SARA’S POV

“I am leaving town, if that will make you happy. I can’t face you or anyone after this. I am so sorry, and I promise you, you won’t ever see me again”

“well don’t plan to stop you”

“I won’t expect you to. I just wanted you to forgive me Sara. I just wanted you to...I. Just wanted to— “

 He held my hand and squeezed it.

“I miss you so damn much it hurts baby,” and he started to cry. It is the very first time I saw him cry like this “I messed up. I messed up the best relationship I ever had. You were perfect, we were perfect”

“If we were, if you have ever loved me with the way I loved you, then you won’t do this to me. You won’t ever hurt me”

“I know; this is all my fault. But I want you to believe whatever we had, whatever I felt was real. I did love you, I still do”

“How?” my voice is trembling and I am blinking away the tears “How can I believe that? Jonghyun, can you ever hear yourself? In that two freaking years, I loved you with everything I had. I gave you everything I can…you…you were my everything. I loved when you kiss me and held my hand. This you and me holding hands, feeling each other, that made my heart flutter every time. But now, all I feel is frustration and anger inside me” I pulled my hand away from him and wiped my tears. I promise myself this…this is the very freaking last time I will cry for him

“If you cheated on me once, I would have forgiven you but for six ing months? And with my best friend? Do you realize how much pain you are putting me through? You’ve been basically cheating on me over and over and over again!”

“I am sorry”

“Why? Why would you do this to me? I thought what we had is real, I feel like an idiot”

“I-I don’t know”

“What the ing hell does that mean? You never loved me! You never did! Have you ever thought about me while you’ve been on her? While you were kissing her? Have you ever considered what I would feel?”

“I so damn love you and I know you don’t believe me right now, but please believe me”

“Tell me—tell me about your relationship with her. Did you let her meet your parents too when you have time? Did you let her sleep on your bed and in your arms?! Damn it tell me!”

“It is not like that, you are the only one I have brought home to meet my parents…what we have is purely ual.”

“So you weren’t satisfied with me?”

“There are just times when you reject me, I feel---“

“Feel what? I have damn respect over myself Jonghyun! I am not your slave or toy who you can do anytime you want”

I stood up. I practically can’t be this close to him. I paced back and forth, thinking while wiping my tears again

“why her? Of all the girls, why my best friend? You selfishly hurt e for your pleasure”

“I know and I will leave if you want. If that will make you happy”

“Maybe I don’t want you to leave. I want you to look at me every day and be sorry for what you did to me. I want you to die with guilt every ing time you stare at me”

 He stood up and tried to hugged me but I pushed him and slapped his face

I ran as fast as I could. I ran until my heart and lungs wants t burst. How can he just ask for my forgiveness like that and for a moment, I was thinking of forgiving him. Damn Kim Jonghyun still has my heart. Judge me all you want for still loving him but two freaking years was a whole lot to give up

I walked when I was exhausted, and stare blankly at the road. I don’t care is people are looking at me. When I came across our home, Minho and Onew were sitting on the front porch

ONEW’S POV

When she left Minho was worried about her but I don’t. I know how