“Alex-ah is this who you love” the voice of my mother brought me back to reality. I quickly pushed the person away and opened my eyes. My eyes widened at the guy currently standing in front of me, I was frozen in shock before Mrs. Jo asked me who he was and if he was my boyfriend. I was going to answer her and explain everything before a group of boys came rushing in “hyung what are you doing” one of them asked whilst panting “yeah hyung why did you bring us here just to ditch us and come into whoever who owns this house, wha-“| he turned to me “A-A-Alex noona” gaining the attention of the other boys who then looked at me with wide eyes and shock “Alex-ah is that really you” I nodded my head and smiled.

I turned by head back to the boy standing in front of me, I could feel the tears building up in my eyes “oppa” I saw a fall from his eye before he tightly hugged me “jagiya” everyone gasped but quickly became silent again to listen “I missed you” “oppa I missed you too” (cough cough) multiple coughs could be heard before I looked at the rest of the guys and ran to them instantly being crushed by them “I missed you guys too, I cant believe all of you guys left me to study abroad for a whole year when did you get back?”. “Today” I turned towards HIM “we came back today” “oppa why did you come here then” “I came back for you” he walked towards me and gently grabbed my chin before placing his lips onto mine, it felt so right but at the same time it felt wrong, my mind was all fuzzy before my dad pulled us away from each other “what are you doing” he shouted at me, anger written on his face he pointed to him “and who is this” “I’m her boyfriend” everyone was shocked “h-how” Kwangmin asked, not able to take his eyes off of us “well three years ago we started to date until a year ago when we broke up because I had to leave for America”.

After that my uncle Suho told them to leave, as we had to discuss what has happened, Heeyoung and Youngmin walked up to me and dragged me into my bedroom with Kwangmin tagging along. *CLICK* Youngmin locked the door “spill” I sighed remembering our memories “he was my first boyfriend” “my first love” my first kiss” I smiled remembering all of this, how nervous he was and all the things we did together. “how did I not know about this” Heeyoung asked “I kept it a secret, I used to hang out with them secretly and I just fell for him” “do you still love him?” silence took over the room as I stared back at Kwangmin after he asked his question

(do I still love him, he was my first love but what about Kwangmin)

I looked down unable to answer “sigh” “I knew it you still do” Kwangmin got up and left the room “wow” Youngmin said, tears started to fall down my cheeks “out” “what” “GET OUT” Heeyoung and Youngmin jumped up frightened from my outburst “WHAT PART OF GET OUT DON’T YOU UNDERSTAND” I shouted at them not caring who heard me, they ran out and downstairs to quietness as they all heard me.

I covered myself in my covers for a while, in the darkness with only the lamp as a source of light, before going into my wardrobe and taking out an old shoebox. I looked through all of our memories: us in the park him and me together, all seven of us messing about and the last one, the one that breaks my heart into pieces, a polaroid of us in the airport right before you had left, I turned it around and written on it was “jagi don’t ever forget me arraso, I’ll be back for you :D and when I find you again I expect to see you with it on KE-KE you know what I’m talking about right

                                    SARANGHAE

I put it down and picked up a necklace

“I expect to see it with you on” I opened up the locket and saw a picture of you with a sign saying “I love you” I fell back under my covers in tears forgetting about the mess I made.

My mum walked in and saw me; I pretended to be asleep as she wiped the dry tears from my face and cleaned up the mess I mad, she knew I wasn’t asleep and closed the door.

I turned around and slowly fell asleep, hoping that this would all go away when I wake up.

“Chunji oppa, why did you come back now, right when my heart has healed and beating for someone else”.