As I was preparing dinner for the night, cutting up some vegetables, looking out the window it had already been a while since I've seen him, I still had such strong feelings for him after the years we've been together. But our feelings for each other, it felt like they were drifting apart.

As suddenly my phone was vibrating, Kevin's name came up on screen, it was a text message, as I put down the knife and washed my hands, picking up the phone, I wanted to smile - but I couldn't, it's not what I wanted to see.

I threw my phone at the wall creating a loud noise, watching it break, something came off the phone, the crystal charm on my phone from him also broke into pieces, as I saw the phone face down with a crack on the back of it.

It confirmed everything, possibly the reason we haven't been really talking, even the texts between us died, it wasn't like before.

"It's over, sorry" was something I'll always remember, it was all that was on the text.

After all these years, it's over like that. Did I misjudge you all these times, were you not who I thought you were for all these years, was there someone else, did he just not love me anymore?

As I leaned against the wall, as it supported my back I dropped down hugging my knees. The tears hadn't come yet, that text hit me too suddenly for me to say anything or to do anything else besides throwing my phone and the feeling of wanting to break something.

I stayed like that for a little longer. The happy memories weren't the things that came to my mind, it was the sad ones, the small pointless arguments we had time to time about his schedule, the few fights we had like a normal couple.

With all these memories, the door then opened, it was my room mate - Minhee, as I saw her come in, she had a date with her boyfriend before returning home, I knew she never bragged about her relationship with him in front of me because she didn't know how me and Kevin were, but I didn't mind, it was nice to hear about happy couples for once.

As she saw me she ran to me slamming the door shut and kneel down next to me and hugged me, she didn't say anything but notice the broken phone on the other side of the room, that was when my tears started to fall out, it just hit me, it should be Kevin that should be coming back and giving me a hug to tell me it'll be alright when times got tough, but its not.

"I-I hate him" I said quietly still crying in her arms, as her phone started ringing, she kept ignoring it til I told her to go answer it, as she did, she stood up and I just watched her, I know it was her boyfriend, she was trying to hold back a smile as she was on the phone, but he just wanted to make sure she got home, I remember Kevin would take me back here to make sure I was safe even though he was busy, or he would text me several times before calling if I didn't reply to him telling him I got back safely. I tried to stop the tears as I rubbed my eyes.

Minhee came back asking "what happen?"

As I looked at her with my gloomy eyes, I said in a monotone voice "he texted me, he said its over."

I saw her facial expression, it felt like her heart dropped too and she was in shock, pausing before she could say anything, finally she broke the slience "but thats not like Kevin, are you sure?"

I nodded slowly, maybe I need to get an explanation, but my heart as already felt broken and I didn't want to see him right now. If I saw him now, I don't know what I'll do.

"We'll get you a new phone and number tomorrow okay?" she asked me, as I nodded, whenever me and Minhee had a break up with a guy, we would change our number, but this was the first time I threw my phone so hard, with that he wouldn't be able to contact me unless he came directly here. I still had a little doubt back in my mind, why would Kevin do that? Maybe it was just time to accept the fact that the relationship as run its course with all our contact pretty much being cut off now. I guess its true - all good things come to an end. What if we could have worked something out.

As Minhee left me to my thoughts, she started preparing the rest of dinner, as I suddenly got back up to my feet I told her I didn't want anything and went straight to me room closing the door and falling to my bed, taking a hold of one of the pillows and hugging it while resting my head on my second pillow. On the nightstand I could see a picture of me and Kevin smiling, as I reached for it and threw it to the the wall breaking the frame and glass holding it, unfortunately the picture was showing even when it hit the floor, I was hoping it would be faced down, as I turned to my other side so I wouldn't see it and just shut my eyes.

I woke up few hours later, not sure what time it is, but it looked like the sun would rise soon, as I tried to sit up in my bed, I notice that I've been crying as I looked at my pillow covered in tears, as I grabbed the pillow and threw it to the wall, getting off the bed I walked out my room back, on the table Minhee had left some food on the kitchen counter, cling folded and also a yellow sticky note on top with my name on it with a love heart next to it, looking around she curled up on the sofa with a blanket on top of her, her room door was  also open, it looked like she stayed up all night and fell asleep.

As I went to mircowave it for a few minutes, I went to freshen up in the bathroom, splashing water on my face and cleaning myself up from last night, coming out of the bathroom, I heard her get up on the sofa, in the corner of my eye though I could see my phone still on the floor. Yesterday wasn't a terrible nightmare then as I let out a sigh while my head turned to look at it.

"Morning, I'll be with you in a sec" Minhee manage to let a yawn out as she passed me to go to the bathroom, as I went to get my food from the mircowave and started eating bits of it slowly, I still didn't feel like eating and pushed the plate away a little.

