I know it must just be an ordinary day for you. Every school day seems to be a huge mess sometimes, coming in with my assignments half done, half awake for our exams. I really did need to sort out my life and get back on track.
That's when one day I decided to cheer on our basket ball team, I always knew of you Kris. I'll be lying if I said to my friends I don't know who you are. We weren't in the same classes, I know, so it must have been impossible for you to know me.
My heart really didn't belong to anyone, love is precious. My first love was because its you. Do you ever have that feeling I wonder, the feeling of liking someone who will never know you?
When I saw you playing basket ball, my heart always skipped a beat while watching. I've always admired basket ball players. The hardship and teamwork you guys go through is incredible. Honestly you guys motivated me to get my life together, you'll work hard, I'll try and work hard to, maybe one day our paths will cross? Now seeing you as an idol the reach is impossible. But maybe when a fan meeting comes around I won't  say anything to you either, I won't ask if you remember me from school incase of heart break. I'll keep you as a happy memory. I'm glad you fought for your dreams, you could have done anything you wanted Kris, you are an amazing guy and worked the hardest at everything you tried.
I also started coming to watch you play, it made me happy that I could see you even from a far, my friends would cheer and as would I, sometimes they would tease me that you're the guy I like because I don't know you but even so those are days I won't forget and will treasure. Seeing your crush and first love from afar is always enough to make me happy.
I know its stupid but do you remember that one time you looked my direction and smiled? You may have not glanced over at me but it gave me butterflies, you made my day. Isn't it odd that even if we don't know each other something like this happened.
Maybe those times we passed each other in the halls I could have said something but we've always just walk pass and share a smile. Your smile has always been so warming to me, I wish I could have gotten to know you and confess my feelings. I have these regrets, but must let them go, I got to move on now but its hard, my first love was you.
Friends say my love for you is just like a fan and idol now that you're in EXO, but its not, its love, I'm sure.
They always say your first love is always hard to forget, anything related to you that is brought up again makes me think back to my memories and of you, maybe nowadays its just another fans love. Which ever it is these are my feelings for you.

I know when they say 'my heart flutters when I see him', 'the butterflies in your stomach', 'when he looks yours direction your heart skips a beat' and 'you'll always remember your first love'. I finally understand all those sayings and feelings and its thanks to you. I know what love is, but you're my first love, you always have been.

I wonder who that girl is that you always dreamt about, please find her soon and be happy, I wish you nothing but the best, Kevin, I love you and you will always have that place in my heart no matter what.

I'll do my best to work hard too.