they preparing to sleep when the door  knocked !he was Siwon ! everybody got worry . he seems so depress and sad! Leetuek led  him to the living room and guys circled around him. “my mom and dad…fought again “ Siwon whispered .

“it is about your girl friend right?” Leetuek asked .

“kind of…oh I am so tired …can I stay here tonight ? “ Siwon said with shameful voice .this clearly show  to guys, he doesn’t want to speak about it more than that.

Heechul wondered “ GIRL FRIEND? I didn’t know he has one! But Seems everybody knew !”

Dong hae pocked Siwon ‘s  shoulder :” of course ! you can use my bed!”

Siwon bashed :” no, I can sleep here on this sofa”

Leetuek stood up :” but this is too small ! “

“I just needed to be far from the home…. There is not important where I am sleep”

“ ok then…let me bring a blanket …”

Heechul didn’t say anything. He just stood there and gazed at his sad face . He was feeling something strange about him. The feels that doesn’t let him to do  anything!Maybe  he is sorry  for him  but he doesn’t know how he can help him at lease with his words ! Leetuek brought the blanket:” you don’t need anything else?”

Siwon  smiled so cold :” no thanks! “

“ Ok then , good night”

Heechul turned to come back to his room , then Siwon added :” forgive me if i bothered  you! “

Heechul wondered. Siwon stared to him so he smiled hardly :” that’s ok …see you”

But he couldn’t sleep at all! That was 3:15 o’clock . something was  bothering  him seriously ! he the bed and thinking . what was difference between that night with others? Of course Siwon !!! oh yes he was regret because of his cold manners! He should was sitting beside him, hugging him and said :”everything gone be all right … I am here…do you need help? Do you want to talk?”

But no! he stood there like a statue and…

He sat up ! “I should check him! Maybe he needs something! “

When he went out of his room , saw his body shape  in the front of the window .he had  only a gray pants on himself and his perfect body was shining under moonlight ! he had stood toward the outside and  was smoking ! “siwon?”

He whispered . Siwon scared :” oh hyung!” and tried to hide the smoke with his waving hand!:” why you aren’t into sleep? “he whispered too.

Heechul reached to him and looked at cigarette that he had held between his fingers :” seems you are so upset !do you…want to…talk?”

Siwon  got happy :” oh no,I mean yes I am so upset but…I don’t want to make you sad or…”

Heechul  looked at his cute face:” I like to know,what happen!?seems everyone knows except me!”

Siwon bashed more :” yes! …I were shaming to talk about it with you!”he threw the cigarette out of the window.

Heechul shocked :” WHY? I were thinking we are so close…”

Siwon hugged him uncaused ,like always :” we are so close…but…my situation is so ..so…”

Same strange feel came to his heart ,when his touched Siwon’s  bare body! So he came out of his arms so suddenly  :” it’s ok! I just wanted to help you …if you don’t like to speak about it…”

Siwon hugged him again!!! :’ I want to speak with you just about happy things ,I  like to see your smile everyday and….every night !”

Heechul just his back  :” I want to see your smile too..”

Siwon pushed him more and more into his bosom :” if I could  hold you forever , if  that was you….i could be smile forever !”

Heechul shocked  and thought ”what? why me?  What is he talking about?”

“who?” he murmured  with apathy .

Siwon opened his arms :” she is so pretty and lovely girl that my mom found for me…”

Heechul wondered. He wants to talk ?! Siwon turned toward the window again and continued :” I  love my mom and wanted to make him happy so I accepted  to date with her ! our date was wonderful …we are so match ! we talked about everything we danced ,we played music, and …kissed several time…that was so romantic …”

Oh he can’t stand anymore! What is the matter with his heart? Why it got  pain?:”ENOUGH!” he almost shouted!

Siwon scared :” why? What happen? Did I say wrong things? “

Heechul tried to smile but damn! he CAN’T! “ just….go to the point! Ok?“

Siwon bashed again :” oh right ! I am sorry!i  talked to much!”

Heechul gazed to his profile and thought ,”why he was so sweet and lovely?”

