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It's already been 2 days since Sunhye, the lady he had come to love and idolise had told him with such sincerity how much the elder brunette had been suffering without him. To an extent where the single dad would cry his name in the mornings as well as resemble dead zombies from popular horror movies. In a way Kibum loves to hear how much the elder had suffered without him. It makes him feel less pathetic since he is just the same, suffering on his own without the elder's presence in his everyday life. Kibum concludes in confusion and slightly cluttered mind that the both of them have equally suffered the last couple of weeks when the term avoidance seem to overrule his mind. 

It has already been two days since he finally came back to work. Being welcome by the happy and joy filled faces of his students lets Kibum inhale and exhale without any other thoughts clouding his mind. 

It is also Kibum's second day back into work, and as soon as the bell rang to emphasise lunch he hurries to find the auburn haired man after helping the little girls and boys with their pack lunches. Opening the double doors to the canteen, he let the children in because the benches outside are too cold for the children to eat on.

Kibum smiles as he finds Minyoung and Yoogeun sitting in their twos, it's been so long since the last time he saw both youngsters laugh. What makes his smile widen the most is the fact that even with all the friends the two had accumulated in their time in school when it comes down to the both of them, being alone, by themselves is way more interesting and satisfying than being surrounded by the whole class. The blonde can't help but to feel a needle ever so slowly stab him in the heart. His selfish actions of avoiding the elder caused a void in Minyoung's and Yoogeun's relationship and that is something the younger man can't help but to feel utterly remorseful for. 

"What's up with the sullen face? Everything seems like it's going back to how they were." Kibum turns to acknowledge the auburn haired replying with a small smile before turning back to the two laughing youngsters. 

"I guess so... but now I'm confused." Kibum says crossing both arms protectively over his chest. He tears his gaze from the faces of the beautiful and handsome children he came to love and adore. 

Taemin smiles taking the elder by the shoulder and manoeuvring him towards the staff room. Flopping the elder down who didn't even lift a finger of protest. The younger takes a seat, "I'm listening." Taemin says with reassuring smile. The younger hopes that today is the last time he has to do the babying for the elder. He'd really rather have the elder babying him to be honest. He isn't used to this but then again, ‘love changes you,' the younger huffs. 

Kibum hesitates for a moment before sighing, letting his mind and lips do all the talking for him. He tells the younger what the older lady had told him about the person he is trying so hard to avoid. Not one single detail is left out from their conversation, he wants a full advice and seeking it from the slim limbed younger meant that everything had to be laid out for counsel. Taemin would occasionally hum and nod, asking the elder to carry on and once the elder had finally stop, Kibum looks up at him with red rimmed feline eyes glazed with the purest emotion of confusion and hurt. 

Taemin stands up from his seat before joining the elder on the sofa. "I suggest that you give him a chance to talk to you, since he is too clueless to know your feelings and it’s also unfair on him since you're avoiding him like the plague when in his mind he's done nothing wrong. Hyung... you can listen to my advice or carry on feeling sorry for yourself, but I want this... to stop okay don't keep acting pitiful if you don't want me and others to look at you with pity, sometimes I feel that you already know half the answers to all your questions and keep in mind it's not just you who's involved in this, Jonghyun hyung too. Stop making decisions all on your own." Taemin says with a straight face and Kibum nods to the younger's mature advice. The confused man can't help but feel stupid and a little inferior, this boy used to be so clueless, innocent and naïve, now it seems like they have swapped identities, roles almost. He's the one that needs looking after now. Every single thing that left the boy's mouth hits all nerve in Kibum's system and the blonde can't help but be ashamed of himself. How selfish has he been all this time, making decisions the elder brunette weren't even aware of, hurting them both in the process.

Taemin leaves his best friend, his co-worker, his umma to contemplate on his own thoughts. He excuses himself politely before jogging up to a group of boys and girls already making their way outside to the chilly breeze of Seoul, Korea.

Kibum huffs a sigh, trying to remember the good memories the 24 year-old had made with him and he finds himself smiling longingly. 

Then a small knock resonates within the small room of the teacher’s lounge. It breaks him out of his little trip down memory lane, before craning his neck and stretching his tired body. He makes his way over to the door. 

"Who is it?" He asks voice slightly croaky, as he opens the door, displaying the little girl he was awing over a few minutes ago. "Minyoung... what's the matter sweetie?" He asks ushering the little girl in with a motherly smile. 

"Can I talk to you umma?" She asks with the sweetest of voice and it fills Kibum completely with adoration. He finds himself nodding to the younger's question. "Of course you can, go ahead." Kibum reassures the little girl who claims her way on to the elder's lap. 

"Umma please, please talk to my daddy. He said he'd really appreciate it, he wants to tell you something really important." Minyoung pleads displaying the most adorable set of big doe chocolate brown eyes, two small hands clasp together in emphasis. 

Kibum opens his mouth to refuse kindly, not wanting anything else to do with the other. Things had already gone far too confusing and complicated for his easy carefree lifestyle. However he closes his lips in slight purse, mind rewinding back to what the elder lady had told him about Jonghyun, who is too weak to function, too affected to care and once again the blonde is torn in two. To refuse and regret or to agree and regret. Either way, regret seems to be included in a two for one value. He really hates it, but it really can't be helped.

His heart tells him, yells at him to give the elder a chance to explain. Then again what exactly did the elder need to explain himself for? Breaking his fragile heart was never the elder's intentions, or so he hopes. Yet Kibum can't help but feel like he requires an explanation from the male. He wants to know, needed to know who exactly Shin Sekyung is to the latter. 

"Okay, I'll come round with Yoogeun-ah today, Minnie." Kibum says with a grand smile and he hates the way his heart beats so erratically. He feels like his heart would jump out and would crawl out of his body, all because of finally getting the change to lay his eyes upon the elder after a few weeks. Minyoung internally jumps and celebrates in her joy elation, she is one step closer to getting her father and her oh-so-loveable teacher together. Her mission is so close to completion. "Thank you, Ki-umma. My daddy really misses you and I do too." 

