February 7

Dear Love

Remember that week we broke up? I can't remember why but I'm sure it was stupid. The day after I started dating Luna and I swore that I would love her just as hard and with just as much vigor as I had loved you. But then I saw you walking with Sehun and remembered how you gave him more pearls than you gave me and I dropped her just as soon as I had found her. I just had to have you back. I was just being a brat then, thinking this is mine and no one else can have it. Do you remember what you told me? You said, "Han, what makes you think I want you back?" It caught me off guard. It was the first time in a long that someone didn't want me. If it had been anyone else I might've been able to shrug it off but it was you. You had decided you didn't want me. And when I realized that, wanting you back stopped being just a whim. It was a need. I remember laying on my bed and thinking that you would never lay down next to me ever again. That I would forever sleep without you by my side and my chest just sank. It was the most incredible pain, I cried for days. I had almost worked up the courage to go and beg for you back when you came over, crying your pretty eyes out, sobbing about how you missed me. I didn't tell you this that night but I missed you too. I miss you whenever you're gone. Sometimes I get scared that you won't come back and my chest hurts like it did then. My chest hurts now. I don't want to leave you ever again. 

Love,