I really hated Jessica. I had avoided her since the surfacing problems, because I just didn’t want to burst with anger when I met her. I had not talked to her since then, even just once. I felt like a bad best friend, but I just couldn’t stop thinking how stupid Jessica is. She had everything a girl would beg to be in her hells, yet she let everything went down because of a boy. I never liked the guy Jessica had been dating for almost four years, he was just too good to be true and that meant something bad would eventually happen. He’s a prince-type-of-guy which is the opposite of what Jessica need, the knight. I used to be jealous because I had a crush on Jessica’s boyfriend, yet it stayed as a-used-to-kind-of-things. They were a perfect couple, that’s why I let him go to the embraces of my best friend. I just had a simple crush, while she had a pure love for him. Furthermore, I wouldn’t destroy my friendship for the sake of a stupid love. He used to make her happy until I could hear the lovely giggle of hers across the room. So, when that evil broke up with her I wanted to beat him to death. However, I just stood still without doing anything. I was afraid that I would hurt her that I wouldn’t meet her because I couldn’t bear to see Jessica’s fragile state. I would just take care of her without her knowing. The sweet lullabies when she got a bad dream, the warm milk in the morning and the blanket when she slept on the couch are my new jobs to make her at least became better. Nevertheless, the members never saw what I did to her or even Jessica herself. So here I was in the van with the locked door next to Jessica as the other members pushed me to resolve ‘the fight’ between us.

We were in the back seat; she looked outside the window while I gazed upon another direction. I didn’t like the awkward atmosphere between us, yet I couldn’t let out my voice to say something to her. It was not like we were in fight or anything like that, before I was just mad at her for being too clingy to her memories toward her ex yet I understood it afterward. They were so in love and inseparable even after so many barriers had tried to cut their relationship, then the next thing he was chasing another girl. He stole her heart but never gave it back after the ending of their story. She was broken down that she covered herself with so much agony. In the end, I was not mad at her or at him. Jessica was being a perfect girlfriend for loving the love of her life by giving a whole heart to him. While, he used to love her with the same amount of love but after all he couldn’t choose to whom his heart had fallen into. I had talked to him once; he told me everything from the side of his story. He just felt for another girl at the wrong timing, while he was still being Jessica’s boyfriend. I couldn’t blame him for all the heartbreak he had caused to my best friend, because love had decided on i