Hallo readers???

It me again? Remember, unrelated title and unchecked grammar? Yeahh.. that’s it.. so… please bear with me? Hehe

~ I got a boy mochin I got a boy chekkan ~ I got a boy…~

It was SNSD who perform. I knew taeyeon is so beautiful during her twinkle era.. but.. trust me.. taeyeon swag in that custom really push me deep into the cliff to fall for her.

“someone begin to love sick again….” Donghae elbowing me as I am keep watching form the screen. “are you sure getting back with her again?” he asked me. No offence but, donghae is the most know about how severe am I when taeyeon asking for time between us last year. “if you accept her back cause pity And guilt, then don’t back to taeyeon.” He warn me again.

“don’t worry.. no such thing like that. We been very good and better then before” I answer. My eyes still focusing to taeyeon whenever she appear on the screen. “you know, the thing will never be better like this if she not asking about it to me last year.” I smile when imagine how great is having taeyeon right now. She became more talkative, still secretive but still better.. and what the most I love is.. I can feel how special am I to her. I can’t even describe it how.

“I just want you to be happy okay? Even she is one of my dearest dongseng but.. if she is hurting you.. I had to make her stop.”

“no need. I am really okay. Please.. nothing to worry.” I walk leave donghae still standing there. He still had history with Jessica. Seriously, no one even know how much this things affect me and taeyeon relationship. She is being too protective toward Jessica and hurt me and donghae part. When the real reason is revealed, she blame herself and had very difficult fight with sica. She became more depressed by all what happen. She avoiding me, busying herself, letting work over her body. I do anything to show him I understand how the things become like that cause she is misunderstanding about it.

“superjunior man… get ready… your girls is nearly done.” And we rushing to the right place. In my heart I pray hard hoping taeyeon will walk through the path where I am going to stand.

“you look more hot as tin-bucket-oppa than a superman” someone whisper to me and a kiss plant softly on my cheek. It very quick as we will killed by almost twenty manager plus make up unnie here for revealing SM relationship openly like that. “shake the stage oppa” she run with big laugh. I still can hear some voice scolding her afterward just before out superman song  start.

That wild girl

“siwon. You can’t go to the end stage for long.. show your face and get ready to fly back to Taiwan tomorrow morning..”manager hyung remind me after we back to the back stage after the performance. Getting ready to make way for ending stage where every artist will be on the main stage. I just noddedsince I knew my tight schedule. Kind of nervous since I had promise to taeyeon for a driving date after this. She will be mad as hell for me to broke the promise.

I stand on the stage. Taking every technique I had to do to see at her, or should I just go and stand with her. The answer is? Of course not!! I done it before, like in 2009 and 2010.. and we get red card warning from upper management. They just cant had their golden girl with some other guys. Enough with leeteuk and somehow the great dragon dating scandal make SM get more strength way to hold my girl. I mean all SNSD girls.

I drink the water and I saw her smile and waving at fan. I suppress my smile so hard. She look calm and happy. She beautifully smile, she is cute yet pretty. How did I manage to get someone like her.

“hyung… stop looking at noona” luhan sudden come to me and I blush for it. I nearly had my mind controlled by heart.

“you… what am I supposed to do if she keep seduce me from afar” I swing the towel at luhan and he laugh it away. “yah.. where are you going? Go there and give this towel to her? Send with love please?” luhan quickly getting more far from there. He will never want to make any scandal anymore. Whenever they become closer with any female artist here we go with tomorrow day online news. It will fire like hell to the fan.

“oppa… why would you give taeng your sweaty towel?” sooyoung scold me. “you should give her flower or something. Tssk.. so unromantic” she dramatically laugh with some SNSD member and I cough taeyeon hold her smile and laugh as I knew she is completely heard the complaint. I look at her and she gave me witty smile with 2 or 3 second glance at me.

I look at back and saw my manager hyung wave at me. The signal for me to get back there. I wish I can’t stay a bit and had some talk with taeyeon for a while. For god sake it been long time we can had our time face to face.

“tell her I will call her soon” I say to the girls before I went back.

I look back at her who show weird reaction. Try to look back as hard as she can. When we met eye… I can see her angry face with some member teasing her. “hurry up siwon..” hyung is keep calling for me.

“okay okay..” I run and went completely to the back stage. “can’t I stay for party for a while?” bargaining with him.

“you know it a know right? The flight is change to this early in the morning. And the director this time is quite hard to handle.” I gave a big sigh.

