I can’t sleep.  I haven’t actually been sleeping that much this whole weekend since Friday.  Practicing all day long during the weekend didn’t help either.  However, it only makes sense after what occurred. Our first day of school happened.  Meeting Yuri and her friends for the first time in three years happened.

Jiyong telling Yuri my feelings happened.

Ever since Jiyong did that, I’ve been deep in thought in what could happen.  Maybe she’ll say yes.  Maybe she’s felt the same too.  Maybe this will work out.

But maybe she’ll say no.  Maybe she’s never seen my as anything but a friend, a close friend.  Maybe I’ll be ridiculed.  Sigh, is this what the feeling of love is?  More like the feeling of uncertainty.

I got up from my bed, not trying to wake up Daesungie.  I didn’t really have a plan of what to do, but I decided that I’d just relax in the living room for a while.  When I got there, Top hyung and Jiyong greeted me.

“Youngbae-ah?  What’s keeping you up tonight?,” Top hyung asked, even though he knew the answer already.

“Same old, same old,” was my response as I hopped onto the couch next to them.  Jiyong was writing his little songs while hyung played with his action figures.

“Don’t worry, dude.  I already said that the circumstances seem to be in your favor,” Jiyong reiterated.

“I know, I know.  There’s just a small part in the back of my mind that thinks otherwise.”

“Then don’t listen to it.  If it’s a small part, don’t let it overshadow the rest.  Believe in yourself,” Jiyong answered.

“Neh.  What he said,” Top hyung said as he pointed to Jiyong.

“Fine.  But there’s one more thing.”

“What?,” they both asked.

“It’s my first love confession ever, yet I didn’t actually do it.  So I wanted do it myself tomorrow at school, but I don’t know what to do.”

“That’s it?  That’s easy.”  Jiyong explained what he had in mind while hyung and I just listened intently.  All I could think after hearing the plan was hopefully this is good enough.

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Short update, but I'll be updating again pretty soon.  Just got to figure out Jiyong's plan to help  :)

Anyways, congrats to Nichkhun and Tiffany.  May they be happy in their relationship!  (ironic how my BaeFany/TopFany feels got ruined by my 2pm bias lol)