“then my dad discovered it !he got mad and said he had planned, one Japanese trader’s Girl for me ,so he wanted from me to broke up with her and go with him to Japan and meet her!”

Heechul felt dizzy ! “how complicate!”

“ but I don’t want to be his slave! I don’t want he use me for money ! he never care about my feels ….and oh GOD! he wants from me to marry her! I even don’t see him yet!”

Heechul nodded :” so you fall in love with that girl and you don’t want to break up with her?”

Siwon smiled so shameful :” no…I mean yes I am fall in love but…not with that girl…”

Heechul  felt dizzy more :”  oh ! so you love another one and dated with that girl just because  your mother wish it…then your father wants to you marry with,…ayiiish!  You have really big troubles !”

Siwon sighed :” if I only… could know he loves me or not…I could repel with all the world to reach to him and hold him…forever …”

Again he felt so damn feels and his heart sank but he ask just because he wants to help him:” so why you don’t ask her?”

“oh no! I can’t!... it’s..kind of thing that you can’t fix it! my love toward him ..is totally wrong and ….” Siwon scared .

“wrong? What are you talking about? Like fall in love with…married woman?”

“worst! “

Heechul scared too :” so if you can’t fix it or you don’t have any chance to reach her , why are you resisting with your parents ?”

Siwon hasn’t anything to say! He turned to the window and Heechul whispered :” so…this is your real problem isn’t?”

  Leetuke  cut his word :”hey? What are you doing? “

Heechul went back :” just talking….”

“our voice made you awake? “Siwon bashed.

Leetuek came near:” no I wanted to go to the bathroom…hey guys it is almost morning … “

Heechul turned to Siwon  :” ok I am going to sleep, see you tomorrow “

Siwon smiled :” good night and….thank you for your sympathy.”

So this was his problem! Maybe it was so selfishly but now he was so impassive because in Siwon’s story , he hasn’t any place so why should he cares about it or even think about it again?

But in fact  he was exactly center of the Siwon’s story!!! Leetuek asked :” are you fine now?”

Siwon nodded :” yes…I got closer to my target more! “

Leetuke didn’t know anything :” how? Heenim guided you?”

Siwon grabbed his arm with two hand and tried to hold his full happiness laughing!”  oh hyung I should confess something !”

Leetuek got exciting :” what?”

“I am in love with him!” Siwon whispered.

Leetuek couldn’t move :” who?...him?...hee….heenim?”he whispered too.

Siwon nodded with shy into his eyes. Leetuek put his hand on his forehead :” oh my….oh my…tell me you are kidding …oh how this possible…”

Siwon bashed :” don’t be like this…I thought you know this ! “

Leetuek threw his hands over :” oh I should sit! “and he sat on the chair :” when? Since when? “

Siwon kneeled in front of him and talked with so low voice :” I don’t know when it started! I just went to the date and there i…I found I love him and want him more than everything and everybody in the world  ….”

Leetuke wants to beat him :” so this is your real problem not your family or your girlfriend !”

Siwon sat beside him :”yes…he is my big and only problem !”

“what you can do? Oh please try to forget him! You said you are happy with your GF!”

“no…I lied! “ siwon bended his neck! Leetuek wants to beat himself this time! :” W…WHAT? all of that story was lies?”

Siwon groaned:” no of course not!” he put his hands on his knee and get closer to him:”  I just...don’t love her! How can I like others when I am in love with…him?”

“so what you can do? You Can’t  fight with your family or run from them forever you know  you  won’t be able to tell the truth to them!”

“yes but if…  I can know what he is thinking about me..if I have had a little hope that maybe he loves me too, if I can be sure I can reach to him  and he will be mine in the end….i can fight for him against  all the world but…”

“oh Siwon ! you know even if he loves you someday…you can’t win  this war!”

