Soojung

Jongin,

It has been fours years since I last saw you but I think I saw someone who looked exactly like you today maybe I’m just imagining things. Now I wonder if I have someone who looked like me. I’m pretty sure that there is a possibility that I have someone who looks like me. What’s strange is that he looks like you even from the back.

You were slightly shorter than him or maybe you guys are the same height by now. His hair was different from yours, you always had bed hair wherever you went. Your hair is probably what made you the Jongin I knew.

You had the fluffiest head and you used to tell me not to mess up your hair but what’s the difference because it’ll look the same anyway. I used to think that you messed it up because you were stressed about school and trying to beat me in every class but it’s actually just natural.

Back to my point, the both of you look different but very similar to each other but “everything is possible”, remember?

You used to tell me that and because of that, I believed it. I also do believe that we’re soul mates, we used to dream about each other; how Cliché but I find it amazing at how we both got so attached to each other.

I miss you, Jongin. I wish you came back, I never meant it. I wished I never said it to you because that excuse is what I regret, I’m sorry. Maybe this is what I get, I will never get you back because you’re gone now.

I still wonder why I still write to you, it just became a habit. I never got the chance to show all of them especially that one letter that I was supposed to give you before you left. You said that you’ll be back but you never did. Now I have all the letters that we were supposed to exchange. I just can’t help but write to you maybe it’s because I still miss you after all these years. How can I forget about my dear fluffy head? I