Chapter 25
The Weird Love Story
Luhan was heading out of the building with a tired look.
He was wondering why Jiyeon didn’t come to ask him
out but shrugged it off thinking maybe she’s busy today.
He can’t get enough sleep from the day when Jiyeon left
his apartment. Its because he would hurt her in one way
or other that he spend his sleeping time feeling guilty. He
knows very well he hurt her but he couldn’t come up with
something else to know about his true feelings. Today
he comfired his feelings. He write everything in a papers that
he felt or how he react when she’s with him and gave
it to Xiumin, his best friend to tell the meaning of all the things
he do when he’s with her. He actually finished writing those
papers before two days, Xiumin take time in reading it,
because as busy man as he is, he don’t have time so in his
free time he read them all which take two days. Today he
told Luhan about his feelings towards his girlfriend.
Luhan ask him for help because Xiumin has experience
in dating girls so who can be better then him to get a advice
from.
He went to bathroom to take a shower then sleep comfortably
after two weeks of not enough sleep. He told himself
that next day, its all for Jiyeon to punish him for being
a reckless boyfriend or she can punish him for a week or
as long as she could satisfy herself. He’s finally going to treat
her like a real girlfriend which he couldn’t be more then
happy about.
That night he slept, with forgetting the past with a new
beginning of everything. Tomarrow he’s totally ready to
take his life in a new stage which he only dreamed of in his
childhood.
Next morning Jiyeon wakeup from her sleep with swollen
face. Her face was hurting and her body temperature was
hot. She didn’t caught cold, its just her body don’t have energy
to do activities unless if she wanted to do. But there’s a say,
the people who felt depressed, can get rid of depressing
by right amount of exercise, not too much nor the opposite,
but in the middle.
She didn’t bother to eat breakfast nor take a bath. She
just wanted a time to make herself ready for the step she’s
going to take. She’s not the crybaby type. If he couldn’t love
her in right way then why would she give him the love he
don’t deserve from the first place.
She hated herself for falling in love with a person who would
never give her the happiness she needed. Maybe she was asking
too much for him to love her back or maybe she wasn’t good
enough for him. Whatever the reason was, she’s not going
back, she’ll move on whatever it takes for her to forget
him. The feeling she use to have for him now are mixed with
hatred. She’s in the middle of nowhere. She never thought
Luhan could ever do this to her. She know Luhan can be ill-mannered,
arrogant, selfish, jerk even a gangster but never thought he
would cheat behind her back. Never!
Flashback...
When she peek inside his office, She saw the secretary lying
on the floor with Luhan on top, his face was on her neck while
the secretary held Luhan’s waist tightly. Luhan’s one hand
touch the hem of her tight short skirt while the other her
hair. From her view, anyone can see that he was kissing her
passionately and she’s . She know where this
is going to end so she ran away from there. Truth to be told,
secretary fell on the slippery floor exactly when Luhan wanted
to help her and if she didn’t grab Luhan’s body, possibly she
would be dead by the edge of the desk in her head, Luhan
who fall down on top held her from behind the head so she
couldn’t get hurt while the skirt, he mistakenly touch there.
The moan was from the pain she felt Luhan’s heavy body on
her, the floor didn’t help with its sharpness that anyone
could die or endupwith broken bones. The question is,
is there’s anyone to tell her the truth that needed to be told.
No!
End of Flashback...
Jiyeon’s skin became pale, the depressing is taking the control.
Remember when she said she wanted to move on, its not
so easy though. Its been hours, she didn’t move from her
bed, the eyes that had the look of nothing but blank. She
didn’t feel hungry to eat nor thirsty to drink. Her parents went
to their workplace. If her mother would be at home, she
wouldn’t kept quite at her daughter’s situation. Which Jiyeon
was thankful she didn’t.
'Maybe the life isn’t always about love like how drama shows
and its the best chance for me to get ready for the man that
i would get arrange marriage to. Its not like my parents
would ever let me marry Luhan. They would stop me whatever
its takes to not meet him once they know he deal with
illegal job. So its the best for me, for him and for my parents.
Atleast he give me time to make myself ready.' She bitterly
thought with tears flowing from her eyes.
Ding dong ding dong
Someone ring the bell, she’s not in the mood to meet
anyone, especially not Luhan. Again the bell ring and
ring. Finally when she was tired, she went to open the door,
the fear of seeing Luhan so early made her to hesitate. She’s
not ready to face him but what make her wonder why he
was here. He was avoiding her but now he came to her himself.