“please hyung..” I went closer to him. “I had to talk to taeng first” hyung look at me for a minute or so.

“if you meet her, you getting really hard to follow my words afterward. So.. it’s a no. they are going to throw party. Sorry siwon a.. I help you at kobe so.. I hope you can considered today with me” I shut my mouth. “you can call her when she finish okay?” I change my cloth and already when to black van that waiting for us. While other idol just finish the stage and everybody in their on witing room.

“are you okay?”

“yes,,”

“you can call her now”

I take my phone from manager hyung and quickly unlocked the screen. “hyung.. my phone is empty.” No light out of it. I forgot to bring power bank or charging it during in waiting room. “she must be waiting for me now.” I tab and tab and tab more the black phone. No.. it really no way this phone able to call taeng right now.

From Incheon to my house is take 2 hours like that.(author:I just made this up) So I decide to sleep. I make mental note to call taeng as soon as I come at home.

Arrived at home

“I will take you at 4 tomorrow. Get ready okay?” and manager hyung left me there. I yawned a little.. I am very sleepy. But.. I make my step quickly to charge my phone.

5 misscall from taeyeon

7 messages from her

3 misscall from fany

I quickly call taeyeon number. I can feel her anger just from miscall and messages. Damn. I forgot to tell her the date was cancled. I hope she didn’t wait for me.

Tutt…tutt..tutt

No answer.

Tutt.. tutt… “yebuseyo?” it answered by someone. Not taeyeon for your information. I cant detect who is that.

“may I speak to taeyeon please?” I asked in formal way.

The call was cut. My heart start to pumping like crazy. Who is that and why didn’t he put the phone for him with taeyeon.

I call the number one more time.

Still no one answered.

“hallo.. fany..”

“OPPA!!!!!!” she scream in madly. “why did you do that!!?” she ask me in angry manner. “she wait for you and keep exiting witing for you to join the party. She even already asking manager oppa to going back to the dorm by herself. You are so cruel!” she shoot me immediately.

“i.. i..”

“what are you doing oppa? You know she hate when something like this happen.”

“I had to go in hurry”

“then, will sky will collapse if you just leave a message or ask someone to tell her. At least we..” a sigh out from fany mouth. She must frustrated. “she completely frust and sad you know.” She sound more concern than mad now.

“where is she? I try to call but she wont answer”

“she already in her room just now. She completely drunk so---… wait oppa, I got another call from manager oppa. Excuse me”

“okay.” The call was cut. I gulp. How should I make this up. I had to go to Taiwan at least for two week.

To: taengbaby

Baby aahh.. I am very sorry I can’t make for our date. Please forgive me.. answer mycall please baby?

I wait for a few minute before calling her again.

Tutt.. tutt.. tutt…

Tutt..tutttt…

Still no answer.

To taengbaby

Are you okay? Jagi??

I call again after that. She didn’t answer it too..

My phone vibrate and blinking. A message from tiffany.

From: fany

Oppa.. she sleep already. And I thanks to you.. she carelessly upload her drunk video, thanking SONE. Good night.

After reading the message, I log in taeyeon instgram. Watching the video she just upload about ten minutes ago. A smiled crept into my face. She look so hot with that face. Her slurred speech can make me blushed. Sound y. She must be so frustrated to drink until be like this. she had very poor tolerance of alchohol. All of us knew it. Fany always had hard time to control her drink during some occasion.

I am the one who never tired of trying. She said when I nag her about drinking beer too much.

I log out and pack my stuff. I will try to call her again tomorrow. I hope she already cool down or I will had miserable life for two week at Taiwan. Before sleep, I decide to message her again.

To taengbaby.

I love you so much babe. I am so sorry leaving you without telling and cancel our date. Can I promise to make it all in another time. I swear.. I miss you so much. Kiss and hug for my babe. Mwaa. ^3^

I smile and kiss her picture in my phone before down to dreamland.

2 week later.

“please.. I really want to back to korea” I beg the producer. My manger quite at a corner since he been witness how moody am I with my girl who ignored all my call and message. Tell me what I didn’t do to persuade her. I call almost all people who know about us. Begging them to let or make taeyeon at least answer my call.

“how many time I have to told you mr choi. Its hard to promise you anything. I had try but, I only can give you 2 days off. Then we will start to film.”

