TEN

They were on their last hour of shoot for their upcoming photo essay. The photographer called a break so he lingered on the couch used for the shoot. The others grabbed a quick bite while Jonghyun was on the phone. Yonghwa sighed as he went on twirling his phone between his fingers.

“Why don’t you just call her?”

Yonghwa just noticed Jonghyun walked by and sat beside him, “I’m waiting for her to do that?”

“That isn’t how it works, hyung?” he scoffed. He knew how it worked because he just called his girlfriend but she only had a few minutes to spare.

“Then how does it work?” Yonghwa snickered back, “How do you make it work?”

He shook his head, “I heard she has a boyfriend.”

“I know, and how stupid of me not to consider that before.”

“What are you going to do now?”

“That I don’t know. Let’s see how this turn out.”

“It’s probably hard for her, making decisions about you…”

“I just realized that. Am I being selfish?”

“You didn’t know.”

“So, it’s up to her. If she wants me to fight for her, I will… but she has to fight for me first. Is it too much to ask?”

“Just show her you’re worth the fight.”

~~~

Seohyun plopped her elbows on her bed and stared at the signed CD in front of her. It had been two days after the meeting and it took her that long to figure out what to do with the album she bought. That was probably the longest and the most nerve-wracking moment (excluding her bold move four years ago) in her life. She felt bad for lying to her sister but there was no other way around it. Thankfully, she still has some angels in her other unnies that were ready to take on the challenge of defying her Taeyeon unnie.

But her sister was not the main reason why she was feeling jittery and confused.

Seohyun traced his signature with her fingers. Every line, every , she remembered so well.

“Oppa, you have to put an object at the end or something.”

“Object?”

“Yep, hmmm a heart? No, that’s too girly. How about a star?”

“A star? Where should I put it? Oh here…”

“Yep, that’s perfect!”

“You should put one on yours.”

“I don’t have any plans on giving my sign to anyone.”

“Just try it… Seohyuna, here, give me your notepad. Like this. See?”

“Ya, Oppa, that’s too big!”

“Should be. We’re stars!”

“I really hope you make it.”

“I will… that’s the plan, right?”

“Your parents will let you, Oppa?”

“Sure… hmmm, will you be there to cheer on me when I become a singer?”

“Of course! I’ll be your greatest fan.”

“Hmmm, as long as Seohyunie believes in me, I know I can make it.”

Seohyun shook her head as she sat and reached for her CD player. She opened the album case and took the mini-photobook. The motif of the album was emo-ish, with white and gray as the primary colors. The boys were pictured posing under the rain in an old railroad to embody the album’s name and main single, Train Wreck.

She felt herself shivered as she read the title of the songs. Train Wreck, She Was Mine, Dandelion, Alone, If We Meet Again, Run Away, Reach Out, Heaven Is Here, Cut and Paste; and, They Won’t Know About Us.

Seohyun turned to the next page where the lyrics are found and noticed that his name appeared on several of the songs as the composer and arranger. She decided to check his songs first so he put the CD on her player and plugged in her headphone.

“And here I cry alone as I watch the rain

Rain, rain drumming on my bed

Pain, pain singing in my head

Go away, go, go, go away

Take this pain with you

Take my heart with you

My empty heart with you…

Hello rain, hello pain, I surrender

So, go away, leave my comfort zone

Stop feeding on my pain, and leave me alone”

~Alone (lyrics, music and arrangement: Jung Yonghwa)

The back of her head fell on her pillow as she closed her eyes and let the words and melody speak to her.

“The way her eyes danced in the moonglow

The way she laughed soft and slow

The way she moved with excited little steps

She was my summertime chance

My midnight dance

My Friday evening

My guitar’s string

My joyride on the freeway

My angel on a lonely day

It was her, all along

It was her to whom I belong

My little girl, my lovely darling

My woman, my dream

My desire and longing

But where are you, girl?

Where is she?

Just like a dandelion, she flew away”

~Dandelion (lyrics, music and arrangement: Jung Yonghwa)

Seohyun sat on the swing beside his. The park beside the mansion was usually where they both run to when things were not going their way.

“I knew I’d find you here…”

“Why are you here?”

“I should be asking you that, oppa.”

“You know I don’t like parties.”

“Really? It’s what I saw when you were on the stage?”

“The only time I enjoy parties thrown by my cousin is when I can get on stage and rock with my electric guitar.”

“Yeah, you look cool that way. So, why are you here again?”

“You’re not letting that slip, are you? Hmmm, I like the fresh air here and the moon and those faint stars. You can hardly hear the noise from here.”

“Hmmmm yeah, it’s nice here. The music is soft, I think they’re slow dancing now.”

“Dancing? Don’t you want to slow dance, Seohyunie?”

“Who would I dance with while my sister stands guard? My father?”

“Hahaha! Then come here, dance with me while no one is looking…”

“Eh? You don’t know how to dance, Oppa… or have you forgotten that you don’t?”

“Ya, come on… how hard can it be? Right steps and left steps, right?”

