I woke up with my buffy eyes. I had a very bad dream last night. It as a nightmare. I dremt that Kim Jongin was cold and had no feelings. It was not Kim Jongin that I knew.

I shooked my head. It was just a dream..but it felt so real.

After cared for myself, I stepped out of my room. Suddenly, this house felt so quiet and lonely. It felt so..cold?

I went to the kitchen to grab some food for breakfast. Something was not right today. It felt so..different. Not a good different.

"Min Sunhee." mom called my name. I almost spilled my milk when I saw Jongin with my mom. I quickly kept  the milk and smiled. When I saw Jongin's face, memorie from yesterday quickly came.

Jongin, my first love was going to be changed into a fully cyborg and won't remember anything. My smile faded away. Lord, this is not happening to me..isn't it?

"Jongin?" I called him..oping a soft answer but no.."Sunhee. Are you?" he asked with his cold face. No emotion. My heart dropped. It broke intop pieces. Mom hugged me tightly, "Be strong, dear."

She said. But, I can't..

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Today I had the worst day ever. Krystal was busy with her problems while me too. The reporters came again today but they didn't brought the cameras and all. The music and english class, for the first time ever was so depressing and stresing. For the first time ever, I felt so lonely at school.

I am a queenka. I should have all the perfect lifes that the queenkas have. Just like in the dramas, the stories that I read in wattpad and internet. But now, it  all make no sense.

For the first time ever..my life felt so..I don't know..empty.

I missed his dancing. I missed his cute laugh. I missed ... everything o