Have you ever thought of Suicide?

Suicide, The act or an instance of intentionally killing oneself.

Hello there again! It's Minseok.

Today is the day I'll ask Luhan if he has ever thought of Suicide.

After School

" Hey hyung, uhm. "

Come on Xiumin. You can do this. Luhan will always be there, he'll help you get out of the hell hole.

" What Xiumin? "

" Have you ever thought of Suicide? "

From Luhan's look he was taken aback. He must think I'm weird.

" Why are you asking seokie? "

" I'm just wondering. Have you? "

I hope I don't sound to pushy. I don't want to lose another person.

" No, never did. I think people who think of suicide are just stupid. Like why die when life is so beautiful? They just need to see the bright side of things. "

Well that hurt. He just called me stupid. I probably shouldn't tell him..

" Oh okay hyung..."

" Are you sure there's no reason you're asking me this? "

" Neh hyung. I just get curious. "

" How about you? Ever thought of Suicide seokiee? "

" Aniyo hyung! Hah, who do you think I am? I love life! "

 I hate lying to Luhan. I hate giving him such a fake smile. Yet I know it's for the better. It hurts inside. My best friend thinks I'm stupid. My heart aches, I want to die even more.

" Hyung what time is it? " I forgot to bring my watch. I'm stupid.

" 4:57 Waeyo? "

WHAT?! 4:57??? Oh God. I was supposed to get dinner ready for dad when he got home! He's supposed to be home by 5! I can't possibly get there and finish the dinner in 3 minutes. Stupid Xiumin, Aiish. I'm dead meat for sure.

" Oh hyung! I have to go, like right now. I'll call you later. "

Dad is going to kill me when I get home.

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I try to open the door as quietly as I can.

" Maybe he's not home yet.. Phew. "

" MINSEOK. WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN. WHERE IS MY FOOD? "

he's home. I'm dead meat for sure.

" Oh Appa. I'm really sorry I just got home cause my uhm ssam had to talk to me after school. "

I'm sweating inside, I'm going to get beat up, I'm going to have to lie to Luhan again. He's going to ask where these bruises are from.

" Sorry? Sorry you say? Start cooking you piece of trash and we'll talk about this later. "

"

" THIS FOOD TASTES LIKE TRASH. "

Well that hurts.

" Minseok. You're going to need a punishment. Go get my belt. "

No I don't want to get hit. I don't like that evil grin on his face. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.

" Minseok go get me belt. NOW. "

No I don't want to get the belt. I don't want to get hurt.

" FINE. I'LL JUST USE MY HANDS. GET OVER HERE YOU SELFISH DUMB BRAT. "