“HAHAHA! What?!”

“Aish! Just come here, you…”

“Okay, you’re funny though… let’s try that right steps and left steps…”

“Hmmm… so slow dancing is this easy, huh?”

“Yes. You’re getting there, I think…”

“I hope…”

“Oppa, I need to tell you something.”

“What is it?”

“I’ll tell you tomorrow.”

“Why not now?”

“I-I need to be sure.”

“You’re making me nervous.”

“You don’t have any idea…”

That was the night before she confessed to him. She wondered how his songs suddenly brought those memories back. She turned off the player because it was just getting into her some more and it wasn’t a very pleasant recollection.

However, curiosity got the best of her that she found herself reading the lyrics of the other songs he composed.

I recreate this scene in my head

Not of the day you ran away

But of the time we meet again

I will watch you smile

I will catch your eyes

I will reach out

Reach out and hold you

If you let me hold you

I will hold you tight

And promise, there’s no letting go

I won’t let you go

You won’t run away

My darling, my star and my dream catcher

My dream weaver

My galaxy, my milkyway

If we meet again (yes, we will meet again)

I will wait for that day

That day I will kiss you

And kiss, that I will do

Kiss you one time

Kiss you twice

Darling, if you let me, I’ll kiss you thrice

Come, come, oh oh come

Come the day we meet again

Let it come to me

I will find you, darling (yes, we will meet again)

Oh, I will find you

And if I find you (yes, we will meet again)

If we meet again (yes, we will meet again)

I won’t let you

I won’t let you go

You won’t have to run away

Not again, not ever, darling not ever

If we meet again (yes, we will meet again)

Yes, we will meet again

And then, on that day

On that day, darling

Let me tell you

Let me show you

I love you

I love you

I love you

If we meet again…

If we… (we will)

Meet again

~If We Meet Again (lyrics, music and arrangement: Jung Yonghwa)

That one surely did bring an earlier recollection. She touched her lips. Two days ago…

Seohyun shook her head and found herself staring at her phone. She had been debating over the idea of calling or even sending a message. She knew once she did any of those, it would only complicate things more.

She shut her eyes tight.

Maybe she should.

If he replied after she sent it that would mean it was a good decision.

If not, then…

Oppa…

She hit send and bit her lips.

Seohyun gasped when her phone suddenly rang.

Yonghwa was calling. She sat up because she didn’t expect that. She stood and paced a few seconds before finally taking her ringing phone from the bed and answered, “Y-yoboseyo?”

“Seohyun?”

“D-de, oppa… it’s me.”

“Oh, Hyun! I thought I’d never hear from you!”

She could almost tell how stunned he sounded. “Uhm, I’m sorry for that. I’ve so many things to do.”  She lied.

“No, don’t apologize… what’s important is that I’m talking to you right now…”

“Hmmm… yeah…”

“Hyun, can we meet again?”

Seohyun placed a hand on her chest as if it could stop the loud tap-taps inside. Somewhere in her brain told her Yonghwa would ask her that, “Okay, I guess?”

“I want to see you today, but I’m out of town and we’ll be back late tonight. Do you think you could sneak out by midnight?”

“I think so.”

“Okay, thank you! I’ll send you a message later!”

“De, Oppa… see you tonight then…”

After the call, Seohyun decided to finally listen to the album. Putting back her headphone, she pressed play. The music started; she hugged her folded legs, rested her chin on her knees and closed her eyes.

Train Wreck.

“I am a train wreck

Girl, when you went away

I am a train wreck, I am a train wreck

I am messed up, trainwrecked

Do you remember that night?

That night on the park, under the moonshine?

I took your hand and we danced

Like nobody would mind

It’s all gone now, you’re gone now and

I am a train wreck

Girl, when you went away

I am a train wreck, I am a train wreck

I am messed up, trainwrecked

Do you remember the day?

The day I sang my song

And you slept on my shoulder for so long?

It’s all gone now, you’re gone now and

I am a train wreck

Girl, when you went away

I am a train wreck, I am a train wreck

I am messed up, trainwrecked

Do you remember that afternoon?

That afternoon you said you loved too soon

Well, angel, it wasn’t only you

I didn’t see it then, but it was you

Well, It’s all gone now, you’re gone now and

I am a train wreck

Girl, when you went away

I am a train wreck, I am a train wreck

I am messed up, trainwrecked

They’re all gone now and I’m a train wreck

But, angel, but darling, all may be gone

And I may be a train wreck

But, angel, but darling

You still hold my heart

My heart in a train wreck

Save me, it’s time you save me

From this train wreck

I don’t want to be a train wreck

Save

Save

Save

My heart… in a train wreck

It’s all gone now, you’re gone now and

I am a train wreck

Girl, when you went away

I am a train wreck, I am a train wreck

I am messed up, trainwrecked

Save me…

~Train Wreck (lyrics, music and arrangement: Jung Yonghwa)

Her tears fell as she opened her eyes. Seohyun needed to stop the CD for awhile to think. Everything about that song…

Everything about it was her.

“…all this time, I have been writing about you…”

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