“I don’t care! What can they do? they throw me out? They throw me down? It’s no matter at all…even if they kill me...it is more easy to handle life like this…without him… ”

He spited and couldn’t continue it . Leetuek  rubbed his back :” you don’t have to shout to the world and confess your love! only tell him and try to catch him .this must be your real fight because even  if you can content your family about marriage ,you have to hide this love from everyone...you know  you can’t marry with him here ….”

“I can…marry him in here!”he put his hand on his heart and sighed.

Leetuek  sighed too:” stay here for a while and try your chance !”

Siwon hugged him:” oh thank you…”

After breakfast , he called his mother to know what happened last night”he didn’t give up… his business is facing bankruptcy so he needs your help! he said if he has to ,he will kill your Girl friend ! “his mother said.

Siwon went to Heechul  ‘s room and closed the door:” look mom, let’s forget Minsu ….i love her but if Dad doesn’t want her , we can’t be happy  …”

“so you want to marry with Naomi? “

“ no mom! It is so soon for me to marry with someone! “

“ I know but your dad says you engage her for now and after 2 years you get marry .he said she is so beautiful and nice girl…what do you think?”

“ no mom…I can’t! oh please I can break up with Minsu just for dad but this engagement is too much for me!”

“but you know..  only this marriage can save your dad’s job!if our company…”

“oh mom you want to let him to sell me?”

“no look…you will marry someday so why you….”

“no mom! I don’t want to marry! NEVER!”

“I know you are angry now  …let’s talk another time… and I will try to speak with your dad again.”

“thank you….I will be here for a while until your fight get end!”

“ok my darling …see you then”

“thank you mom, good bye!”

When he turned to the door saw Heechul  ,had stood between the doorpost and he was smiling :” so you want to stay here!?”

Siwon bashed :” hyung!? what are you doing here?”

Heechul came in:” let me see…oh look! This is my bed…and my closet and…oh this is my ROOM!”

Siwon bashed more :” oh sorry ! I mean ...did you hear our conversation? “

Heechul went toward his wardrobe :” no of course not! I am not rude .i just didn’t know you are here …so I just  heard  last part of your conversation! “

He start to opening his pajama’s buttons  !!! Siwon had stood there, gazed to him with his thirsty eyes and prayed for sees him ! Heechul took out his shirt  and searched  for new clothes . Siwon can’t take his eyes from his y body shapes and his heart knocked boom boom boom! Oh how much he loves to hug that body and ….Heechul  murmured:”  do  you want to look at me until I make you blind?”

Siwon laughed from shying and run out.

 That was midnight when he came out of his room to go  to the bathroom ,then  he saw Siwon has stood  front of the window again, and smoking again! “ hey hey hey…throw it away!”he whispered.

Siwon turned to him and when saw him into black tank top, he got exciting . his creamy skin attracts more than always.“ what are you doing here?”

Heechul came closer :”I have a pee ok? stop asking this! “

Siwon smiled :” ok sorry! “

“and stop to say sorry!”

Siwon looked at his languid eyes :” ok…sorry again!”

Heechul poked his back :” did you take a decision ? “

“my decision is clear ! I just try to actualize it!”

“so….no Minsu and no Naomi ?”

Siwon shocked :” oh my! So you heard all of it?”

Heechul lolled his tongue  out :”  ok I am rude!”

This made Siwon so happy !he attend to his life! Heechul continued :” so what you need to actualize your decision ? “

Siwon  took  his soft hand, lifted it and rubbed his fingers with his thumb :” I need…you!”

Heechul pulled back his hand:” I try to be helpful but you are joking…”

“but I am serious!”

“shut up!”

“sorry…”

“ oh I said don’t say it too!”

Siwon groaned :” ah! You scare me!”

“ ok ok …let’s think ….you want to get rid  of both girls ,right?”

Siwon nodded and tried to hold his smile .Heechul  continued :” you can make a white lie like….hmm….aha Say to them you have a HIV virus ”

Siwon start laughing :” you said “don’t joking “and now yourself …”

Heechul hit  his stomach with back of his hand :” what about this?!  say to them you are undered!”

