Title: Analeptik
Author: nisakomi (AO3: Archiveofourown)
Characters/Pairings: WoozixMingyu (JiGyu)
Genre: Drama, Angst, Romance
No. of Chapters: Oneshot
Status: Completed
Warnings: Mature content (), Suicidal thoughts, homophobia 

If you're uncomfortable with these themes, then I suggest you turn back NOW.

Summary:

Some days you fuck up. Some days you up a lot and it keeps you up at night. Some days you up a little and fix the problem before anyone even knows something went wrong. Some days you up, and then you up again the next day, and the day after that, and you continue ing up until there’s nothing left to up because it’s all already ed up. It’s one of those days.

Why I love it:

I want to applaud this specific fanfiction because it seriously had me biting down my tongue out of frustration and feels. One, because Jihoon's character speaks to me both on an emotional and spiritual level. The Jihoon portrayed in here would and could accurately be me (in real life) and it is quite frustrating to have your self dissected and served to you in a silver platter (not that it's the author's fault).

Second, the feelings that Jihoon's character experiences are literally people who experience (social) anxiety. However it was in this fanfiction that this sort of mental battle was undermined as "just a phase" (due to the fact as to how Jihoon had gotten over it). No, this isn't a bad thing, not at all. I'd say it's a start because it opens up a deeper perspetive to what goes on in a mind of a person who has anxiety.

Third, it was beautiful beyond words. It is rare for me to find a fanfiction that would make me feel desperate, depressed, sad, and yet hopeful, happy, and assured. This specific piece had me hanging into unknown depths. It speaks to me from heart to soul.

It was frustrating, how the story doesn't really explain Jihoon's thoughts initially, just that he thinks he's ed up. It's frustrating how I get snippets of the past and then suddenly I understood Jihoon's dilemma. His fear, his insecurities, his woos are mine in some ways or another. It showed me a part of being human that would inevitably come to me, or maybe it already did, maybe I'm living exactly like Jihoon is. Locked up in his own world of self preservation, sitting in a mighty throne of pride, and is inevitably terrified of the things that kept on chasing me out of my comfort zone.

I am ed up in more ways than I would admit and this is what this fanfiction has made me realize. This piece was beautifully flawed and emotionally tugging. It has it's down side, yes, with the typos here and there, but who wants perfect when imperfections are what develops a better version of something.

Somehow this had effectively beat me up with realities that I fail to recognize, but not only that, on a much lighter note, the whole thing isn't just and drama, it has a few points where there's a little comedy, aptly situated too. For it also delved  not only with romantic relationships but also into friendships and how it evolves through time, so it'd be safe to say, that despite the much darker and heavier themes, there's always a silverlining to everything. In this case, the resolution of things.    

My final thoughts would then be that fanfiction has this uncanning ability to either make or break us. It speaks a different form of understanding because the writer behind one beautifully written piece experiences the same things that we experience. The only difference is they have this special ability to put emotions, insecurities and even stupidity into beautiful, beautiful words that would somehow be able to reach us in the most beautiful of ways.

Special thanks to gwanshim for this recommendation! :) It was a really beautiful piece of literature.

I do hope everyone enjoy this as much as I did. I sincerely hope for this to find it's way into your hearts and into your favorites because truth be told, it has made it's way into mine.