Sulli knows they won’t last much longer, that it wouldn’t be long until one of them broke it off. She hadn’t been blind, she’d noticed the decreasing amount of time Krystal would spend with her because of their pressed schedules. She hadn’t failed to acknowledge the change in the normality in their lives, how the blond woman seemed to be slipping through her fingers like water droplets falling from the sky. No matter how hard Sulli seemed to try to hold Krystal close to her, to spend just a moment alone with her, no matter how many times she’d tried to get her to stay over the past week, Sulli would always return to find nothing left of her lover but the faint scent of her perfume. It was as if she hadn’t been there in the first place, as if it had been a dream, a trick her mind had played on her. That had been the first red light, it’s warning shining like a beacon in the dark and she was stumbling for the light.

    Maybe the crumbling of the foundation of their relationship started when Krystal began having those late night conferences that ran early into the next morning. Sulli would wake up to an empty bed and that slight scent of the other woman embedded into the bed sheets, but there would be no Krystal in sight, no morning breakfast cooking on the stove top in their kitchen, no shimmering smile awaking her. And when Krystal would finally return home to her, in clothes freshly washed and her hair barely dry, her best excuses failed to comfort Sulli of her whereabouts. A slow wave of realization dawned upon her, coming over her like a steam roller. That was the second time she knew something was wrong, that her internal warning system was going off. They only filled her with more doubt, and with the warning bells ringing in her ears, Sulli tried to choke down the swell of emotions churning through her veins and welcomed the girl back with a half smile that really meant, please don’t be what I think this is. 

    Sulli would find that she was always welcoming Krystal back in, that no matter how many times Sulli knew Krystal was betraying her, Sulli’s heart still belonged to Krystal, and even if Krystal didn’t want it back, Sulli forgave her for everything. Even for the nig