Kibum's lips stretches into a smile. "But you see me all the time when you go to school, silly." He says pinching the younger's cheeks. Minyoung giggles in response, "Yeah... but me and appa haven't been eating well without umma. Appa even said 'I want Bummie-umma to cook for us.' and it's true, since appa can't cook." The little girl looks so adorable. The fair haired elder couldn't help but bring her in to his embrace. "Awe god, did I miss you." He says and he lets his dimples show as the little girl nods enthusiastically in return. "You don't know how much, I've missed you baby." 

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Jonghyun wakes up feeling ecstatic and obviously for a reason. Yesterday's events had led the smile on his face to permanently stay there. After so long of living in his denial he finally, fingers crossed, could express to the fair haired younger his true feelings and intentions. He just hopes and prays that he isn't too late, since the idea of the younger growing tired of waiting won't stop plaguing his mind. 

He lets his feet travel off to his daughter's bedroom letting the smile on his face turn into a proud grin at the sight of Minyoung cutely spread out on her bed. Her teddy bears placed neatly around her like a shrine, duvet long gone covering the cold floor instead of the younger's body. Times like these Jonghyun can't help but be mind-blown; the child laid peaceful in front of him is the same serious and mature young girl that enlightens him everyday. It's also these sorts of times when the elder lets the feeling of pride and amazement swell inside of him. There is no doubt how Minyoung would turn into the most beautiful of women in the future and sometimes Jonghyun finds himself asking 'How did you even do it?' Because in reality he really doesn't know and yet he knows and is thankful that Minyoung grew up to be such a wonderful person, not only because of him but also because of Minho, Jinki, Sunhye and Kibum. 

Today he will not only be making his own happiness come true, he will also be granting a wish he knew the younger has been longing for. With that positive thought in mind he slowly closes Minyoung's room, before making his way to the room of the 2 year younger male to ask for the sweetest of favours. 

Jonghyun knocks on the door as anyone one would if they had manners, smiling as the voice of the younger comes resonating in his ears telling him to come in. 

"Mornin’ hyung." Minho says with a smile looking up at the elder as he continued to stuff business related books into his messenger bag. 

"Morning Min, I know I've already asked a favour from you, to take and pick Minyoung up from school today, can I be a and as for one more... little favour?" The elder says with a guilty smile, eyes silently pleading and begging for the younger to say yes. Minho in return starts to burst out in a fit of laughter.

"Hyung, you know I wouldn't mind so what's up with the puppy eyes, apart from Kibum hyung everyone else by now is immune to it. Taking Minyoung to school is something I want to do hyung. Go on what could I do for you?" Minho replies with a reassuring smile, eyes urging to the elder to speak. 

"I-uh, well if it’s not too much to ask I mean, if you’re not doing anything... like I totally get it if you don't-" 

"Hyung, just say it as long as you don't tell me to murder anyone I think I can help you." Minho jokes hanging his bag on the handle of his wardrobe. Jonghyun feels stupid for being so damn awkward about it and he just lets his mouth out in the open. 

"Can you baby sit Minyoung today after school probably with Yoogeun too?" Jonghyun asks, the younger who's ears perked up in interest. Now he sees where this is all going. 

"Why?" Just because he knows it doesn't mean he won't have fun messing and teasing the elder. He would never have thought it could ever be caught without his cool and charisma. Minho looks at the elder with cocked eyebrow, voice hinting.

Jonghyun avoids eye contact, hand flying up to rub on his neck shyly, "Well... I- um I'm hoping to take Kibum out for coffee or something to talk and sort things out." He starts shakily and in that sense does the taller younger think that after nearly a whole 3 months of being in denial, the elder is finally coming to terms with his feelings and Minho prays that after today things could be resolved between the two. 

"Well as long as I can have Taemin round I think that would be alright, since we were meant to go to a date." Minho agrees, relieving to the elder who actually went into thinking about plan B and C, if the younger boy declined. 

"Of course. Thanks a lot Min, well I'll leave you to it then. I've to leave for work early so I'll see you when I get back." The shorter brunette smiles at the younger who only nods in return. He makes his way out from the other's room and back to his own to pick out the perfect suit to wow the blonde feline he would have the duty of picking up this afternoon. 

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"Are you going to tell me why suddenly you're happy again?" Onew asks, putting the files down on the glass desk of his younger brother who continues to grin at the wall behind him. 

"Oh hyung, I didn't see you there..." Onew didn't know if he wants to be happy that his little brother is back or sad, that his complete presence is not noticed by his own darling brother, "Jong, I'm right in front of you like... right in front of you." Jinki says annoyed, gesturing to himself then to the sitting other who continues to smile still in the state of unconsciousness. Contorting into one of bliss then suddenly to one of fear. Jinki thinks that Jonghyun is completely losing himself to insanity. Then suddenly Jonghyun looks up to him eyes slightly wide and surprised. 

"Huh? Sorry were you saying something?" Jonghyun's mind is everywhere, he couldn't focus on anything and if there is something he could focus on then it's the thought of the younger blonde who would... if everything goes to plan, be his lover by tonight. 

The elder can't help but come up with silly ways of confessing making him grin at his own stupidity. Getting an airplane to fly just above their heads with a sign that says, 'Kim Kibum, I love you <3', would probably do him more bad than good. As sweet and utterly tactic he is the younger seems to be the type that's more moved by sincerity than grand gestures. So Jonghyun abandons the idea, positively thinking to himself that speaking from the heart would be enough to conquer the blonde's heart. Then again, he isn't completely sure if winging it would do him any better either, since he has this weird habit of turning to stone at the mere thought of the younger blonde. 'How about if my tongue suddenly stops working, I'll look even more idiotic?' Jonghyun couldn't help but think, face physically scrunching up in fear of failing. If all else fails, Jonghyun hopes that sweet gestures could convey all the words he needed to say, a kiss doesn't sound so bad. It's winter after all. 