Siwon laughed loader .Heechul whispered :” shush! Be quiet! Don’t pull Leetuek  here ! “

Siwon pushed his hand on his mouth  :” oh hyung you are not helpful at all!”

“oh if you were a girl it was so easy! You could say you are pregnant!”

Siwon couldn’t hold himself and sat on the edge of the furniture’s table  :” and when they ask about his father? “  Siwon giggled

Heechul sat beside him :”me! I can take responsibility to what I have done to you!”

Laughing doesn’t let to Siwon to speak and Heechul continuing to joking :” oh or you can say YOU got a girl pregnant !”

Siwon held his laugh so hardly :” all of that you said ,need a proof ! “

“ oh come on! Maybe they took you to the hospital for HIV or your problems but what can they do about  a stranger Girl ?”

He seems so serious :” but…how can I find a pregnant  woman to accept my request and play a role for me?”

Heechul grabbed his hand:” oh we don’t need a girl! I can play for you! I can be your wife!”

Siwon felt his breath smothered into his chest :” OOOOH !”

Heechul took a cushion from the sofa and put underneath his tank ! Siwon can’t laugh anymore! Heechul rubbed the cushion over his tank :”so?what do you think?am I like a beautiful mom or…just like a fat Santa? “

Siwon moaned :” this is …so…so…”

Heechul sighed :” I know I can’t be helpful but I want to be… so just…tried to make you laugh “ he pulled out the cushion and threw it away.

Siwon’s eyes got hot from tears :” you don’t know how much  you are helpful “

Heechul pushed his hand:” thank you but we should find a way to rescue you…”

“no…shush!”Siwon rubbed his hand :”  just be here… sit beside me… Just stay with me…and…” Oh he was scaring to continues … he was scaring to lose him forever . Heechul nodded:” I am here Siwoniiiii …” and like he knows what he was thinking ,he added:”don’t worry  I won’t leave you , so when you need me just call me ok?”

Siwon gulped to take a courage and says what he has into his mind but Heechul jumped and smiled :” oh i am sorry but  If I don’t go to the bathroom NOW I am sure I will piss here!”

Siwon laughed again and Heechul run to the bathroom…

It was Sunday .they all wants to sleep longer than everyday but someone knocked their house’s door. She was Minsu! When guys saw a lovely girl has come to their house , shocked and got happy!  Everybody except Heechul !!! he wasn’t know what she was looks like until one minute ago and now he can see she is really cute and...damn y  Siwon was shying to introduce her to the guys:”how you found me?“

Minsu said:” your mom told me you are here so I came to see you.”

Siwon had blushed  so he tried to hide her somewhere!” Let’s go to the cafe !”

Leetuek  groaned :” are you crazy? this makes a scandal for our group !” and turned to  Minsu :” please come this way… to the living room  ”

Siwon went with her to the living room and  Leetuek  closed the door behind them. Heechul groaned :” hey what are you doing?”

Leetuek  pulled his arm:” we should leave them alone! “

Dong hae said:” and we should preparing the breakfast for them!”

Shindong got exciting  :”yes ..let’s make a beautiful and romantic  table !”

“WHY?”Heechul screamed automatically :” are we pimp ?”

Leetuek  shocked and Dong hae jumped and closed his  mouth with his hand!

He can’t eat.He was so angry ! he can’t stand they were alone and…” what is the matter with me?” He thought ! “Am I jealous ? WHY? Oh damn! “ he stood up :” I should go!”

Leetuek  wondered :”  where? Today is holyday !”

Heechul groaned :” I just want to walk! “

Dong hae said:”  but you need your bodyguard  you are famous and ….”

“ it is morning I am sure nobody isn’t around  …”

Sindong said :” but it is raining and…”

“I take an umbrella ! “

“but you will get cold!”

Heechul shouted :” please grandmas! let me go!”

Suddenly someone run to the door and went out! Leetuek  jumped :” who is it?”

This time Heechul  smiled automatically :” I think she was Minsu! “

Dong hae stood up too :” what happen? let me check Siwon !”

Heechul groaned again:” I can check him!” and he run out of the kitchen .

