it's been a week after. many people noticed me that i look so pale even my tangerine lips turned into pale weak lips. and even if a ghost see me, probably she'll run by seeing me. Bom sit beside me while im arranging my 1 week trolly full of clothes.

"ya.. dorky.?"

"wae ? dont show me that kind of face"

"you-you wouldn't say it to Ji ?"

Flashback:

it's the first month of class, Ji and I were getting closer and closer. aside from talking nonstop. we even go out together after class. that time, he started to court me. and i let him do it.

"dara"

"nae?"

"lets go at the Bampo bridge at 7pm tomorrow."

"mwo? wae? for what?"

" let's have an official date"

"sure. okay."

i got so excited after receiving that short message.i was like a luckiest girl dating a cute blonde guy whom i called resembling a mouse before. i opened my closet and choose a simple yet unique dress. knowing me, im not much into girly things. Simple is still the best.

Ji picked me up at home for around 6pm. Cheondung's not around since he's starting his training as a new talent in entertainment industry. As i run and hug him, he exchange it with a sweet innocent smile.

"you look pretty dara"

"i know, my mom told me since birth, no need to bug things out"

"that's why i love you"

he hold my hand tight as we reached his car, as he drive, he the radio, and an unexpected song was played: Butterfly. I hear his voice singing along with the song. I was happily singing with him until we finally reached the Bampo bridge.

he parked his car and we start roaming around watching those waterfalls in different colors. Ji asked me:

"are you happy when you're with me?"

i nodded. " yeah, you never failed to make me smile"

"Dara, i like you, not just like, but i love you. more than friends. more than this"

"Ji, i love you too! though before i got shy but i realized that i cant live without you."

he wraps his arm on my waist while he get something on his pocket. he got a necklace and puts it on mine.

"Dara, will you be my girl?"

"nae. i'll be."

we planted a kiss on each others lips. and fyi, that was my first kiss.

Present.

"in right time bommie."

"but dorky,"

"leave those things to me!"

As we slide our trollies going outside the school building, we reached Ji and Top's car, Bom and I hug each other and parted ways going inside our boyfriend's cars.

As Ji drives, he started to ask things.

"jagii, are you okay?"

"nae. mian. just didnt complete my goddess sleep."

"we're heading to jeju, you'll get enough rest." as he grabbed my hand and kiss it. "of course. you're with me"

i felt so comfortable same with i feel like i want to cry. only two months left for us to graduate. and 10 months to live.

i fell asleep and not knowing that we already reached our location in Jeju. I woke up in a room, as i walk outside, i saw Ji, cooking and looking at me as he feel my arms wrapping on his waist.

"jagii . how was your sleep ?"

"good! but it will be better if you sleep beside me"

"later baby girl"

He cooked a kalguksu. it taste good in a way i'm still better. i but he never get mad. instead, he got his revenge by having a pillow fighting after we eat.

As we lay down beside each other, Ji sleeps fast as i could. so i sit down and grab my diary.

Dear Diary,

" 10 months left. Im hurting and going to blast anytime. please. i'll choose this path. I want him to marry a girl and raise a family and be happy without knowing im dying. I'll feel better and relieved before i leave this world when i accomplish this hurtful thing. Saranghae Ji. and im sorry for causing pain and hatred."