"I did, I asked why you look so... happy?" Jinki says unsure of what exactly he, himself if trying to say, happy sounds nicer, Jinki concludes before plopping himself comfortably on the unique sphere glass chair, hanging from the ceiling the younger brunette designed himself. 

Jonghyun sits up in interest... happy? He looks happy? He extends his hands taking the thick piles of documents his ever so caring elder brother had given him. 

"So, are you gonna tell me or not?" Jinki asks again voice laid back and Jonghyun stares at the elder before sighing. 'Not yet,' Jonghyun thinks. He's never told his brother anything about himself personally and this time round he thinks that maybe after speaking with Kibum then he, in time will also be able to speak to his elder brother that had helped him grow and learn as a person. 

"I don't know hyung, not now but someday I promise." With that Jinki stops asking anymore question respecting his younger brother’s wishes. He isn't angry or frustrated, more like disappointed and slightly hurt, then again Jonghyun's case is understandable. At least the short haired elder could have the peace of mind that someday in Jonghyun's own accord will talk to him. That day he'll never get tired of wait f for, it is his baby brother he's talking about. The one that takes all the blame when he would accidentally break a vase, the one that reassures him that everything will be okay and when their mother passed away. Jonghyun is naive and stupid and all sorts of imperfect but to Jinki, Jonghyun is his baby brother who he admires and can't help but want to aspire too even though the other is younger than he is. 

"Whatever it’s Jonghyun-ah, just remember I'll be happy for you. Hyung will be 110% behind you, okay? Now since I feel like you're going to ask to leave early for whatever it's that's making you smile, I'll take some of these..." Jinki says with a reassuring smile getting up before walking up to the younger's desk taking half of the documents he first placed there for the longer haired brunette to take care of. "I'll talk to you soon, Jonghyun-ah." Jinki adds as he walks away from the younger. 

"Thank you, hyung." Jonghyun shouts after the elder. Jonghyun can't help the smile of his face from widening. His brother is truly awesome, he concludes with a smile looking at the few documents in his hands. 

Jonghyun can't help but caress the silver plated rim of the medium sized photo frame brightening his rather full office table. There, within the frame lays a photo of the backs of 4 people, Yoogeun linking the hands of his hyung-umma and Jjong appa as he walks with them in the middle, as Minyoung is placed comfortably on top of the elder’s strong shoulders. Jonghyun can't help but frown a little to himself; he has been denying himself from that kind of happiness. He's always been the person who likes to make other people happy and he admits that along the way he had lost the idea of self-happiness, until now that is. 

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When Minyoung makes her way when it's finally time to go home, pigtails cutely bouncing with every step she makes towards the younger boy who weirdly eyes her in return.

"Why are you so happy?" Yoogeun asks confused since in his mind, the situation they're both in with their parents not talking to each other, is certainly not something to be happy about. 

"Trust me, by today it won't just be me with a stupid happy smile on my face, oppa." Yoogeun tries his best to decipher the other's coded sentence. He doesn't move an inch, every muscle on his face stiffens in concentration; eyebrows furrowed in a question, lips protruding in deep thought. 

"Yoogeunnie, we’re going over to the Kim's house today." The blonde elder's voice rings softly in his ears and the younger thinks he's hearing things. It's been such a long time since he's heard that particular sentence coming from his mother's mouth and you couldn't blame the younger for staring blankly at the elder with wide open eyes. 

Minyoung stands on her tiptoes her little hands clutching on to the equally smaller shoulders of the 4 month older boy. "Trust me, this is only half of the story, oppa." She whispers, the girl voiced ill of mischief and hidden meaning. 

"Umma, I forgot to tell you, appa is picking you up from school." Kibum's eyes mimics the size of boulders, as his hearted shaped mouth shape an 'o' in shock. He barely is ready to face the elder along side the presences of Minyoung, Yoogeun and Minho, (at least he has the auburn haired other to wait with him.) The thought of having to awkwardly share weird glances with Jonghyun is something the fair blonde couldn't even imagine. What is he meant to do? What does he say when the elder is once again before him? Talking to him after what seems like decades. Kibum could feel cold sweat begin to seep from his pores, palms feeling clammy and moist, lips dry.

Kibum opens his mouth to speak, he really hates how often things he says continue to get uninterrupted be it be by the 7 year old or the auburn other. They had acquired a habit for interrupting, even when it isn't always on purpose. 

"Mi, Yoogeun are you guys ready?" For once Kibum is taken aback as for the first time it's Minho interrupting him. "Oh, hey Kibum hyung, Jonghyun hyung just told me that he should be here in 5 minutes so don't worry you don't have to wait long." ‘Oh the irony, Kibum’ mentally mocks in his mind, because he really didn't mind waiting for an hour or two for the elder. 

"Mi, you better give me an explanation for this." The young boy says looking at the younger who continues to grin widely at him. It terrifies him to absolute oblivion. The younger boy collects his belongings before eying the flustered looking blonde who just smiled at him in return. The little girl lets the grin be replaced by a small smile. "Unlike you, I like sharing important stories." Yoogeun is beginning to see just what sort of things men in their twenties would come to hate when it comes to girls. In the ways in which women have codes that need to be deciphered to be understood by man, it was just too difficult. The little boy hopes that Minyoung would grow out of that stereotypical phase of having coded meaning, he's smart but he isn't a mind reader and all these mysteriousness is beginning to claw in his skin. As long as the blonde elder doesn't get hurt or played with then everything should just be fine. Or so the younger raven hopes. 

Minyoung lunges towards her uncles embrace, smiling widely looking more admirable in the taller's eyes, "Oppa, lets go, go, go!" The little girl exclaims and even though the other seven year old is still bewildered and slightly confused, Yoogeun happily jumps into the taller's awaiting arms, where Minyoung is comfortably perched up in. 

"Minho, can you just tell Tae to come here then?" Kibum says and the way in which the taller's eyebrows rose sent a bad vibe through the bonded spine, 'You got to be kidding me.'

