Confession
Psychological Love
"Come on Bbom-ah. Aren't you going to sleep?" Bomi looked up from her seat on the couch with a slightly confused look on her face.
"What are you talking about, Unnie?" Chorong looked over at the younger girl to realize her mistake.
"Oh. Right. Sorry, Bbom-ah." Chorong couldn't get used to Bomi being back to her normal self. By no means did she dislike it. She loved Bomi for who she was. It was just hard to get used to after living with the 'other' Bomi for almost a month. Bomi felt guilt tug at her. She remembered how she had slept beside Chorong all the time when she had lost her memories.
"Uhm, but I can stay next to you...if you want," Bomi said, chewing on her lower lip, but she felt a grin tug at the corners of when she saw Chorong's face light up.
"Really?" Bomi only nodded and stood up with a sigh.
"Come on. You have school tomorrow. You should sleep now," she said, walking to Chorong's bedroom. But she was stopped when Chorong spoke.
"Bbom-ah, are you okay?" Bomi hand, which had been on the door knob, tightened.
"I-," she paused. Keeping things from people, especially things that made her feel vulnerable had become a natural habit for her. But didn't Chorong deserve to know if she was okay or not? She had been the one to snap her out of her memory loss afterall. Bomi turned around slowly to look at the older girl, but something, specifically located on Chorong's upper right arm, caught her eye. She narrowed her eyes, then, with quick, long strides, Bomi made her way across the room to gently grab ahold of the older's arm and examine it. "What. Happened." Bomi pulled her gaze away from Chorong's arm to look at her eyes, but was met with the sight of Chorong avoiding her gaze. Then, a memory shot up in her mind and she immediately let go of Chorong and stepped away from her. "Why-Why didn't you tell me?" she said, shock and horror playing across her features. Chorong immediately looked up and stepped forward, causing Bomi to step back again.
"Bomi-ah, it's not your fault. Like you said, you weren't in your right mind. It was an acci-"
"No. This is why I told you to stay away from me. I hurt you. I-I-" Chorong had known that Bomi would act this way if she found out. And that had been the reason why she had kept it from the other girl. Chorong gave a frustrated sigh and then looked up at Bomi who was staring at the ground.
"Fine. You want me to blame you for what happened? It is your fault that this happened to me. It's your fault that I got hurt," Chorong said, letting a cold look come into her eyes. Bomi looked up at her with a scared, hurt look in her eyes as she cowered back from the older girl. Chorong stepped forward, backing Bomi up against a wall, and then she raised her hand up into the air. Bomi flinched, closing her eyes, expecting a punch or a slap, but instead, she felt a soft hand against her cheek, and she slowly opened her eyes and looked at Chorong to see the older girl looking at her with warm eyes. And Bomi felt her heart start to beat faster. "If you're sorry about that, forget about it. That's what I want in return for this," she said, gesturing at her arm, then she laughed lightly. "And what was that for? Did you really think I would hit you?" Chorong asked, pouting at Bomi.
"I don't know, you looked scary," Bomi whined, crossing her arms defensively. Chorong couldn't help but laugh at the cute side of Bomi, and she reached up to ruffle the younger girl's hair before walking towards the bedroom.
"Come on, you said you would stay with me, right?" Chorong said, tilting her head. Bomi nodded.
"Yeah."
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Bomi watched the peaceful sleeping face of Chorong. She couldn't understand the older girl. She had hurt her, both mentally and physically, so why was she still sticking with her? Knowing that she had hurt another person that she cared about killed her on the inside. First Eunji, then Chorong. She was a horrible person. She was unstable. But Eunji, and especially Chorong, made her happy. Was she being selfish? Letting other people get hurt for her happiness? But then again, didn't she deserve some happiness at least? Her life had been harsh, crushing her over and over again, people letting her down constantly. Chorong and Eunji were the only ones that had stayed by her side. Didn't she at least deserve those two people? Bomi ruffled her hair angrily. Why were things so complicated? With a soft sigh, she looked back up at Chorong, and that same fluttering feeling in her stomach and chest returned. Bomi put her hand over
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