Luhan can’t look him in the eye. It may be the last time they see of each other but he is not strong enough to face him. Especially after knowing that he is responsible for that sullen look on the younger’s face, which was once adorned by a mischievous smile.

He may not know him from years but he know him well enough to guess that it will not be easy for the other boy to suppress his feelings entirely. He is thankful though for his understanding, even offering to come back if he needs him.

His parting words filled his heart with both calm and pain.

“Luhan, i may not be the one YOU love but you will always be the one I love. You can contact me whenever you want me. I will be there in a blink”

And before luhan could put in some words of apologies, he added

“But i hope you never need me. I hope you find Kai. I truly want you two to be together again. Maybe then i will be able to forgive myself”

And then he left.

Without looking back, just like kai did.

And luhan died from within once again.

It’s been two weeks. Luhan’s wrist has healed and his blood pressure and lungs are stable now.

But what worries his doctor is his mind. He is starting to slip away. Kai has not showed up.

Hospital tried to reach him every possible way but it’s like he just vanished into thin air. The police have resumed their search from where they left months ago.

Sehun calls every day and that’s the only time luhan speak or move or blink for that matter.

Everybody is worried that at this pace, luhan will fall back into deep depression.

After weighing all other options the doctor decided to move luhan into shelter home. It was under the supervision of hospital few miles away from here.

Patients like luhan were treated there.

The Doctor believed that these people lacked love or a sense of belonging which caused their mind to shut down any possibility of happiness. They see life as black and white. They are unable to identify other colours.

He was sure that luhan will be better off there than lying dead here in the hospital. W