"Hyung, Taemin is coming with us, he's baby sitting with me, plus he's already in the car," The taller's retorts, and Kibum literally feels like the whole world is against him, literally. 'Like what the absolute fudge,' Kibum screams internally. 

'It's okay, it's only Jonghyun.' Kibum tells himself which he finds absolutely stupid because he finds himself retorting right after. 'Yep, the same Jonghyun who managed to make into an absolute fool Overnight.' But the blonde clearly has no time to be fussing and worrying about so he remains calm... well as calm as he could, in a situation so unfortunate such as this.

"Here let me help you." Kibum says with a stifled giggle, the way the younger yet taller other struggles to put all the children's belongings on one shoulder, while balancing the two looks way too cute for the blonde. Kibum's toned long legs were accentuated by his washed out jeans as he made his way across towards the other who smiled in thanks. "How about I take them to your car instead." Kibum muses taking the belongings for the younger's hands. 

Kibum takes the various bags from the younger's hands as well as his own locking his class room behind him and walks with the trio out from the school building, bowing towards Minsook, the schools janitor, a funny middle aged man who manages to bring a smile on his face. 

The walk to the brunette's car makes Kibum's tummy churn, that's every step closer to having to be left all alone to wait for the elder. 

"Umma, I guess you don't have to wait for long, Appa's there... look." Minyoung exclaims animatedly pointing at the sleek black car making its way to the front gate of the school, and god does his shoulders feel a lot heavier. 

It doesn't take long for the four of them to arrive, the two get down from the taller's arms running towards Kibum who opened his arms willingly letting the stings of giggles escape from his smiling lips. "We'll see you at home umma. You and appa have fun, okay!" Minyoung happily says hugging the blonde even tighter. Minyoung loves the feeling of being in the elder's embrace and the little girl really can't wait to be in the elder's embrace in the mornings and in the afternoon and whenever the little girl wishes to be hugged. Minyoung lets go and kisses the blonde's cheeks goodbye before flashing a thumbs up towards her father who grinned at her from his car. 'Don't you mess up now, daddy.' Minyoung adds in her thoughts. 

But the whole act doesn't go unnoticed by the other seven year old who also had his hands around the elder and he smiles to himself. If his gut feeling is correct, then this time round maybe, his hyung-umma wouldn't have to break his streak of being the person who gets confessed too. 

"Have fun hyung-umma." Yoogeun says letting go of the elder's neck before joining the little girl who's already safely buckled in her place, waving his uncle goodbye. 

Kibum waves back at the quartet who waved him goodbye, grinning at how Taemin motherly turned round asking if the children are ready before patting his lover’s leg signalling that everything is perfectly in place. 

As Minho's car vanishes of round the corner of the school Kibum inhales massive amounts of air, before awkwardly turning round to walk back to Jonghyun's stylish shinning black car where the elder waits for him. 

"You just listen to what he has to say, and then you go." Kibum tells himself quietly and the flash of straight white teeth and puppy eyes made him stop in his tracks for a second. "And you definitely, definitely don't look in his eyes." The blonde soon adds as he continues to get nearer and nearer to the elder, replaying it like a broken mantra. 

Jonghyun doesn't even know why he had this urge inside of him to just get out and hug the other. To embrace the blonde in his arms yet he suppresses his strong willed urges. He opts for the less awkward yet still very awkward way of greet the blonde by stepping out of his car to greet the feline he missed so, so much. Jonghyun doesn't forget to have sprayed so cologne into his wrist and clothes, (the scent which hopefully the blonde could still recall buying for him) and he straighten out his clothes into place, he needed to look immaculate for the elder. 

Kibum feels his breath hitch in his throat, his whole body feeling 10 degrees hotter. 'Why Jonghyun, for goodness sake why?' The younger hisses under his breath. Jonghyun makes his way out from his car smiling genuinely at the younger. 

The sight of the matte black Giorgio Armani suit is perfectly befitting Jonghyun's broad shoulders, accentuating a muscled back and defined chest. Kibum really couldn't blame himself for falling for the said man in front of him; how could he not? The way the elders brown hair is styled messily and million dollar smile painted across his face, just makes it all the more prominent how the man in front of him is someone admirable in anybody's eyes. Yet Kibum doesn't stop his heart from skipping a beat as his feline eyes fall on to the bags underneath the elder's puppy like ones. He can't help himself but selfishly wish that he is the cause of the dark circle blemishing the other seemingly flawless face, and not the inhuman hours spent working late nights. 

"Hi hyung." Kibum's voice sounds more awkward than friendly, sticking by his set guidelines his eyes focusing on the wall behind the elder. 

Jonghyun the far too naive puppy that he is doesn't notice Kibum's weird behaviour because finally after what feels like months and years of not seeing the younger the feline is now standing mere metres away from him, balling his fist tightly inside his trousers to stop himself from running towards the blonde and lifting him up into the air. 

"Long time no see, Bummie." Just because Jonghyun still wants the younger to see him in his most admirable state, a successful businessman, with an awesome taste in suits and suave personality. That he is a worthy partner, perfect to stand alongside Kibum. He forgets the uneasy feeling rumbling in the depths of his stomach about what his father would say, what the company would say because in his mind all that matters is what Minyoung, says and the younger had already made it clear the night before how she is more than happy to have the blonde and his nephew join their small incomplete yet happy family. 

Kibum feels like all his hard ships for the last how many ever weeks are all in vain as the familiar tingly feeling of awe and admiration fill him with every word that leaves Jonghyun's flushed rosy lips. "Yeah, long time no see…" He says in return because his mind doesn't really work all that well.

Jonghyun places an awkward hand on the back of his neck, it's only an act though so he doesn't look too weird as his eyes wander around the figure in front of him. He is ogling and nope he doesn't care, hopefully in a few hours, the younger is rightfully his for him to watch and be completely taken aback by the blonde’s undeniable beauty. 

