Authors Note:  

This chapter is soley based on Jiyun's thoughts.

*____________*  Whatever is inside the stars is what the character is thinking.

--------------------JIYUNS POV--------------------

I layed on my bed as I fell into deep thoughts.

* I'm such a weak person

Why can't I be stronger?!?

I know that I make myself sound or act strong, but I can't even say no to a guy I don't even like.

Sometimes I'm so ashamed of myself.

I make myself the victim to my own story,

but really aren't I just the antagonist?!?

I go around crushing people's feeling as well as mine own.

Some people hurt others, but atleast they can make themselves happy while doing it.

That's more than what I can do.

I make myself sound like a hero but really I'm a spoiled and selfish princess.

Instead of appreciating of what I have, I go around looking for more.

Some girls would kill to be me, but I just want more.

I should just realize that nothing is gonna happen and it's all just in my head.

Sehun doesn't secretly have feelings for me and will never do.

How can someone even love for who I am?!?

Such a selfish girl full of greed...

When will I even gain my sanity?!?

I know all my mistakes but I never end up fixing it.

I don't even try!

When I have it all planned in my head I always end up backing out.

And here I am, making things more dramactic than they really are.

Here I am making myself sound like the victim.

Is this really all I can do!?!?

Can I atleast sacrifice my feelings for others?!?

Or am I too weak and selfish to do that?!?

Can't I even make one person happy!?!

I can't even keep my best friend from leaving me......

Aeyoung....

I wish she was here with me. She'd know what to do.*

Then I realized Sora was still here for me.

* We might not have known each other for a long time but she sincerely cares about me.

She actually wants to talk and listen to me.

She doesn't care if the spotlight is not always on her.

And she's not Aeyoung, she's someone better.

Even though I can't fix the rest of my mistakes, I can fix this one.*

I grabbed my phone and called Sora--

* I mean whats the point of having friends if im not even willing to rely on them and share my secrets and faults?!? *

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Author's notes:

I think its important for people to have friends. They cheer you up and know how to brighten ur day.

Lets just take a second and thank them mentally,.

Or if you want to make it special, the next time u see them, thank them!

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