Her heart was beating fast in her ribcage, she got a dizzy,
nervous feeling all of a sudden.
Ding dong.
She opened the door slowly, she only get her head outside
to tell Luhan off.
“I- what excuse me, i’m sorry for opening the door late.” She
said to the lady that live near here. She got shocked looking
at Jiyeon’s swollen face, messy hair and the pajama. Why
would anyone wear pajama at 1pm but nonetheless she smiled
awkwardly at Jiyeon.
“Do you need something miss?” Jiyeon asked trying her
best to be polite.
The lady smiled, held out her right hand for shake. “I was
just passing by and thought to pass these cookies to this house.
Is your mother at home?”
Jiyeon shake her hand and smiled apologetically. “She
went to work and come home before 6 pm, anything you
want me to tell her?”
“No no its okay, i just wanted to meet her that’s all,
anyway have a nice day.” She bid goodbye to Jiyeon and
went away.
Jiyeon felt relieve that it wasn’t Luhan, now atleast she
got more time to prepare her speech of breaking up. When
she was about to go to her room the bell ring again, with
a sigh she went down with a little bit of a fear that it might
can be Luhan, she gulped to wet her suddenly dry throat. When
she opened the door, she smiled at the same lady.
“Can i help you miss?”
“Nah i just wanted to tell you good morning and it would
be better if you change cloths and brush your hair.” The
lady smiled and this time really went off.
Jiyeon looked at her figure weirdly. 'Why would she
tell me what to do, i know how to take care of myself.' She
thought and went back.
The bell ring in her bedroom’s mid way making her
stop her step, annoyed at the bell ring which ring again.
Her steps were heavy, showing how annoyed she was
and opened the door wider this time but to her disappointment
she came face to face with the person she was not ready
to meet. Her mouth hang open and suddenly, she lost the
words in her throat, dizziness came in oneshot, with
no reason the air that pass by her suddenly made her eyes
full of tears, blurring the face of that person on her view,
with sweats forming on her body and lack of energy and food
she fainted. She fainted infront of the smiling Luhan who
without wasting a time grabbed her in his arms before
she could fall down.
It was all too sudden. Her eyes slowly half opened, everything
was blurred, nothing makes sense in her eyes so she close
and opened them again this time it wasn’t too clear nor too
blurred but she wanted to take a good look so she closed
and opened again.
The white and light blue colour and the medicine smell
remind her that this place is no other then hospital. She wanted
to move but realised that she can’t because of the oxygen
bottle that hang on top of the bed with needle in her hand
connected to her. After this she didn’t attempt to move. She’s
not that reckless about her health.
The doctor came in with someone behind him. When finally
she saw that angelic face, the worried eyes, the small lips,
everything lost in her mind and she keep looking at the guy
who’s busy talking to the doctor.
The doctor looked at her and did a small checkup before
going out, leaving her alone with Luhan.
'Now what? The fate is mocking me that i don’t have
pride because he’s the one that always save me. Yeah yeah
i understand there’s no pride left in me.' She thought
sarcastically on herself.
Luhan was standing awkwardly infront of her. Scratching
the nape. When Jiyeon’s eyes went to his, she couldn’t believe
that Luhan was reacting this way. The GREAT Luhan acting
shy or awkward infront of her.
Normally in such a situation he would nag or anything
but not that one. For example 'Are you stuped, why
couldn’t you eat? Or You don’t want me to come home and
make you eat, you’re not baby but a grow up women, or
what’s with the duck face and furball hair, atleast act a little
feminine so that i believe i had a girlfriend not boyfriend.'
That’s what Luhan previously said to her whenever
he bring her to hospital. Jiyeon suspiciously raised her
right eyebrow.
“Why you’re acting like this? Are you planning to do something
or you get hit something on your head and why you come
to my house, when last five previous days you were busy but
you suddenly got time and you bring me to hospital yet you
didn’t use your cheeky remarks or sarcasm. Why are you
suddenly shy or awkward, this is so not you, why did you
visit me in my house? What’s with the concern face, you know
you can stop acting because i understand everything and lets
make its the end, let... Lets...”
After asking non-stop, the last three words can’t come out.
The last three words she so badly wanted to say which she
repeated in her mind last night over and over until it became
like a tattoo that be can’t get rid of 'lets break up.' but what
no? Just by looking at his angelic and shy self her heart
didn’t take time to melt and trap in his magic, again.
When she looked at his face, his mouth slightly apart, eyes like an innocent baby
deer. The look of surprise he gave her, she know she can’t say
the last three words, maybe she needed time to say, proberly
when she’ll get out of this hospital.