"Should we... I mean go somewhere, anywhere, you decide… to take us." Jonghyun wants to slap himself silly, of course it's freezing standing around like a bunch of lunatics in the cold. The elder's cheeks begin to redden in his fluster. "Al-Alright... yeah, uh... Yeah we should get going." Jonghyun says and soon finds himself losing his cool as the younger's small ivory coloured hands latch themselves on to the handle of the car. No, this is not meant to be happening, where was all the cliché and cute bits, Jonghyun minds asks in a frantic wonder. 

"WAIT!!!!!" The brunette screams, surprising the younger away from his car. Jonghyun runs around his car and Kibum finds himself going as stiff as a statue. The elder straightens the collar and the wrinkles in complete composure before opening the door for the younger. "Let me get the door for you." Jonghyun smiles breathing out a silent pant.

The other is left astounded and lost in pure disbelief. Did the most cliché thing really just happen to him? The pounding organ in his chest which threatened to jump out from it told him that indeed yes it really did. The most pigmented red colouring his cheeks in pure emphasis, he shyly makes his way into the opened door, crouching down minding his head entering the luxurious car, black leather covering its interior. "T-Thank you, hyung. You really didn't have to... I mean-"

"No, I wanted too, Kibum-ah." The suited other replies with a lopsided smile and Kibum can't hide and suppress the tingly feeling boiling in the pits of his stomach. He takes the time to pat his cheeks in to its normal colour, as the elder ran back into his rightful place beside him. 

Jonghyun couldn't help himself from letting his grin reach from ear to ear. The way Kibum shyly blushed furiously at his little action of affection could not get any more adorable. It is a sight that will forever engrave themselves in the elder's mind. As Jonghyun finally sits back in his place hands lazily placed on the steering wheel as doe eyes refused to gaze away from the younger. Taking in all of the younger's flaws and imperfections (even though there were very little to see.) Something about the blonde completely gets the elder mesmerised. Jonghyun is just thankful for the unknown reason why Kibum continues to avoid his gaze. In his life time the elder admits how the word beautiful is a word far too overused. Yet when looking at the figure beside him, the word 'Beautiful' illuminate in his mind. The 24 year old believes that Kibum is just another word for beautiful so at the end of the day to Kim Jonghyun, Kibum is Kibum. 

The fair skinned other could feel the setting burning sensation of the elder's piercing gazes as it is fired towards him. It really does feel like seeing the elder for the first time again, although this time round he knows what and how Jonghyun's words and actions affected him. Kibum finds the courage to look up because the feeling of being burnt from the inside out doesn't really appeal to the younger. Yet Kibum doesn't know if his chosen action is a wise choice to make. As the instant their eyes meet it's like the whole world is put in slow motion and Kibum hates the way his heart flutters at the sight of the man before him. 

"So where are we going, Jjong?" Kibum didn't intend for that nickname to come out yet he couldn't help how it all naturally flows out of his lips. He doesn't refuse the small smile that makes its way into his lips as the elders smile turn into the biggest lopsided grin. 

"To be honest I was just so excited to see you that I didn't really get to make a plan. So, I dunno, but I guess we could go into town and walk around, maybe go to a café." Jonghyun says turning the engine on, facing Kibum who only nodded. 

"Surprise me." Kibum doesn't know how he found the voice to say anything but the way it rolls out of his mouth felt completely natural. With that being said, the elder can finally see the silver lining within his dark cloud. Kibum is beginning to act like himself again. Jonghyun just chuckles in return before releases the breaks of the car and with that the two were of in their journey. 

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"Lets go to a cafe to talk comfortably." Jonghyun proposes voice slightly hesitant as he eyes the younger for his reaction. Kibum doesn't look up to meet the elder's eyes, as his focuses strongly on the ring that surrounded his thumb, but nods in agreement. Jonghyun sighs, where was the Kibum who would look at him, even if not straight in the eyes with a cute blush painted on to his cheeks? Jonghyun didn't want to lose this, and so he confidently takes the younger's smaller hands into his own, as he drives to a nearby cafe. 

Kibum's eyes widen, in surprise, that familiar electricity of the elder's touch filling him to the absolute brim. He doesn't pull back as much as he wanted to act so hostile towards the elder, it would be turning him into some kind of hypocrite. So he lets himself be led to a cafe by the elder, sighing in relief as the younger sees only a few by passers walking pass them. 

Soon the two found themselves being warmed up by the cosy little cafe which is surprisingly still open. "Hot chocolate?" Jonghyun says and he can't help but grin as the younger's flushed cheeks and surprise eyes came to view, he pats himself mentally on he back for remembering the small things the younger had told him about. 

Kibum never liked coffee as sophisticated and chic as he might come across the bitterness of the said liquid can't help but irk him. So when one morning the elder asked him about having coffee the younger cutely made a disgusted face before shaking his head no, 'I prefer hot chocolate, they're my favourite actually.' The younger then added in response. That event only happened once and Kibum can't help the feeling of being important over whelm him, as he hears the elder ask him for the said beverage. 

"That would be nice, hyung." At least Kibum is finally talking to him, Jonghyun thinks positively and he nods before leaving the younger to order their drinks.

Jonghyun comes back with two mugs of hot beverages, one coffee, the other sweet chocolate. Kibum doesn't fail to notice the way all the waitresses eyes followed the all suited and masculine other. Kibum doesn't understand why he acts and feels like such a jealous girlfriend, whenever he's around the elder. 

'Screw you, Jonghyun.' Kibum hisses through gritted teeth.

But as the elder’s smiling face meet his scowl on the younger's face, it vanishes in seconds and is soon replaced by a welcoming smile. "Thanks Jjong, it smells and looks amazing." The blonde says taking the mug with the hot beverage from the latter's hand. 

"No problem, Bummie." Jonghyun replies with his ten thousand watt smile and Kibum welcomes once again the butterflies in his stomach. Jonghyun begins to get fond of the nickname which seemed to effortlessly roll of from his tongue. 

"So, Minyoung told me you wanted to speak to me." The younger begins tone too monotone and unphased for the elder's personal liking. Jonghyun heaves a strong tired sigh, so maybe it won't be as easy as he had thought it would be. 

"I'm sorry for whatever I've done. I really, really sorry." Jonghyun says. He eyes oozing with sincerity, making the microscopic hairs on the younger's arms and neck to rise. The elder makes the effort to find the younger's eyes locking them in his strong gaze, and he hopes that the sincerity he wanted the younger to see. 

Jonghyun doesn't let the younger interrupt him because he has a lot to say; precisely, a lot to apologise for. 

"I don't know why, but I feel so guilty and I just really want you to know that for what I did, however big or small... I'm really, really sorry Kibum-ah." The way Jonghyun's words ring in his head has Kibum feeling regretful and the blonde couldn't understand why of all people, he's the one feeling remorseful even though it was him who was victimised. But the blonde had a feeling that the feeling brewing inside of him is caused by the way the elder's eyes glistens with so much honesty and seriousness made the younger's heart pump and beat furiously. 

"I missed you, Kibum." Jonghyun says and he likes the way he uses the past tense in 'miss'. He doesn't intend on missing the younger any more than necessary in the future, and the brunette hopes that the younger missed him too. 

'I miss you too, Jjong." Is what the younger wants to say but instead he bites his lips and clutches tightly on to his cream cardigan. Balling his hands in to two fists because he loathe the way his heart is already more than ready to go running back to the elder. 

Kibum mentally starts shining his head to drive out all the positive thoughts his mind is beginning to concoct just because of a few words of affection slipping out from the elder's lips. Kibum can't help but bitterly question, 'Have you said those words to Sekyung, before Jjong?' or worst, 'How many other women have you said that too?' The blonde doesn't know why he cares so much, why he turned so paranoid when it came to the elder. He's never had to deal with feelings like this in the past and it terrifies him completely to the bone. One thing he is sure about is that the feelings he accumulating towards the elder are feelings so strong, Kibum doesn't even think is humanly possible.  

"Sekyung noona, how is she?" He needs to change the subject quick and fast before all the finally locked feelings he had yearned from the elder slip out from him. Even after all this time, everything he had told himself is proven to be a big fat lie. He isn't okay, he's far from it, he doesn't just care, he cares a lot. Kibum knew it isn't just some stupid crush, he's a man in love. 

Jonghyun hates the feeling of the stinging pain that makes his heart contract. The way the younger had easily swipes his trustful comment into the dark and he loathes it all the more because if his instincts are right then how stupid has he been? The younger must have felt all of this stinging, stabbing pain more so than what he had endured the last couple of weeks. For that the brunette is internally sorry for.

"Kibum, she's fine but please... there is no need to talk about her, it's us we need to talk about." The elder retorts tone serious. Kibum wants to scoff so bad, what has he been trying to do during that dinner the last time he had seen the elder, it was to talk to him about them, about his feelings. 

But soon Kibum feels stupid and childish for thinking that way, he started to avoid the elder to prove to himself how he isn't as weak as he thought he is. "I'm sorry, hyung..." The heart shaped lips say. After three weeks of not seeing the elder he understood where he went wrong, how he over reacted, causing pain for the both of them. He acted like a child who couldn't get what they want, throwing an immature tantrum just so they could get what they were told they could have. 

"I'm sorry too," Kibum finishes looking up finding the elders eyes to look into, trying to convey the same amount of truthfulness and sincerity. Yet what he finds is the cute and puzzled face of the elder. 

"I acted immaturely, I'm 22 for goodness sake, and yet I decided to do this making this thing hard for the both of us." Kibum replies sincerely, and he suppress the smile when the elder begins to shake his head. 

"I forgive you, but Kibum... why? What did I do to make you act this way?" That's the question Kibum had been praying so hard not to be asked. What's he meant to say to the other? He couldn't possible just tell him how it was because of the fact that he was jealous, of how much he liked the elder, now could he? Plus, he just can't believe the words the elder lady had once told him, Jonghyun and Sekyung just looked far too close to be just normal work mates. 

"I don't want to talk about it... shouldn't we get going, I mean Sekyung noona must be waiting for you." Kibum wishes for the gods to let him get away with it this time round, he doesn't want to be here and be reminded of how much of a fool he had been, and how immature he acted towards the elder.

"Kibum, I don't know what Sekyung had done or say to make you feel like this but I don't want you misunderstanding my relationship with her." Kibum flinches a little on his chair. Even with only a slight rise on the elders tone, it still sends strong vibrations all over his body. 

Jonghyun senses, that with the blonde reminding him of the elder woman. One moment after the other then, for sure it had something to do with his secretary for Kibum's strange behaviour. He doesn't want the blonde to misunderstand. If there is anyone the brunette wants anymore in the world, it is Kibum himself. Jonghyun finds himself laughing at some of the stupid scenarios clouding his head. 'What if the younger was jealous of the older secretary... What if the younger's jealousy is due to the thought of him liking someone else?' But Jonghyun ends up mentally laughing at his own stupidity. Sad to say, but Sekyung as wonderful as she is doesn't even compare to the beauty which is Kibum. There is no reason for the younger to ever feel insecure of himself, because in Jonghyun's opinions that's a criminal offence all on its own. That also frightens the elder with that in mind, Jonghyun selfishly hopes that the younger's intimidating demeanour can bring the wrong impression on other men. He doesn't want to be a jealous boyfriend. But in a way he feels proud, because the world should know about Kibum and his beauty along with his cute quirks and uncountable amount of charm. He soon composes himself once again continuing his explanation.

"What I'm trying to get at is that Sekyung and I are just really close friends and nothing is going on between us. Sekyung is a great girl and wonderful lady in fact but an amazing girl is not what I need as remarkable as she is, because all I need is-"

Jonghyun internally shouts and curse as he feels his company phone ring and vibrate in his pants and Kibum's face depletes into one of disappointment. 

"I'm really sorry- I um-" 

"It's fine Jjong... take it." Kibum says eyes reassuring the elder before gazing back to the steaming sweet drink in front of him. 

"Hi, Se what is it, what's wrong?" 

Kibum loses it, it's always Se this and Se that. , he's damn tired of it already. The elder is just giving him false hopes once again. He doesn't care if he's being irrational and stupid and unfair, he's had enough. He only promise the younger girl that he would talk to her father, they've talked and that's it. 

Kibum stands up starling the elder, before collecting his stuff, walking out with a bitter thought in mind. 'I ing get it already Kim Jonghyun. And there was me sitting in comfy chair thinking, yeah maybe this could go somewhere, that we could go somewhere… well obviously not, stupid idiot what kind of food did you eat, that got you so high. Believing, hoping that the guy you're in love with is straight.' He mocks himself and his own.

"Kibum! Wait what are you… why are you running? Kim Kibum!" Jonghyun shouts after the latter, two long light blue washed out coloured denim clad legs running out of the pinkish lit cafe. Jonghyun sighs bowing curtly towards the waitress who seems more infatuated by him than what he was doing. "This is all you fault, Se." He hisses through the phone, as he places the right amount of tip on his table before running after the younger. Cliché love stories are romantic and a lot of hard work, Jonghyun muses in his mind smiling. 

"Shut up, dino just go after your yet to be lover already." the sweet teasing voice say. The core of Kibum's insecurities and jealousy says towards the elder in a chuckle. Jonghyun can't help but smile as his feet and instinct pulls him to wherever Kibum would be. At the specific word the younger lady had used: 'Lover,' it sounded so right and so damn perfect in his ears, and with the he bids a quick and rushing goodbye before ending the call placing it back in the confines of his back pocket. 

Jonghyun stops in his tracks, craning his head and neck trying to detect the bobbing head filled with the most golden of locks, and he finds a smile creeping up into his face as his eyes lock on a block of platinum blonde hair who pipes out through the ocean of ebony black locks. 

'The one time, I'm finally letting myself be happy. I can't easily let you go Kibum-ah.' The brunette says with confidence and strive.

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"Kibum! Kim Kibum, stop running..." Jonghyun shouts at the blonde who's stamina seems to be weakening as he slowly starts to jog away from him. Jonghyun sees the opportunity of the younger trying to catch his breath, running with all his might, clutching his cold hand on the sleeves of the younger's coat, who turned slapping his arms away. 

"What's wrong, Kibum? Why are you running away? You didn't even let me finish-" the elder began to reason out, making his way closer to the younger, heart aching at the way the blonde other took a step back, protecting himself. Jonghyun opens his mouth to talk but the younger beats him to it...

"I'm the most narcissistic, egotistic, self-centred person you'll ever meet. I've never had to stop myself from saying what I wanted, never had to think of what certain people might think of me with what I chose to wear and never... ever in my life had I ever thought of confessing to someone I like." Kibum half whispers half yells at the elder, tears b in feline eyes, currently glazed in pure anger and fury. Raging sweeping more inside him as the elder makes no move to even questions what he was saying, why he was saying it, face motionless. 

"But you came in to my life with your damn short legs and your freaking weird fatherly complex issues and... damn you . You moron, you idiot you, absolute insensitive bastard. I knew exactly what was happening to me and it freaking annoys me that you still don't get it. I can't say things I want to say, because I don't want you to think weird of me. I dress like a , with tight jeans and shirts just to try and get your attention and what do I get, some 30 year old erts gawking over me. I lost everything Jonghyun, can't you see that? I'm losing everything about me because of you, I want to change myself to fit you, because I-" 

Jonghyun smiles and cups the younger's face in his hands, he gets it now. He finally gets it. He looks straight in Kibum's eyes, the eyes widen in bewilderment and confusion, last words failing to leave his lips as the elder's eyes lock with his. The elder closes his slowly, and Kibum finds himself mimicking the elder, closing his own, losing the will to continue and rant to his heart’s content. Jonghyun lets one hand drop from the younger's face before encircling it around the other's slim waist securely, bringing his body closer to the younger's own. 

"What are yo-"

"Don't you think you've talked enough, Bummie-ah?" The elder says eyes glistening and the younger finds himself falling all over again and he opens his mouth to speak... 

"Now it's my turn..." Jonghyun says and Kibum feels his whole body moving even closer to the elder's. He blinks and in that moment he finds the softest pair of lips lock on his own motionless ones. Jonghyun thanks god as the street is deserted, with only a few people walking back home, allowing him to this to the younger. He sighs to himself, thinking, 'So this is what I've been missing.'

It's everything and anything beautiful Kibum concludes. However the kiss is chaste and weak, he finds himself sighing, as the elder retracts himself from the younger, the two pair of glossy eyes once again finding their way to one another. 

"You've already suffered enough because of me and I don't want you to bring yourself down anymore so I guess. I'm saying it first." Jonghyun says caressing the younger's reddening cheeks and he lets his eyes wander to the younger's glossy feline eyes, then to his button like nose and finally down towards the blonde's moistened heart shape lips. Finally finding its way back towards the younger's eyes, he heaves a sigh of self-encouragement. 

"I, Kim Jonghyun am hopelessly, irrevocably, and most definitely in love with you, Kim Kibum. Please be mine." 

Kibum finds himself weak in his knees, shaking, turning into useless limbs of jelly. His heart throbbing with every movement of the elders flushed red lips. 

Is he hearing the elder right or has he finally gone mad? Kibum doesn't know what's happening and all his mind can register is how sincere the elder sounded and how much honesty is conveyed through the doe like eyes of the other. Kibum wants to jump up and down like a lunatic and he wants to speak and shout and say just how much he loves the elder, yet every single muscle in his body is betraying him. 

Jonghyun grows worried, this isn't how he pictured it this is not how it's meant to end. 'He doesn't love me anymore, he-' 

"I love you, too. I love you so freaking much." 

Kibum finally returns the elder's confession, he lets his tears fall. Happy tears that is, and he feels the elder’s other hand retract itself from his cheeks, and down on to his waist joining the other in an embrace. Jonghyun lets his body be filled with the presence of Kibum, he missed this, missed all of the younger and he lets himself be completely filled nuzzling his face inside the crevice between the younger's milky white neck and shoulder. He breathes the sweetness an natural scent of the blonde who shivers in return. 

