I don't know why I am here, I don't know why my legs have brought me to this place. I know that showing up here will only bring me more pain. I stare at the tall building, I search fro the window that belongs to him. tears brink in my eyes as i think of the last time I was here.

       "sunny-ah?"

I jump from the sound of my name. I turn my head to see who the voice belonged to. Afraid that might be him and hoping that it its. My eyes meet with his face, but its not him. I bow my head and a warm smile forms on his face.

 "hello junsu oppa"

His smile grows wider but then her frowns. I know that he is staring at my pathetic figure and I know that he takes part of the blame, they all do.

 "What happened to my cheerful energy pill?"

   "she died" his eyes widen from my bluntness and more regret fills inside of him. He takes a step closer

 "sunny-ah you shouldn't think like that"

 "how can i not? he took my love for him and throw it back in my face" At this point the tears a flowing freely down my cheeks  and junsu oppa pulls me into a hug.

"you know i never thought that him leaving me would hurt this much" I laugh as my mouth forms into a bitter smile.

"it will all be okay" Junsu oppa cues into my ear, I pull away from his embrace and wipe the tears from my face

"i hate him so much for using me, for toying with my feelings"

"I should have stopped him" oppa says as he runs his hands through his hair.

"its not your fault" He sighs then looks at me with a curious expression

" do you think that you could ever forgive him?"

"I would do anything he told me to do"

"mianhae sunny-ah jongmal mianhae" I nod my head before bowing and walking away.

I head back to my lonely home, my home that is just another reminder of my pain. I prepare myself for a night of no sleep, filled with alcohol. Can pain like mine go away?

taecyeon POV

i stare out the window and watch a junsu pulls her into a hug. I clench my fist and hit the wall. Why can't she move on? it hurts me to see her in pain and knowing that there isn't anything that i can do. Knowing that I'm the jerk who has hurt her, god I am a horrible person. I pray every night that someone will come along and love her, that someone would come a treat her better than I did. I pray for another to heal her heart.

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sorry for the short chapter

edited: 11/10/11

comment please it makes me want to update more <3

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sorry for the short chapter this is really just a filler chapter

comments are welcome <3