As Minhee came out the bathroom she grabbed a bowl and started pouring some cereal for herself along with getting the milk out of the fridge while asking me "did you sleep okay? Do you still want to change your number?"

As she started eating her cereal and pulling up a chair, I finally replied while I hestiated a little "yeah I guess and. . .yeah, I need to change it."

As she looked at me, she questioned me again "but, you know it's Kevin right, I'm su-" as I quickly cut her off with my own words, maybe I was just too stubborn to believe that he might have an answer to this but I didn't want to hear it. "No, I don't want to hear it, I don't want to hear anything from him anymore."

But I know that when Kevin's with someone he'll be all in on the relationship  and doing everything he can, but I remember that we even texted less and talked less nowadays, I'm sure he just got bored of me and wanted a way out, these thoughts were forever lingering in my mind. As I suddenly stood up and just went back to my bedroom to get changed for the day so I could go out with Minhee.

Coming out of my room I was quickly pulled by Minhee and we went straight out the door, getting myself a new phone, new number, then she wanted to go shopping to distract my mind from everything, it kind of worked til we walked into this particular store, there was a coat that just reminded me of Kevin. One time in the winter when we wanted to watch the snow fall together in the park, he would hug me and also use the jacket to hug me as well when I was in his arms, I could feel tears in my eyes form as I closed my eyes. I suddenly got nudged by Minhee, I had apparently been standing there for a good few minutes that she had to come back and get me.

"I'm sorry," I said to her as I shook my head a little to snap myself out of it.

"Well, it's about time we go home right?" she asked me, as I nodded we just went back home. Going back home I sat on the sofa, we dropped all the bags on the floor, as she sat next to me turning the TV on flicking through the channels.

Til we stopped on one channel, watching it for a while the room was just filled with noises from the TV, but apart from that it was quiet.

The days repeated itself, I couldn't help but feel I lost a part of myself, going to work, coming back to an empty house now and then, how long had it been since then? I also stopped eating properly, most of the time just laying in the bed and not falling asleep til stupid'o clock, flicking through on my phone, I had also forgotten his number. There was nothing anymore, but I left the frame and picture on the floor in the same place, but outside the phone was gone, but I couldn't help but keep the memory card. As I finally closed my eyes filled with these thoughts and fell asleep.

This evening was the same, I was watching TV with Minhee on our day off, til several loud knocks on our door came, it felt like our door was going to break.

"I'M COMING, CHILL DOWN" Minhee had shouted, as she slowly detached herself  from the sofa with a sigh feeling annoyed with whoever it was, I would have offered but I didn't have the energy to shout after Minhee.

"WHY ARE YOU IGNORING ME" a familiar voice came through the door and filled the quiet room as I quickly diverted my head to the door, Minhee had it wide opened, the person I could see was none other than him.

Kevin.

It's been so long, but he hasn't changed at all, besides the new hair colour and cut. He look slightly angry, sad and desperate, my eyes only widen as he came through the door, nothing would come out of my mouth as I kept staring at him. Is this a dream, why is here.

I snapped back to reality and looked at Minhee when I hear her voice "I'll be in my room" as she closed the front door then escaping into her room and closing it behind her.

I forgot about Kevin for that split second, as I turned back my head and his tone changed and was more quiet he said "please don't ignore me anymore," as he gradually walked closer, I saw him look at the table where I had left my new phone, he knew it wasn't Minhee's, but mine even if it was a different phone, he stopped for a bit but then came closer towards me while whispering something to himself along the lines "no wonder I couldn't call you."

I wanted to stand up and hug him but I restrained myself, I can't forget what happened, these past few days felt like forever a "no" came out of my mouth, that was the only thing I could say.

Another "no" came out of me, "you said it's over, don't think you can just come back like that!" I was getting hot from my words, I couldn't help but feel angry.

"You don't understand" Kevin's tone started to change, as he placed his hands on either side of the sofa I was sitting on, he was now in front of me as I faced him, he was trapping me so I couldn't go anywhere.

"NO ITS OVER THATS THAT, YOU ALREADY SAID IT" I started to shout at Kevin and trying to push him away but he wouldn't budge.

"Let me ex-" he started saying but I cut him off as I started talking again, not giving him any space to talk "you said its over, thats it, we're over, I don't want to see you ever again. You broke my heart just like that" As I felt my tears come back into my eyes, I turned my head away from him.

As I felt his hands leave the sofa and a sigh come out of my mouth, as he whispered to me "I'm sorry, but," before he finished his sentence he cut himself off and I could hear him leaving and going to the door as I heared it open then close when he left as I kept my head to the side and started crying.

It's really over.

* This idea just came to me, I felt like w.riting something sad and I'm all here like don't leave Kevin, I'm sorry ;; I feel like I should write a sequel to it? Yes, no? because don't like how it ended and I'm sad orz ;; *