we left from Jeju at around 8am. Still, my mind were completely blown up. Im trying to tell a non-sense stories so we wont be bored. But i guess im not really good enough.We ended up talking about the past going back at the first day of class.

"after graduating, i'll find a job"

"na-nae Ji. same with me."

"and let's plan to get marry"

I became silent for atleast 5minutes. Marriage. the dream day of all girls. wearing the most beautiful wedding dress. and marrying your ideal prince. But sadly, i wont be experiencing that happiest day .

"we dont need to make things fast Ji. you know how much i love you but mian, im not ready for that."

"mian jagii."

"sorry also" i sighed.

he hold my left hand while driving. i whispered to myself that please, dont ever let it go.

after an hour, we went straight at his house. maybe i should go and have a sleepover at it for 2 more days. i called my brother at phone.

"ya saeng!"

"noona, i miss you"

"i miss you too. how was the training"

"its hard noona. but im enjoying it. how was your trip to Jeju? my tshirt noona!"

"its good. oh yeah. i bought 20 different designs haha. i'll be back to the house after 2 days. appa and omma are going back to Seoul."

"noona, did you tell to Jiyong hyung about ..."

"aniyo. you know my plan"

"but noona, its totally wrong. he will be hurt. and might be having a hatred for you"

"saeng, i want him to be happy. i know it will cause really painful to him. but it became twice pain to me. i wanna be sure before i leave this world that he will find his true happiness with a girl whom he will be forever. im not the girl that is deserving to be with him. i gotta go saeng. much love and kisses. take care.

"nae noona. you too."

my brother was totally right. but, still, i will continue my plan.