Chappie 6

I looked through the window, heavy rain outside there, drop by drop the rain fell on the ground. As well as the sadness in my heart.

But, what can I do? God already chose me. I just can pray, and fight to live longer though I know that it will end up soon. I will fight till’ my last breath, at least I can feel a little bit of happiness before I leave. I smiled while I look at the sky.

‘Everything happens for a reason.’ I closed my eyes, feeling grateful that I still given a chance to live once again though I might not be able to live longer, at least I still given a chance to be with her. To spend the days left to be with her.

Slowly, tears flowing out from my eyes on my cheeks, but I managed to smile. Because I know that I will be watching her from up there, there is nothing to be worry about. Although I can’t be touch her hands, caressing her cheeks, hugging her, but I will be protecting her from afar. That’s good enough for me.

I wiped my tears, while watching the blue sky, slowly became cloudy. As if the sky also felt the same way as I did.

“Thank you”

I smiled while still looking up at the sky.

I walked to our usual place with the lunchbox in my hand. I sat on the ground and put the lunchbox beside me, while feeling the cold breeze on my cheeks.

Chanyeol took his seat beside me, he kept on bothering me from the class, but I just ignored him. Even though I didn’t look at him, but I know that he was staring at while smiling.

I took my lunchbox and pretended like he was not there, and opened it up. I took out the sandwich that I did this morning and started to take a bite of it. I took a glance at Chanyeol who was still staring at me eating.

I sighed, I took out another sandwich from my lunchbox and offered it to him. Luckily I prepared two sandwiches since I know that something like this will happen.

“Thank you, Ambie” He smiled and took the sandwich from my hand. But he didn’t eat it. He just held it and continued to stare at me with a smile plastered on his face. It was kind of creepy to look at him with the face.

“What?” I stopped from eating and glared at him.

“Nothing, just gonna watch you eating. Keep on eating.” He said and continued to stare.

I took my lunchbox and stood up. I walked a few steps forward and sat, leaving him behind me.

In a second, he already sat beside me while kept on staring at me. I stopped from eating my sandwich and look at him straight in the eyes. He was smiling like a 3-year-old boy that just got his candy from his mommy.

“If you’re not going to eat it the sandwich, then I will stop from eating mine.” I put the sandwich in my lunchbox and stood up, began a few steps toward the door. Just a few steps forward, then I felt someone grabbed my hand, tightly. As if he wasn’t letting it go.

“Please .. Okay, I will eat it, okay?” I turned around and without looking at him even a glance, I sat on the ground. He smiled and took his seat in front of me, and took his bite while staring at me.

“You’re really good at making the sandwiches. It’s really delicious.” He said with the mouthful of sandwich.

“Shut up, and eat.” I took out my sandwich once again and continued to eat it.

Both of us kept on finishing our sandwiches up, then lied against each other on the ground, and look at the blue sky. It was a nice day, with a bright sun, it was just a perfect day to relax our mind.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, relaxing my mind.

“Amber?” He called me.

“Hmm?” I answered while still closing my eyes.

“Nothing.” I looked at him, and he was looking at the sky while smiling.

“What is it?” I asked.

“Would you mind to study with me  after school? Well, my grade dropped, so I guess our top student wouldn’t mind to help me out.” Chanyeol answered without looking at me but kept on staring at the sky.

I smiled and closed my eyes . “Of course, this top student wouldn’t mind to help you out, Chanyeol. Where?” Of course I wouldn’t mind to help him out, because I can took this chance out to do a revision for the preparations of the upcoming exams.

“Great, at the library,” Chanyeol smiled  while looking at me.

“Okay,” I answered.  Then he stood up and grabbed my hand.

“Thank you, Amber. C’mon, the lunch break will end up soon.” He dragged me away, Luckily, I managed to took my lunchbox.

As the bell rang, means that the school hours just over, I took my steps toward the school library, When I reached the library, I opened the door, everything was dark, but the sunlight managed to light up the library a little.

Then I realized that there was a boy studying at the table in the corner of the library.  I took a few steps forward, then I realized that the boy was Chanyeol. Studying by himself. I smiled and walked toward him. I bet he didn’t realize my presence there.

I put all the books that I brought on the table.

“Hi,” I took my seat in front of him. He lift up his head and smiled at me.

“Hey,” then he continued to study, he was solving the mathematics problems. I kept on staring at him studying. Never thought that he will be this serious when it comes to studies. After a while, I took out my book and read it.

After 5 minutes, the silence between us, I heard him sighed while massaging his head. Looking at his reaction, I know that he was having a trouble while solving the mathematics problems.

“Which one?” I took his book, without looking at him. He put down his pencil and showed me the question.

“This? Okay , give me the pencil. I will try to solve it.” Chanyeol handed me the pencil while watching me solving the question.

“Haa!” I finally got the answer. He close up his face to mine, I explained the steps to solve this question, step by step so that he can understand me.

