He feel sick

No.Its far from it

Its suffocating

He was chained ,limb and mind

This is not how love should be

Love is beautiful, full of sweetness and sunshine

Full of blooming flowers and rainbows

Or at least, a grassy land of white rabbits

That is that kind of love he had been taught all this time.

Kind of love he want to mould himself into

But somehow he wonder if he got a wrong teacher

Because Seunghyun didn't shower him with all those things

With Seunghyun its different

Seunghyun never smile , he didn't say why

He didn't dare to ask

Seunghyun never call him  tenderly like what his dad always do to his mom

Well Daesung is not a women, he thinks that why

Seunghyun never like sharing, no one does

But sometimes he miss hanging out with Youngbae and Seungri

Seunghyun never fond of skinship, he said he hate romance

Then he wonder what are they

Seunghyun like it when he become weak

He figured it out by how frequent the latter make him beg to stop

Seunghyun hate Ji Yong,the cute guy that used to put flower on his desk

He thought dead people will not affect the one who still live

Maybe he wronged about this

Seunghyun hate things come out of his style

Thats why they never do what he want to do

Seunghyun worship ethics and manners

So he never understand why the latter date him

His own little brother

Seunghyun said he love him

He never understand it, far from feeling it

But somehow

Seunghyun insist about it

And what Seunghyun said goes

Did he love Seunghyun?

He got no option either