like it never happened

Who? Kris? Who's that? I don't know any Kris. Never heard of a Kris before. Is that even a name? Kris? Really, I don't know.

I don't know anyone who stomped all over my heart, over all of our hearts, without a second thought, without any notice or explanation, without any show of trust. I don't know anyone who took care of me, who helped me solve my problems, who kept me grounded, who I trusted but didn't trust me back. I don't know anyone who deceived me so completely.

I don't know anyone who hid his personal life from us while mine was laid out like an open book for him to read and judge. Someone who I relied on for advice and brotherhood, for leadership and caring, for bittersweet memories of hard work and success. Someone like that--I don't know. I have never known.

Because how could my judgment be so wrong? How could I have misjudged so completely that I--that we put our confidence in the wrong person? How could he just toss it all away like it never mattered? Like we never mattered? God, did we even matter?

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know anything anymore.

I assure you I don't have amnesia, but I swear I have never known a Kris at all, much less as our leader. Our leader is Yixing, remember? Good thing I'm not Yixing, because I would be insulted. This is how we've always been: five and six, for eleven total. I don't know twelve. Twelve never happened. It never happened.

Never. At least, for as long as I've been a part of EXO.

A/N: I am so sorry. That is all.

skyblaze208, OUT.

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