Blocked [11/8/2015 at 10:37 pm]

Jongin: i know you won't promise but just look because I'm still here and I'll always be. And here is where I'll start. If you see this then this means that you have unblocked me You probably will not read all of this or never read it at all but here it goes. When you first talked to me, I was happy. More than happy. I was me. You allowed me to be myself. You allowed me to feel loved or that at least someone cared for me and you gave me something that not a lot of people can truly give and that was friendship. So this is day one where it starts and I may not keep up with this everyday, but that's ok, bcuz that proves that over time I'll still remember, so bam 11/8/2015 at 10:40 marks my first attempt, see you soon Soo.

 

 

 

 

The land and the sky are meant to be separated.

But they can watch each other from a distance.

Kim Jongin left a message for Kyungsoo everyday.

Days turned into every other day.

Then into weeks.

Months.

But he never stopped.

not even after 5 years.

Even if the messages spaced out for 3 months at a time.

He never stopped.

Kim Jongin got a message.

Kyungsoo: Jongin?

Jongin: kYUNGSOO?

Kyungsoo: You’re crazy.

Jongin: I know I am. But you are too, since you came back.

Even if the land and the sky cannot be together, they still need each other.

Kim jongin and Do Kyungsoo needed each other, even if it took 5 years to realize.

 

 

 

 

Hello from the other side

I must have called a thousand times

To tell you I'm sorry for everything that I've done

But when I call you never seem to be home

Hello from the outside

At least I can say that I've tried

To tell you I'm sorry for breaking your heart

But it don't matter it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore