[Flashback to telling Yang about our relationship.]

The elevator doors closed, and I thought I was going to throw up. My stomach clenched and the bile roiled slowly creeping its way up my esophagus. I must have looked as bad as I felt because Seung-Hyun wrapped his arm around my shoulders and pulled me over to his side.

“Baby, breath! It isn't like he is going to fire us all or something.” He said before placing a kiss on my temple.

“Ha! Of course, he isn't going to fire either of you! We all know he CAN'T fire Ji...without Ji, YG doesn't make NEARLY the same kind of profit! And you...YOU, you are not only TOP from BIGBANG, but you are also mega-acting-star Choi Seung-Hyun as well!!!! No way is he firing you! But me??? Oooohhhh, he can fire me! There are plenty of other translators and English teachers in Seoul...he can replace me quite easily! There is no reason for him to keep me! Think about it! I do my job just fine, but I have led two of his biggest...if not THE two biggest money makers for him astray! Convinced you to enter into a relationship that society will never ever ever approve of and if it is found out spells utter ruin for all involved!!!! Oh, yes...he can fire me...” I ranted.

Ji placed himself in front of me, put a finger under my chin to force me to meet his eyes and said, “You are right about one thing only...he cannot get rid of THE two biggest, and I happen to know that we are indeed the two biggest, money makers in the company. Sinhae-ah, breathe and think...we are not going into this meeting to gain approval. We are going into this meeting as a courtesy to our employer. We are informing him of our relationship, not asking for permission to have one. Dear One and I have been here long enough, been close enough with Yang-hyung, and more importantly, have contracts that give us this kind of freedom, to know that nothing between the three of us is going to change no matter the outcome of this meeting. Arreseo?” He waited for me to nod before releasing my chin.

“Good. Now take a deep breath and let it out slowly.” He continued and then burst out laughing when both Seung-Hyun and I did as he asked.

“What?!?! You guys don't think I am a bit nervous as well?” He grumbled. “While there is nothing he can say to stop this marriage, I DO hope he approves.”

Seung-Hyun the fidgeted slightly, pulling me against him a little firmer, before taking another deep breath and squaring his shoulders, as the elevator 'dinged' and the door began to open.

Ji smiled and muttered, “I love my silly fiancées!” as he turned and strode confidently out of the elevator ahead of us.

We were greeted by the President's secretary who let us know he would be just a moment, as he was finishing up a phone call.

Ji and Choi sat down while I chose to stand, too nervous to sit. Thankfully it was just a few seconds before the door opened and Yang popped his head out.

“Oh, you are here already!” Hyun-Suk seem shocked.

“Yes, the appointment was at 5:30 correct?” I inquired, slightly confused by his shock.

“Well, yes. But I thought that that meant that it would begin at 6 at the earliest.”

“What? Why? That doesn't make any sense. Yang-nim why schedule it at 5:30 if you didn't want us here until 6?” I asked letting some exasperation come through in my tone.

“Um, Sinhae-ah?” A small voice came from behind me.

I turn to see both my men looking at me sheepishly, “He does that all the time when dealing with BIGBANG members...we kind of have a tendency to...shall we say...run slightly behind.” Ji-Yong-ah told me, pointedly avoiding looking at Yang.

“Slightly behind?!?! Really, Kwon? A little behind?” Yang commented drily.

“Okay! We may always run behind, but we rarely run REALLY late!” from his tone that was as far as Jiyong was willing to concede.

Yang snorted but was smiling, “Yes, I have talked to their leader about it several times, but since he is one of the biggest offenders, I haven't seen much change. Maybe I should start fining them for every minute they are late...it worked for the 'Tonight' album. Hmm?”

Ji stood up and bowed, “Ani, President Yang! I will do better to improve myself!” He bowed again and stayed half bowed.

“Enough. You cheeky leader! But please, I would be very pleased if you would improve yourself and your members in this matter.”

“Well,” Seunghyun said speaking for the first time, “I think that it may get better in the immediate future...which is what we are here to discuss with you.” He stood up, “If we could continue this inside your office, I think you will find it very interesting.”

“Oh-ho, so the silent partner thinks I shall find something interesting...by all means let us continue in my office.”

We followed him into his office where he gestured for us to take a seat. He raised an eyebrow when we all sat together on the couch, Ji in the middle.

“Just what would I find interesting?” Yang queried curiously.

Ji took a moment to meet Seung-Hyun's eye briefly, asking if he should take the lead. Dear One nodded slightly and Ji took a deep breath. “You see...well...Okay...” Ji looked up and noticed Yang's amused expression and burst out in a grin himself.

“Must be something really big to have you all tongue-tied. Let me see if I can help you out here.”

Ji looked surprised, “Hyung?”

“I am not a blind old man, my dear kids.” He smiled and I noticed it reached his eyes.

“I am guessing that you three are here together to inform me that the two of you,” He gestured to Seung-Hyun and Jiyong, “have finally realized separately and admitted to each other that you love our dear Sinhae here. I am further guessing that together you managed to express this to Sinhae without causing her to have a total and complete mental breakdown. I am postulating that you are here to tell me that the three of you have entered into a relationship that could get us all into a lot of trouble if it were ever to be discovered, and we are here now to discuss how best to secure this situation and make sure that it can be kept under wraps.”

We all sat there staring at Yang Hyun-suk with our mouths hanging open.

“Wh-what?” I stuttered out.  “H-how...I mean...what?”  And this man pays me to be elegant with words in three languages...sigh.

“Do I really need to repeat myself?” Yang asked slowly.

“How long?” Seung-Hyun asked him.

“Hm?” Yang responded.

“You know what I am asking, how long have you known?” He repeated firmly.

“I have been wishing for a long time, hopeful since June, and certain of it since the middle of December.” the President of YG Entertainment replied.

“How could you have known?” Ji-yong-a asked in a slightly awed voice.

“How could I not?” He shot back.

“I don't understand.” Ji responded.

Yang sighed deeply before replying.

“I see things...things other people don't see. I can see who will work well with who, who not to put in a group to avoid discord, which personalities will mesh to create a place of creativity and production. I see things others do not. I saw a month after Sinhae-ah began working with the two of you that she would be a good fit for either one of you. I made note of it and decided to keep an eye on it. As time passed, I saw her getting close with both boys, but I also saw both boys finally getting close to each other in a non-brotherly manner.” He paused and sighed again, “I almost pulled Sinhae-ah out of it completely...by that time I was certain she loved you both and was having issues realizing it.  The two of you finally came to me to tell me you were finally dating, and I watched you, Sinhae like a hawk. I watched for any signs that you were unhappy but saw none. Then at the end of April I saw the first signs that something had changed. I was alarmed.”

He turned to look at me breaking me out of my stupor as he spoke now, “I had been watching you to make sure you were not miserable, and in the first part of May I began to worry. You had changed the way in which you behaved around our boys here. I noticed more than once that after you spent time with both of them, just the three of you, you would then disappear into your office, or once into an empty dance studio. It was after the dance studio escape that I nearly reassigned you to have no contact with BIGBANG in any way.” I met his eyes and nodded.

“I remember that day.” I said quietly, choosing to keep eye contact with Yang rather than have to met the questions I knew were in the eyes of my men.

“It nearly killed me to watch you sob. I called my wife while watching, told her what was happening and asked what to do. She gave me the best advice ever. She told me that I was to do nothing...never send a man to do a woman's work.”

I gave a mirthless chuckle, “That is why she called that evening and told me she simply HAD to have a night without kids, and would I PLEASE go have coffee with her? She is good...I felt so much better after getting coffee, and booze, and going to noribang!”

“Yes...well...she never told me that you two did anything other than coffee.” Yang grinned, “I shall have to ask her about that.”

“Did you cry often after we would hang out?” Seung-Hyun asked in a grave voice.

I bit my lips trying to formulate my answer, “Well. When I found out about the two of you in Japan...after we talked, and I went back to my room...that was the first time I admitted to myself that I was in love...with both of you.” My speech was broken by pauses where I struggled to from words and hold back the tears that threatened.

“After I accepted that I loved you both, I sat behind my hotel room door and sobbed out my grief at what you had just shared with me. I could see the love you had for each other and it made me so happy and so very sad at the same time. After I managed to calm down, I made a decision: I loved you, and I would show my love by doing everything within my power to ensure that no one ever used your loved for each other against you.  It was hardest those first couple of weeks. Since I knew about your relationship, you both felt able to express yourselves in front of me. You didn't have any idea of what was going on inside of me. You never knew that each kiss I saw, or word of endearment I heard scored my heart with hundreds of little cuts that stung so very vibrantly.  I truly enjoyed being around you, but there were times...times I had to get away...to release the pressure that was threatening to burst out of my chest.  Those were the times I sought the refuge of my office in the dark, or as was mentioned earlier, an empty dance studio.”

“Oh, Little One!” Seung-Hyun gasped out and Jiyong threw his arms around me.

“I'm so sorry!” Ji murmured, “We are so sorry!”

“Hey, stop it! You didn't know! It isn't as if you were doing it to be cruel! And it DID get better, gradually. Bit by bit I was able to let go of the hurt of the loss and start receiving the joy that the two of you gave so freely.”

“And that is what I saw. My wife had told me to give you until the end of May. If I still saw the escapes happening, then I was to ask you to dinner where we would have talked to you about it all.” Yang spoke gently. “But again, I was to do nothing without asking her about it first. Let me tell you, there are not many people I would do that for. Putting matters of the heart above business doesn't sit well with me, but with you three...well it is what it is!”

He stood up and moved to his desk, “And because it is what it is, we need to consider what this mean for the future. Do the other boys know?” He looked over his computer, pointedly looking at the leader of BIGBANG.

“Yes. We told them at our members only Christmas gathering.” Jiyong told him keeping eye contact, “We told them that the three of us hoped for their blessing but that even without it we were going to continue the relationship. That as hard as it was for us, that we had made promises to each other that the relationship come first...even above careers.”

“And just how did they take that news?” Yang asked cocking an eyebrow.

“Little Seunghyun was silent. Daesung was shocked then grinning.” Ji paused.

“And Youngbae?”

“Bae...well Bae was slightly tougher.” Jiyong admitted.

“Dong Youngbae was the only one to voice concerns right at the start.” Seung-Hyun broke in, “He raised question after question, and listened to our responses. Every question he asked us, were questions we had already asked and talked about ourselves. After no more than 15 minutes, Bae clapped his hands and said 'Okay.' That was it.”

Ji took up the narrative once again, I was still recovering from the fact that Yang knew about us and had been watching over me from afar. It was just now really sinking in that he had known everything.

“Bae then stood up walked up to Sinhae-ah pulled her up and hugged her. He whispered something in her ear that to this day neither of them will tell me what it was, and then announced to the room in general, and I quote, 'I don't think you truly know what you are about to get yourself into with these two pabos but know that you are not alone. We will all stand by you because you are now a part of our family.'  With that Daeseungie stood and come over to Sinhae-ah telling her he was glad that his hyungs FINALLY saw what was right in front of them!”

Yang laughed, “Daeseungie has always been more perceptive than most of the people around him.”

“Seungri started complaining that since we had had each other why did we have to go and be greedy by taking the prettiest noona in YG as well.” Seung-Hyun said with a chuckle, a fond grin on his lips.

“So they support you fully and know you are doing this right now?” Yang asked while typing.

“Of course.” Ji replied.

“Sinhae-ah, anything to add, you are being unusually quiet over there.” Yang addressed me.

“I-I...I don't know what to say. The fact that you knew even before any of us did...that you hoped for this to happen...I just...You kept an eye on me from afar, making sure I wasn't miserable...You...” I let out a huge sigh of frustration, “Ugh! I cannot seem to put words into a complete sentence! You may want to rethink keeping me employed in your translation department when I can't even form a sentence!”

All three men chuckled at that and Jiyong picked my hand up intertwining our fingers together, giving me his support and encouragement.

“Yang Hyun-Suk, you like to portray yourself as a hard no-nonsense CEO, when in reality the 'YG Family' moniker is so much more than a moniker.  It is the truth.” I had been staring at our joined hands on my thigh while I spoke, but now I looked up at Yang, “Thank you. Thank you for taking an interest in me and watching over me from the very beginning. From the very first I felt that you would have my back when it mattered...you expect a great deal of your employees, but you give just as much...you do not expect what you are not willing to give. It makes the employees of this company want to do their best, and I am no exception. You made moving here and settling in so much more bearable. Don't think I didn't notice that I was approached by several co-workers and stylist Unnies that first month...they showed me around the city, the restaurants, how to get good taxis, where NOT to go without a group, where the best street food was, the best shopping...It wasn't until we got drunk together that I found out that it was an usual move on your part. They began telling me how they were so amused that I had endeared myself to you so quickly, and that you had asked favors of these women to help me adjust.  Oh, my I am rambling now...you guys need to stop me when I get carried off subject!” I scolded them but none of them moved to stop me even then.

“The point I am trying to make, is this; You have been my most trusted advocate. Someone I have always known I can come to without the fear of judgment or condemnation. I know that you truly have my best interests at heart and that means more to me than I can ever ever convey to you in any language I know. I will continue to do all I can to help this company succeed and grow. I will also do everything within my power to make sure these two men I love are healthy, and happy. I know it will not be an easy road ahead of us, having to hide, not being able to let people know that I love them and vice versa, but I am ready to travel that road...because the alternative is unbearable. I cannot cope without them with me, and I cannot imagine trying...so whatever we need to do to protect this I am willing to do, no matter what.”

“I have no intention of re-thinking your employment...the only way you leave this company is if you decide to do so.” was Yang's response.

I burst out laughing, “Out of everything I just said, that is what you choose to respond to?!?!”

“Take it or leave it.” He retorted with a shrug.

I sighed out dramatically, “Fine! I guess I will take it!”

“Good choice.” He dead-panned back.

“I would like to add to what our Little One, said.” Seung-Hyun said, and we all turned out gaze to him.

“We have talked in depth about how hard this is going to be...and that fact that it will be so much harder than what we can imagine. But President Yang,” Yang raised an eyebrow at the formal address, “We are serious about this...we didn't just come here to tell you we were together...well not only that.” Seung-Hyun paused to pick up Jiyong's other hand threading his fingers through it as Ji had done to me earlier, “We came to also tell you we are getting married. We are in this for the rest of our lives, this isn't something that is passing, something we are 'exploring', this is for keeps.”

Yang leaned back and steepled his fingers staring at us intently.

“Married?” He said at length. “Where are you going to get married?”

“Here, in South Korea.” I said firmly.

“We know it will not be recognized legally.” Ji said.

“But that isn't why we are doing it.” Seung-Hyun continued.

“We are doing it for ourselves, to publicly commit ourselves to each other.” I picked up again.

“We want to celebrate our love with our closest friends and family.” Seung-Hyun finished.

After we had finished, we sat in a tense silence waiting for Yang's response. Again, he just sat his fingers forming a steeple in front of him and a thoughtful look on his face.

“It would have to be out at the Kwon pension. It would have to be kept VERY small. I am talking under 50!”

“We have a guest list, totaling 33 with the possibility of adding 5 more.” I informed him, glad that we were prepared. “We also had decided on Dolce Vita as the venue. There would be no children, just adults. One of my good friends, whom I trust, has a catering service and would have all employees sign a gag agreement. There should be no shortage of those attending who can help with music and sound, and we are already inviting three stylists and they could help me get ready.”

“Wait, just you? Why can't they help us too?” Ji questioned genuinely confused.

“Oh, my Heart, they can help us all! But I call dibs on Eunbi for my makeup!”

Ji made a face of acknowledgment, “That's fair.” He paused and looked at me mischievously. “Considering that I am better at doing eye makeup than you are!”

“Sweetie, that goes without saying.” I told him while patting his knee in sympathy...

“By the time we left President Yang's office we had the date and most of the details of the wedding ironed out.” I finished the story.

“Yes, bet we hadn't discussed any plans on how to contain and maintain our relationship.” Seunghyun-ah said. “Which is why two days later Ji and I were back in the office, along with Sean and others coming up with a plan and strategy if the unthinkable ever happened.”

“Which is why Sinhae has no knowledge of those plans.” Jiyong finished.

Daesung let out a deep breath, “Wow, so now we need a new plan, because there is NO way we are letting Sinhae-ah have people think she is a single mother. We have all seen how hard it has been on her pretending she is single...we can't let people think she is a single mother.” Daesung said firmly.

“We have no intention of ever having that happen, Daesung-ah. Like we said mostly likely Ji will announce who he is in love with publicly.” Seung-Hyun told him gently, “Thank you for loving our Sinhae so much, and looking out for her.”

“Well, the two of you may love her romantically, but the three of us have come to love her just as much as you guys do, just platonically!” He said with fire.

I couldn't help but giggle. “Ah, maybe it is only right that VIP's hate me...I have confessions that all five members of BIGBANG love me!!!” I giggled again thinking of the outrage the netizens would spew forth with if they knew about this! I kept giggling and realized that I was kind of freaking out. I looked up and made eye contact with my Heart.

“Deep breaths my love. In......and out......and in....” This made me laugh harder because the thought that came through my head was that he will be a pro with getting me to breathe when it comes time to give birth.

He smiled at me while walking over to the bed, “I know, delivery will be easy in regard to the breathing!”

Knowing he knew what was in my head calmed me a great deal and I nodded while concentrating on breathing.

Seungri watched this with a thoughtful look before saying, “It hits you at the oddest time, doesn't Noona?  The realization of how little control we actually have over our own lives...how much of what we do depends on the masses of well-meaning but unrealistic fans.”

I glanced at him and nodded.  Seunghyun was rubbing my back in small circles, giving me strength just by being there holding me in his lap. 

“Even so, we are still people with needs and rights,” Seungri continued, “Never feel bad for seeking out, finding, and holding onto love. I won't lie, it was hard for me when the three of you got together, but it was because I was jealous. Watching you love, support and care for each other...it blew my mind. I have known the hyungs for a long time but seeing the change in them once they got together, and then watching them change even more when the three of you became a thing...” Seungri paused a moment, “It was astounding. You have always been great hyungs that I look up to, but you guys became so much more when you found the loves of your lives. I want that and I am not ashamed to admit that.”

“Aw, Riri! I want that for you too!” Ji said moving to be able to ruffle Ri's hair.

“Not the hair, hyung!!!” Little Seung-Hyun complained. “Why do you guys always go for the hair?!”

“Because we know it bugs you!” Youngbae told him bluntly.

“You really are easy to mess with.” Ji grinned at him.

“Shut up! You guys always abuse me!” Seungri pouted.

I reached over and patted his shoulder, “Awww, poor maknae always getting picked on.”

Seungri looked over hopeful now that someone was taking up his side, until I continued, “ it up, buttercup! If you ever want them to stop messing with you, you gotta stop showing them that it gets to you!” I gently flicked the side of his head and laughed.

“Now you ALL ! I take it back! I don't love any of you!” Seungri continued to pout but was ignored.

“When will you tell President Yang?” Youngbae asked bringing us back to the subject.

“Tomorrow after we tell our mothers.” I said, deciding without consulting my guys, but meeting their eyes and finding approval. “As much as I am loving having you all here, the call of sleep is beckoning, and I must answer.”

Hugs were again given and Bae, Ri and Dae promised to be there on Friday if we wanted then there.

After they departed Seunghyun carefully laid me down and I burrowed under the covers and was soon dead to the world.

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A/N: Here is a blast from the past. I recently was cleaning up my computer and re-read this story. I wrote a bit more and I may continue to do so. I make no promises as real life is chaotic but when I putz around with more writing I will be sure to post it. Happy 2020 all.