After we did the mathematics revision, both of us began to the next lesson which is Biology. I took out my book, while Chanyeol took out his own book. After we read the book, we  tried to answer the questions together.

“Wait, this question .. isn’t B?” I asked while I read the question carefully.

“But, the book’s answer is A.” Chanyeol showed me the answer.

“Wait, let’s search for some books.” I stood up from my seat and walked a few steps toward the shelves. Chanyeol also stood up to help me search for the books.

A few steps forward, I slipped.

“Aah!” I closed my eyes, but I felt someone held me. I opened my eyes, and I saw Chanyeol’s face was inches away from mine. We stayed in that position for a while. It was awkward with that position and the silence between us.

Slowly, Chanyeol pulled me up, and pushed me until my back leaned on the shelf. I was shocked by his action. I tried to escape, but his hand pinned my back on the shelf. Not letting me go.

In a second, I felt his lips on mine. I can feel the heat of his body, and the warmth of his kiss. I gasped with his sudden action. The soft kiss broke off by Chanyeol.

“I love you,” Chanyeol whispered and pressed his lips on mine once again, the kiss became  passionate, I didn’t know what to do. I was in shock, I didn’t give any respond to his kiss made him to kiss me, roughly.

I pushed him, but he was too strong. I tried to escape, but he was faster than me. He grabbed my hand and pinned it on the shelf. So that I couldn’t move. My tears flowing out on my cheeks, his kissed me on my neck, roughly. I tried as strong as I can to push him.

But he managed to trap me. He buttoned off my shirt, I took that chance to pushed him. Automatically, my hand slapped his face. I was too sad and disappointed by his action. Never thought that he will be like this.

He gasped in shock. “Sorry” he said while looking on the ground instead of me. I kept on staring at him, my anger boiled up.

“You are a beast!” I yelled at him with the tears on my cheeks. I ran out from the library with the tears kept flowing out from my eyes. I don’t know where should I go, but I kept on running.

When I was about to run down the stairs , someone grabbed my hand, then the hand pulled me until I turned my body around. In a second, I was in someone’s embrace. I cried even more. He kept hugging me until I calmed myself down.

Then he broke off the hug. He lift up my chin so that I can face him.

“Who did these to you, Amber?” I saw the worries and anger in his eyes. I couldn’t say anything but pulled him in a tight hug with the tears still flowing out on my cheeks.

“Kris..” I cried as loud as I can. He broke off the hug and held my shoulders.

“Tell me, Amber. Who did this to you? What happened to you?!” He shook my shoulders.

“Me.” Then I heard his voice. I looked at Chanyeol, he was breathing heavily as if he was chasing me just now.

“I’m sorry, Amber.” He looked at me straight in the eyes. I can see the tears in his eyes and it became red.

“You!” Kris was about to punch Chanyeol on the face, while Chanyeol didn’t show any hints to protect himself from being punch.

I stopped Kris by hugging his back.

“Stop it, please.” I begged him while crying. Kris stopped, and grabbed my hands, then dragged me away. I took my last glance on Chanyeol, although he’s looking on the ground, but I can see the tears kept dropping on to the ground.

Kris dragged me until we reached at the field. Then he let my hand off. He took a few steps forward then gathered up his face with his hand, and  let out a heavy sigh.

He turned around to face me, and he walked toward me. I kept on looking at the ground.

Kris buttoned up my shirt, then he fixed up my hair and lift up my chin to face him. He looked me in the eyes, and wiped my tears with his thumb. He gave his angelic smile at me and pulled me into a hug.

“Don’t worry, I will protect you, forever.” As I heard those words, my eyes became teary again. Kris broke off the hug and lift my chin.

“Hey, don’t cry, my little baby boo.” He smiled and wiped off my tears, I smiled while looking at him. I was grateful that he was there. Comforting me, hugging me, wiping my tears off. I smiled, and nodded.

It was a pain that I felt.

‘What have I done?!’

My heart ache when I saw the scene. Why? Because I love her. I’ve tried to lie to myself. I’ve tried to keep a distance in our relationship, but I just can’t.

When it comes to love, no one can lie about it. I wiped my tears and put on a smile on my face as I looked at her, being hugged by Kris. Yea, it was hard to accept it. But I have to let her go.

‘I’m sorry, Amber. I'm sorry for not protecting you, I'm sorry for not keeping my promise, I'm sorry that i can't have you, For everything ... i'm sorry’

I looked down on the ground with the teary eyes. I tried to held it in, I closed my eyes, and took a very deep breath. I wiped off the tears , and looked at the sky.

‘Such a gloomy day .. ‘

I smiled, as well as my heart. My body became weak, my eyes became blurry, and .. the blood dropping on the ground. I touched my nose, i looked at my hand, the blood .. again. I chuckled and my eyes got teary again as i looked through the sky. And looked on the ground, i fell on my knees, i cried even harder. 

The reality

Is painful .

Hey guys! Thank you for reading. Well, sorry for my grammar mistakes. And i kinda lack in writing something like this, i hope you like it! >.< 

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