Sungyeol and I were walking by the beach laughing about coffee beans when suddenly a great whirl of wind made me lay down on the sand. I saw his hand being reached out. I took it. But when I looked up at him again, Junhyung’s face was what I saw. He was smiling at me tenderly then he pulled me into a hug.

Seconds ticked. Minutes passed. Sense of drowsiness washed over me. I never felt so uncomfortable in my entire life. He pulled away from the hug. What’s happening? Junhyung then suddenly ran away from me. I don’t know why but I ran after him. Wishing maybe that if I catch him, he’ll be back as Sungyeol. I want Sungyeol. I need him right now. I feel so scared.

The beach view faded and it was replaced by a dessert view. Massive sand dunes were everywhere. I still ran after Junhyung’s back. Tired and scared, I fell down because sand was as if drowning my feet. When I got up, snow filled the land. Mountains with snow tops were a view from a far. Junhyung still ran and I haven’t caught him still. I ran again. Somehow, suddenly, a school came into view and Junhyung went inside. I went too but not before I saw everything look like it was first day of spring. Cherry blossoms bloom from the tree near the school’s door. Sunrays kissed my cheeks.

I went inside the campus. I saw Junhyung go up to the second floor so I went up too. He entered a room from the right so I went inside. I saw him then squatting beside a girl sitting on a chair near the window. No one was around but only them. I stayed at the door not wanting to go over them. The girl suddenly stood up. I saw Junhyung caress her face and kissed her. In the lips.

I woke up from that bizarre dream last night and didn’t manage to sleep again. It left me restless, tired and quite sad this morning. It’s after lunch already and I haven’t finish the paper works in the office yet. It’s weeks after the famed shooting that happened in the café.

I heard a knock at the door.

If Junhyung is on the other side of that door right now, I’d scream. Really.

“Come in,” I called out.

Sungyeol’s head popped up from the door surprising me. I clutched at my chest when I saw his gooey smile. I was comforted at once. I haven’t seen him this morning for I haven’t walked out the office ever since I entered.

I don’t have the good mood to be around with people. Junhyung’s messing my mind again. It was as if the 6 months of moving on is still not enough.

“Can I come inside?” Sungyeol asked.

“Sure.”

He then walked inside and placed a mug to my desk.

“Café Mocha,” he smiled.

“For me?” I asked even though I obviously know the answer.

He nodded.“Jiyoon told me that you haven’t eaten lunch yet.” I saw worry in his eyes. He continued, “Ilhoon and I haven’t eaten yet too. Do you want to join us?”

Should I?

Should I not?

Why does this guy has an effect on me already? I like to be with him always. I enjoy his company the most. He’s in my dreams, on my mind, in my thoughts. But.. I only met him recently.

 How could I like someone so easily?

Am I that easy?

Maybe, he’s just really likeable, right?

He stood up. “We’ll wait for you outside,” he said then went out of the door.

I sighed. I haven’t even answered him.

I stood up and made my way to the kitchen.

What’s wrong with liking him? I think he’s nice. I shouldn’t live in the dark being bitter with what Junhyung did to me for forever. I should make new friends and I shouldn’t turn them away.

I saw Sungyeol and Ilhoon chatting happily while eating at the kitchen.

“Manager noona!” Ilhoon called out as I approached them.

I saw Sungyeol’s smile get a little bit wider. I smiled back.