Luhan was waiting outside the ward where Jiyeon
was sleeping. 'Was i too late? What exactly happened?
She never asked me these questions in my life then why
suddenly now? What else she wanted to say but can’t. The
look she gave me isn’t because change of my behaviour
but there’s something else, i atleast know her enough to tell that.'
He got interrupted by the doctor who gave him the list of
medicine and told him when Jiyeon will wakeup, she can go
home.
Luhan smiled at doctor before going inside the ward
to check if she’s awake. When she was still sleeping he
gently close the door and went to buy the medicine.
Luhan helped Jiyeon to get out of the car. Yes today is
full of surprise for Jiyeon but she won’t say that she don’t like
it. When they reach to her gate with Luhan holding her hands
while with other the medicine. Jiyeon gently let go
of his hand and turned her body fully to his. Finally she make
up her mind and she’s not going back. Who knows he’s acting
then next day he would come to his real self. She don’t
won’t to hurt herself more then she already did.
Doesn’t mean she’s doing this because he’s mean arrogant
with her, no she’s not breaking up with him for this.
Infact she accept and love him for who he is and not those
so good and fake attitude. The only think that make her
to breakup is none other then his love, he don’t love her
so why should she waste her time for this. If just he could truly
love and accept her for who she is, then she can’t be living
her life better then this.
“I... I wanted to say something.” Jiyeon seriously said
Luhan nodded his head with the sweet smile that her heart
already broke even before she could say the heartbreaking
words.
“Lets... Breakup.” Finally those words come out of her red
lips. She don’t no what to accept from Luhan but when she
looked at his eyes, they seem shocked but the face he
wore, the smile that wanted to fade away, Luhan forcing the
smile to stay but it turned out awkward.
“What are you talking about?” He asked hoping she
would change her mind and act like she never say them and
he won’t mind to play along. He highly believed that she could
say that.
She sighed, its harder then she thought, with all the
strength she had left. “Don’t you understand, i’m tired of it,
lets break up and think positive, after breakup you and
i had a bright future to look for instead of unrequired love.
We were not fated, but even then i loved you yet i couldn’t
get the love from you, lets just leave each other please, i know
you won’t mind. Its your chance to be with someone who
you wanted to be always and i was the one who was stopping
you. Now there’s no one in your way, go ahead and love the
person who your heart accept...”
After saying everything, she tightly closed her eyes. She
felt like dying but this is not the right time to die.
Luhan who was silent the whole time, wear no expression.
His eyes that were sparkling for a while now left with dark
orbs. The innocent look changed to the killer that it actually
send shivers down her spine but this is not the time to show
her fear.
Finally Luhan said something after the whole minute
try to find out her true feelings through her eyes. “You
wanted to get rid of me, because you’re afraid to be with
gangster...?”
Jiyeon was really surprised at his question. Ofcourse
she was afraid but when he came to take her and sehun that
night, her fear came to an end but why he’s asking such
a question.
When he got no reply from her, the sad look can’t be
hide anymore. The hurt word was written on his face
that even a child can read it. He didn’t come to her to hear
about breaking but he came to tell her about his true feelings.
He won’t deny the fact he hurt her too much but he never
know that she would get sick of him just like that. He as a
man, won’t beg to women to comeback to him.
If she wanted this fine he’ll let her go. He looked at her
tearful face and the only reason he could come up with
is because he hurt her badly. He looked at her, his hand reach
her jaw line, tracing it to her neck then to her lips. She didn’t
refuse it nor he take a further step then this. He slightly
push her face with the same finger and let go of her. He smiled
bitterly, trying his best to not endup crying infront of a women.
The last look he gave her was full of pain and sadness that
even Jiyeon have to think again who was wrong between
them and even wanted to stop him but the world we live
is totally different. What had been said has said now all she
can do is to look at his straight tall back that had a long
neck with curly hair from behind, his step became faster
after each because he wanted to be alone.
Finally he went away and left her as she asked herself. Now
what’s wrong? Isn’t that what i wanted, but why it doesn’t
feel right.
Thinking everything will be okay tomarrow she went inside
and sleep the whole day, Afterall the doctor said she needed
to sleep. But there’s one think she still didn’t understand,
why did he look so broken. She never expected such a reaction
from him. The reaction she expected was to say she wasn’t
good enough for him and she choose the right choice by
breaking up first.
Why suddenly everything seems to turn upside down? Why
she seems the bad one in the end. Just how?
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