"Good, because with all the things you said about my short legs and weird father issues, I really thought you were going to reject me." Jonghyun mutters into the younger's neck and he smiles. He feels the fair skinned other wrap his lithe arms around his neck, giving the elder that extra warmth. 

"As you can see, I've tried and I failed." Kibum chuckles, hugging the elder closer. 

Jonghyun leans back and so does Kibum and in the exact moment. A cliché moment happens, ones Kibum could only dream of being part in. A single snow flake cascades down, landing gently on the younger's cheeks and Jonghyun fails to breathe, the way the pure white snow contrasted with the red apples of the others cheeks were too beautiful for the elder rendering him speechless. 

They lock eyes once again and that twinkle in the elder's eyes bewitched Kibum completely. He finds his body acting on their own, one hand crawling behind the others neck entangling itself with the soft tuffs of chocolate brown locks, while the other brings the elder's face towards him, cold hands on top of burning cheeks, the sensation so new and exciting and soon enough the elder is left surprised by the younger's bold actions. 

The softest pair of cloud-like bow lips lock with his and Jonghyun completely loses his mind. He lets his widen eyes close, allowing the younger to be in control something he had selfishly taken away from the blonde. 

The kiss is sweet and meaningful, but Jonghyun craves for more. Allowing himself to finally take charge, placing his hands securely yet still gently on both sides of the blondes hips, Jonghyun proceeds asking for sweet entrance, dragging his tongue lovingly across the red flushed bottom lips of the blonde other. Kibum, in time parted his warm hot lips letting the elder's tongue explore him. 

The kiss soon turns passionate and sultry, yet the lip-lock still as sweet as honey. Tongues roaming new territories, marking it their own and the two fit like two puzzle price created for each other by the gods and they both find themselves smiling into the kiss.  

Kibum showcases dominance Jonghyun never expected from the younger, nipping at the elder’s lower lips ever so seductively, clawing the elder's short locks weaving them around slim ivory fingers, deep voice and mewling the sweetest of sounds. 

Jonghyun couldn't let himself be played by the other, displaying the charismatic manly that he is, tanned fingers slyly making their way under the blondes cream white coat and under t-shirt. Letting his cold hands electrify the younger, resulting for the soft hair which clad the other to rise in pleasure at the searing yet comforting impact of skin on skin. The 24 year old holding on to the fair skinned, implanting his prints onto the soft untainted skin of the other, marking it completely his. He kisses with more passion, loving the way their tongues dancing effortlessly against each other creating the sweetest of friction; internally grinning at how perfectly moulded both kiss-swollen lips are for one another as they dance in complete sync. 

However as the air in the lungs begin to decrease and slowly run out, the elder is the first to pull out, panting heavily ignoring the way the pure white snow continues to fall filling every place except for the place where the new couple have occupied. 

"I never knew you were a er for clichés..." Jonghyun muses smiling at the younger boy's flushed cheeks and swollen red lips. He lifts a hand brushing away a snowflake that accumulated on to the younger's long black lashes. 

"I thought you were more of... a kiss under the rain sort of cliché." The brunette continues chuckling at the way the blonde looks up at him with a pout before proceeding to act 100 times more adorable by hitting the elder's chest. 

Jonghyun could finally breathe. He loves the feeling of inhaling and exhaling, without the thought trying to cover his feelings for the younger. The way the younger's pure ivory skin felt so right underneath the slightly rougher skin of his, making him feel all sorts of wonderful and new sensations. The fruity smell that the younger is won't stop evading his senses making him lose his hold on which is reality and his dreams. He laughs because damn finally reality is better than his dreams. But most of all he's completely 110 percent hopelessly in love with the younger man's everything and Jonghyun tells himself that if a relationship between them is to succeed in the long run then Kibum needs to know why he was so difficult and impossible to begin with. 

Jonghyun heaves a heave sigh, before taking the younger's smaller hands into his own, "Let's go somewhere warm. From there we can talk more about my stupidity, yeah?" Jonghyun says voice in a silent whisper and he smiles when the blonde nods and smile in return, utterly rendering the elder speechless.

Kibum doesn't believe what his eyes are showing him; the elder holding on to his hands tightly refrain the younger from running away. He doesn't believe his ears and what they are hearing. The elder telling him how much he loved him. Yet when Jonghyun would pull Kibum in once again for another chaste kiss, that single fraction of a moment when their lips would perfectly melt into one another and their breathes lingering creating small puffs of fog around them, Kibum doesn't really want to question if the situation they're in is reality or another one of his dreams.

He let his free hand wonder off to his jean clad thighs before pinching on his skin, and when he finds himself wincing at the burning feeling he smiles to himself, he is finally living his dream. 

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I know I know, I love me too, you guys pshhh XD

ahahah well i hope all the angst has been washed out by this fluffly moster ahahaha ;)

+10k worth of freaking words i seriously don't know how i managed and yes people let us applause our wonderful beta for being on time, seriously i love her.

And yes us some of you know,, if you read any oof my A/N that this fic will be going on haitus and yes I know that's a really risky thing to do since you can lose subs and what not but seriously I really need to buckle down and study so the last chapter I would be posting would be on Sunday, and don't worry when I come back hopefully I've written more so that I could update more regularly and you never know you might be getting updates once every two days ;) 

So please guys wait for me and this story, because believe me I've got more in plan for this story and the first of those would be freaking awesome Jongkey ^_< so you better wait for it

People start bombarding me with awesome comments about Jongkey's sweet and unique confession. 

I think I've done enough to Key so I can't really have him confess first so there you go the dino had to it ahahahahah. 

Pleasr wait for more fluffy cute scenes next chapter as well as the proper insight to Jonghyuns background.

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FINALLY!!!!!!!

Agh that was to long XD but I made on time, I was really scared that I wanted going to be able to.

But I think I should get a pet on the shoulder and a happy birthday ^^ <3

thank yo for all the love and surport from this story~~

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