“two days? Bu-“

“two or no day off.. it your choices.” He firmly said to me. I know I am being such a bad idol like this. work and privacy is completely different thing. How to say it. I just cant.. it too torture for me ignored by her. Worst is.. I knew she still mad at me. The worst, she completely revenge me by keep hanging out with kangin, and her so called sworn brother. I watch the video of course. Night outing with them two? She trying to stab me with a knife or what.. huhhh.. no way…

“2 day??” I try hard to count the day. “two day and half? Can I leave early?” producer look at me in disbelieve.

“I don’t know, what so important in korea cause this is the first time, you asking like this.” he chuckled a bit. “do you have someone waiting or what?” I freeze.. don’t know what to say, since I already made a few filming with this person. “you keep checking your phone everytime. Keep avoid had night out after filming with us.”

“heee. You know me. This time, I made mistake and I really have to make it all right before I can do all this soon scenes.. you know..” he laugh at me.

“she is mad? Fight?” I nodded. Better be honest since I may use this card to asking more day off. “you may go after this scene. Good luck in two day??” he ask and I am jumping happily with the permission. I nearly kiss his cheek.

“hyung.. I will go to airport right away from here” I told him and he make call for booking a ticket.. the very soon flight to my love.

I hide myself very well. Calling fany, the only dongsaeng who bravely contact to me since taeyeon fume to almost everyone who giving information about her to me.

“she not at dorm right now.” I heard that and I smile. Whether she is going home, I don’t think so cause she too, had a week rest. And fany words is.. she not at dorm right now, not she going back to jeonju. The most correct answer I think is.. I think she is at my home. Hehe.. she must didn’t know I am back.

I punch the key in hurried. I smile at the guard when he whispered at me telling she.. yes she.. is at the apartment every day. That uncle was a very cool one. Taeyeon always wear wig when she come to the apartment. Some blond wig yet the uncle keep asking her, if she is kimtaeyeon since she look like her. At first taeyeon is so annoy but lately, she enjoy this uncle. And.. like always, she reveal who she is and trusting guard uncle will keep it as secret. For almost a year.. he been keep it very tight.

“I am home” I voice out and walk slowly into the apartment. My eye wandering around to look for the one who I longed so hard. “babe?” I call her.

Living room? Nope

Kitchen? Nope

Balcony? Nope

I open the bed room door. Her bed room.. in the apartment since there are three room. One for me, one for her and one is for our room. Contain drum. Some guitar, and noraebang machine.. and other fun stuff.

“taengbaby?” I call when I saw she not on the bed.

“woof woof!!” black poodle dog on my leg.

“ginger!!! Appa is home..” I kiss him. The present I gave to her. Birthday gift. “where is umma?” I ask again as he is keep me..

“woof!” ginger run to the bathroom door and bark again.

“she in there?”

“woof”

“good boy. Appa should put my stuff at the room first.” I patted ginger head then walk to my room. Leaving ginger in the room. My heart in relieved to know she is here.

After a few minute, Taeyeon still in her room while me sit at the coach with ginger on my lap. Waiting for taeyeon to come out. I don’t know if taeyeon already know about my arrival or not, and surely I am very nervous to her reaction. She will squeal happily? Will she come to my face and let out all anger? That better though.. but, it kim taeyeon. The calmness is already in her name. she probably act like I am not here for these two days.

“I thought you at jeonju?” ginger look at me. “did your umma drive long again? She is so stubborn. Appa is always worry that your umma get too tired to drive. The worse is, what should I do if she get lost again like last time.  That why appa prefer she only can back there if appa here to drive for her or should I get a private driver for her?” I let out my worry to ginger. Good news is.. he listen well.. very well.. “did you make umma mad?” I pull ginger face at me. Facing me, made eye contact with ginger actually “no? good boy.. hehe.. appa proud of you. If umma is sad, cheer her up, don’t be like appa.. appa can’t even be with her during her hard day.. don’t make her sad or stress okay? Understand?” I gave ginger a lecture, so he can take care of taeyeon.

“oppa?” my reflect quickly act up. Jolting and throw away ginger from me. I look at fresh taeng, in her sleeveless shirt and hot pant. Damn.. look so hot.. her hair still wet a bit.

“babe…” I go to her and hug her very tight. And as I expect. No response. “I miss you” she push me from her body. “I am sorry.. please forgive me?? I miss you like crazy this two weeks” she leave me and went to kitchen so I end up following her. More like bugging along her.

