It's 4am. sunday morning. i've been coughing containing blood again. Twas an epic. i counted it. self pity again. then i noticed someone laying down his blonde head on my bed. i knew it was him. He should be at his wife's room and not here supposedly. He woke up with a smile on his face. I almost forget, He's not mine.

"joeun achim jagii" and before i speak, again, he pressed his finger on my lips. "i know you'll reject, but sorry babe. i miss calling you that" and he wink.

I just smile and close my eyes as he hold my hand and caress it on his face

"mian, jagiiya"

I didnt utter any word. as he handed down a necklace, he again, lace it on my neck. I just let him do what he wants. and again, tears starts to fall.

"jagii, saranghae"
"saranghae"

i let him kiss my lips for a long time. I miss that soft kissable lips. As the nurse knock the door, she enter and said that after an hour or 2, i'll be going at the O.R for operation.

He hold my hand and seems he doesnt want to let me go "Dara, dont give up"
"i'm tired, almost half dead, i want to rest"

after an hour, again, the nurses began to transferred me to another bed, i started to remove my necklace and hold it on my arms

"Ji, i'll hold this until the end, i promise not to let it fall as soon as i can"
"Dara, dont leave me"
"whatever happens, again, be happy and take care"

they started to open my room, as we leave, i saw all my blockmates cheering for me. I whispered to bom "Thank you" and i bid them all farewell.

As we entered in the O.R and started to turn on the round white light, usually, it takes 2-3 hours operation. I close my eyes; i started to breathe as much as i can; still holding the necklace.

"CPR" ....

the O.R light outside turned off. it takes only 10 minutes; as they released Dara on the o.r; the doctor starts to talk to Ji

"we already do what we can, i'm sorry"

the doctor showed Dara's hand; still holding the necklace on her hand; Bom pats his shoulder and gave Dara's Diary.