Siwon had taken his head between his hands and breathing so hard. Heechul went and sat beside him :” hey? what happen?”

“we broke up”

His voice seems so tired and sad but Heechul  was happy! :” oh it must be so hard…” he rubbed his shoulder :” if you love her you should fight for her and…”

“no! I said before I don’t love her! I never love her”

This made Heechul happier than before:”but I heard you said to your mom …” and he regretted to mention to his gallimaufry  ! Siwon lifted his head and gazed to his shining eyes with his fond eyes :” it was lie …”

Heechul couldn’t control his smile :” really ? “

“ why this made you happy?” Siwon became hopeful !

Heechul bashed :”  because…you had to break up with her and … if you love her, it became so hard  ”

Siwon smiled too:” is this your real reason to be happy?”

Heechul tried to change the spot: ” you don’t love her and your mom accepted you break up with her! so why you are sad now?”

 “ I can’t run from the marriage forever…”

“so why you don’t tell them the truth ? maybe they like her…”

“no…they won’t accept him..never!”

Heechul felt sorry for him :” so what you want to do? “

Siwon gazed to his kind eyes:” I don’t know…maybe…I should take him and run   to the Neverland…”

This time really envy rankled in Heechul ‘s    :” let’s go to eat.”

  during the day ,guys tried to makes him happy and help him to forget his problems. They made a great lunch and after lunch they played with Heechul ‘s cats and listened to the music. After dinner Dong hae bought a movie in the name “Antique Bakery” Shindong said he saw it before so he went to his Girlfriend .Leetuke said he is so tired and wants to sleep so they 3 sat front of the TV to  watching the movie  but middle of the movie , Dong hae fell into sleep on the sofa and Heechul brought 2 crayons to paint  dong hae’s face! That was so fanny moments. He drew to him a big and long mustache  and Siwon drew sunglasses for him! Then both carried him to his bed and came back to watch the resume of the movie but movie surprised them! That was about a gay guy that was working in the pastry ! in the first kiss , both bashed  but stayed silent and both prayed that was   last kiss of  the movie but it wasn’t! Heechul tried to mention to the another things :” hey if I fall into sleep don’t paint my face ok?”

Siwon smiled :”then, try to stay awake! “

And another kiss scene! Heechul couldn’t stand anymore and said :” you know what? I think dong hae became a gay!”

Siwon laughed :” yes what kind of the film he choose ?”

Suddenly Heechul sat straight :” hey you know what? you can say to your family , you are gay!”

Siwon shocked! Did he suspect to something!?  “you think this work ?”

Heechul smiled :” hey I am just kidding! “

“ no ..really…think…I am gay…”yes he needs to know what is his opinion about it!

“I don’t know! you know your dad and mom more than me! So if you are thinking it maybe …”

“my mom and dad isn’t important ! I am asking  you!”

“me?why me?” Heechul wondered :” do you want to run from marriage or not?”

“yes but I want to know…if you know someday…I am gay….what do you think?”

Heechul scared from his serious eyes :” I don’t know…this will surprise me for sure but…what can I do else? “

“ will you…hate me?” Siwon started to pray” say NO say NO NO NO…”

“no! why should I hate you? This is your choice !”

Heechul suspected a little “is he really gay? Maybe this is his problem! “

“ are you…serious? Even if you know…I fall in love with…someone that…you know him well…”

Heechul  was scaring to ask more:” I...I said I don’t know! I didn’t think about it….”

“can you….think  about it for me? I need your answer!”

Oh God ! this was so big step to him !he got more near to his target ! Heechul was into the shock ! if Siwon  become gay, is this makes him happy or sad?:” ok…i..i will try to answer you”

Movie  hadn’t ended yet but Heechul groaned :”oh it is so bore !i am going to sleep”In fact he wants to run and hide in his room!

 Siwon wants to hug him , hold him and beg him to stay more but he can feel he had scared .” I  will buy  a good movie tomorrow night …”he said.

Heechul stood up :” ok then…see you”

Siwon sighed :”good night.”