“have you eat?” she ask in that tone of voice. That tone.. what tone.. a very calm and emotionless tone.. she definitely angry. Still mad.

“i..”

“wait for a minute.. I will make something for you”

“no no.. should we had dinner outside? I won’t like it to make you tired” I said quickly.

“you prefer eating outside than my cook?” I bite  my tongue hard, wrong move choi siwon. She look at me with hurt on her face. “okay then.. you should just eat outside. I am kind of lazy to going out. Bye” she coldly walking back to the living room. Scooping ginger in her arms and take seat on the coach in front the television. Me? Yeah.. lost in my regret world. You should just shut up choi mouth. I scold my mouth.

I walk to the coach. Sit the end of the coach. Sit like a guilty child that had to front my angry parent. Me unconsciously keep letting out big sigh cause, the silent keep making me eating back my practice words.

“babe?” I call for her as I can see she start to enjoying the spongebob cartoon. She still laugh to the epic in the cartoon. I scoot more closer. “jagi..” she look at me with a smile.

“yae?” and I really want to kiss spongebob thanking him for making taeyeon in a good mood. “you need me to cook something?” her voice softly asking me. She eyes now show her concern at me. Not the cold glare like before.

“can i?” I ask her back. Again.. scare to give wrong answer.

She look at me and pause the dvd. “you really hungry? Or just had empty stomach cause afraid of me?” she chuckle to her own words. Since she is still had a very good mood, I bravely laugh to her too. 

“I just miss to eat your food” I said, again… following her to the kitchen. I can breathe more relax now. Seeing her smile, teasing me..

“aren’t you want to eat outside earlier?” she look at me. With unread facial expression.

“anni anni… I don’t want to burden my baby actually…” I whine.. hug her from behind.. she is carefully preparing some rice and side dish.

“it okay?” she wait for my answer about the taste.

“umph.. delicious… hehe..” she too chuckled by over reaction that I made. I am so happy to see her like that.

“can you help me prepare the utensil?”

“of course maam” I quickly took our eating tools and rice, then impatiently wait for her at the dining table.  

“dundundundundun….. here come food…” she come with the dishes. We both cheer for unknown reason. Look at each other happily. I don’t remember when the last time we had dinner together like this. we both been too busy and end up just calling each other.

“eat oppa..” she look at me. “you must be tired.” She hold my right cheek with her smooth right hand.

“no.. I feel energetic once I see you again. Hehe.. you too. Should eat.. how can you be thinner after two week?” I place my hand on top of her hand. We smile to each other. Letting our eye to had the only we who understand.

We been dinner with a very lively chat. Somehow, we did letting the problem between us without we noticing it.

After dinner

“ you stay here for the night?” I asked her when I notice she didn’t even changing.

“you don’t want?” we sit at the balcony of the apartment. Watching the night light bathing the seoul town. Some wine and ice cream as the snack.

“aigoo… why keep answering me with other question? I just asking.. if you stay than it good, since I want to take my baby for a date tomorrow.” I heard her giggled.

“well.. I don’t know, somehow in this second relationship, I feel like it only me who want it..” her voice trail off, with a bit chuckled that I can define as not even a bit of happy in it. It just a chuckled sound. She sipping the wine when I look at her. She had a blank stare to the beautiful scenes. “oppa.. am I too pathetic? Am I at a place where, that kim taeyeon is begging her ex back to her? And are you trying to be the most kindest man by accepting someone who is the one who ask you….” She now look at me.. “to break with her?” I put the wine down.

Did I make her feel like that? I never thought of that though.. “taeng,,”

“i.. am right? I did accuse you, I am insulting you for something you ever done. I act harsh. I break your trust right?? It just can back like the way we are before right?”

I lost my words. Damn this brain to be blank at the time like this, damn this mouth didn’t even voices out the things that I been thinking. No she is not.. really not.. it just.. I afraid..

“should I give up?” the words pang my heart hard. I feel numb but painful immediately at the chess. My breath stop.. am I really gonna had this hurt and torture way again. Did she mean she want to one more time leaving me? “I love you oppa.. chincha.. that the fact.. but.. if letting you go is the way to make you happy.. if .. I had to..”

“NO!! NO!! please taeyeon.. what are you talking about.. aren’t we just okay? What the matter dear? Is it about that damn night? I am very sorry about it.. I really forgot to tell you since it was a purely accidence babe.. I didn’t mean it.. you know me right?” my voice rise as much as I want her to know.. it was accident of course. My hand grab her shoulder. Forcing her to had eye contact with me.. “are you not trusting me anymore?” just thinking of it make me hurt. “did I make any mistake to make you to think about it? Or.. are you fall for…” I hate to mention it.. but.. it seriously bugging me like crazy. “sehun?”

The krikk krikk situation been occur for like 5 second before the sad taeyeon is kneeling before rolling laugh to my serious question. And I did not lie about the rolling cause she seriously laugh until she cant breath normally.

“hahahaaaa…hahahaha…o-oppa… hahahaha.. what wh-what are you.. kekeke.. me?.. am I look like a pedo to you? Hahahahahahaa…. How can…hehehe I fall for young man like him.. hehe..” she put her head on the table, tapping the table and continue laughing..

“yah kim taeyeon-ssi.. done laughing?” my voice is flat. Feel dumb when get such the response from her. Just a minute ago she all frowned face asking me the most unwanted question and now she laughing at me like a crazy woman. She look at me, slightly with regret on her face, but.. it only for 2 or 3 second. She then laugh again.. “seriously? You are laughing now?” I am so dumfounded. “you make me hurt by asking us to break in a second, then you laughing at my scary thought?” I don’t know but.. I feel fooled by her.. who am I to her. A toy for her to joke around? I left the balcony. Get onto my own room to cool myself down. On my way I can still heard her ahjumma laugh. What so funny about it seriously.. I really don’t know and understand.

“that girl” I hissed. The flowing water from the sink pipe I smack.. I bend down to wash my face.

“oppa.. I am sorry..” I feel pair of hand hugging me from behind. I can feel she lend her head onto my back. “sorry… sorry… sorry….” She hug me tight when I try to release myself from her. Actually I just want to facing her.. but, she keep me in that position.

“tae..”

“oppa… heard me first.. I just can’t told you well when I had to see your handsome face.” So I decide to let her be. I love it too anyway. “I am so sorry to keep all about my insecurity.. I just cant.. I don’t know.. I afraid of the change of our love. I know you love me.. I trust you oppa.. chincha.. it just lately I feel like am being useless to everyone. With some management who keep dragging our comeback, woori SONE is clearly raging out about it. And you know about the rumor I am leaving SNSD, and lately.. I keep feel guilty to sica.” Hearing the name.. I knew she in deep depress. “I am being the worse leader in this industry oppa. All of this make me feel like I am not even…” I don’t want to heard her anymore. The more she talking the more she try to torture herself like always. So I use my strength to facing her, silent her words by close with my left hand.

“with all this yet you avoiding me.. are you trying to make me a bad  boyfriend?” I kiss her forehead. Stamping it for a few second. “I always here for you jagi… don’t you knew it?” I pull her chin up softly, she looks up at me.

“I don’t-“

“want to be your burden?” I continue her every time dialog when I asking her why she didn’t tell me about something. “then, I am your burden every time I telling you any story?” she cutely shaking her head. “no right? So it like that for me too. You are not my burden.. my girlfriend here is my responsibility..” I cupped her face. “my girlfriend is, my soon to be wife” one kiss. “my responsible” 2^nd kiss “will be mother to my child” 3^rd kiss “my responsibility” 4^th kiss “my parent daughter in law” 5^th kiss “my sister’s sister in law” 6^th  kiss “couldn’t be auntie for my niece” 7^th kiss. We both giggled. “my responsibility” before I can kiss her, she stop me..

“aren’t you just try to take advantage on me?” she cheekily ask me.

“hooo… did i? or should i?” I ask her back..

“I am sorry for being emotional oppa. I miss you so much to the point I slept on your bed last night.”

“oo chincha? How about sleep on it again tonight?” she smack my chess. “I am all ears for you baby.. please tell me everything that bother you.. if I cant help at least I can lend my ear to hear and my shoulder for you.. okay?”

“I’ll try oppa.”

“good.. am I had your forgiveness for my fault last two week?”

“still asking even you know I am not that mad at you?” I laugh.. well.. thank to spongebob and sehun name then.. keke..

End flashback..

I received call from donghae last night.. I should getting ready for out coffee out together.

A/N

Hallo.. I am here again.. bowing 360 degree.. I am late again updating this story..

I try to write more but.. I had too many activity to handle right now.

Sorry if this is such a boring chapter. Believe me.. I am trying harder to write such story for you.

Enjoys the read.

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