Song For the Chapter: Love Light by CN Blue

Sorry long chap. And yes there are warnings for the rated
scenes. Hope its good :)

Jae In POV

Dongho and I ran into the room where Jaeho was sitting up
crying his lungs out.

“Doctor! We don’t know why he’s doing this. He has been
crying for about 10 minutes without asking for anything.”
the nurse said to Dongho.

“Why didn’t you call me earlier? Are you new at this?” he
yelled at them.

“Sorry sir. But it’s weird, he doesn’t want anything.” the
other said.

“What? Did he say anything?” Dongho asked

“Yes. But only the word, Mommy.” they answered.

Dongho turned to me. I was already half crying. Jaeho had
stopped crying, but still had tears rolling down. I walked
up to him.

“Jaeho yah...” I said. He looked up at me.

“Mommy...” he began to say. Tears began to roll down.

“Jaeho yah... did you get a nice sleep?”

“Yes but I had a really bad dream.”

“A bad dream? What did you dream?”

“Mommy left me.” those words made my heart drop. I was
trying to stop from sobbing.

“Mommy will never leave you, you know that.”

“I know. I know that Mommy will ever leave me but when I
woke up, you weren’t there.. So I was scared.” I didn’t
say anything. I just hugged him and cried. I rubbed his
head.

“You can leave now.” Dongho said to the nurses. They left
as soon as they heard this.

“I’m sorry. Mommy is very sorry. Mommy will never leave
you.” I still hugged him.

“You promise?” he whispered.

“I promise.”

“Mommy. Who is that?” he pulled back and pointed to
Dongho. His eyes grew big. He pointed to himself. Jaeho
nodded.

“I’m the doctor in charge of you.” He said as he came and
sat on the other side.

“In charge of me?” Jaeho questioned.

“Yep. I help you with everything you need.” Dongho replied
with a smile.

“Then can you help me with something?” Jaeho asked.

“Sure. Anything you ask.”

“Can you find my daddy for me?” he asked in a low voice.
My eyes grew big.

“Your dad?”

“Mommy told me that daddy is away that he will be back
when I’m a big boy. Since I’m a big boy now he has to come
but he isn’t so I’m going to find him myself. So can you
help me?” Dongho didn’t say anything. He probably didn’t
know how to reply to the question. He just looked at me.
His eyes were telling me help him.

“Jaeho yah... I told you he will come when he can.” I said
to Jaeho with my motherly smile.

“You say that all the time. He never came.” My smile was
gone when he said this.

“Jaeho yah...”

“Mommy, you are a liar! My friends were right! I don’t
have a daddy.” My heart dropped again. This time it might
have been more shocking.

“You friends told you that you didn’t have dad?” I was
furious.

“Jae In ah... you need to calm down.”

“Who are they to tell our son he doesn’t have a father!” I
said Tears rolling down my cheeks.

“Repeat that.” he said. His eyes were also teary.

“Those kids do not have the right to tell our...” then I
realized what I have said.

“You said our son. You said OUR! Did I hear wrong?” he
yelled.

“Stop yelling. Jaeho is right here.” I said to him.

“You just said our. Do you know what this mean?” tears
rolled down. Jaeho broke out in tears.

“I know what I said. I know what it means. So stop it.
Jaeho is confused.” I sat to see Jaeho up close.

“Mommy!” he said.

“Jaeho yah... listen carefully okay?” he nodded.

“Your father is a really good doctor. He even saved you.”

“I met him?”

“Your father... is right here.” I said as I looked at
Dongho.

“The doctor in charge of me?” Jaeho said wiping his tears.
I just nodded. There was a long pause. Jaeho broke out
into a big smile.

“Appa (Dad)!!!!!” Jaeho said as he gave Dongho a big hug.
Dongho was surprised at first but he smiled and hugged him
back. I couldn’t help but to smile also. It was like a
picture that I wanted to see for so long. I got up.

“I’ll be back. I’m going to the bathroom. You guys talk
okay?” They both nodded.

I didn’t need to go. I just wanted to leave them alone.
Let them catch up on the times they missed. I sat by the
bench by the door. I looked out the window, the sun was
beginning to set. It was about ten minuted that passed
when I heard a voice.

“So told him huh??” I turned and it was Suzy.

“It just slipped. I got pissed about something and it just
slipped.” I said as Suzy took a seat by me.

“Are you regretting it?”

“No. I feel like it’s the way I wanted it to be. Maybe
better.”

“That’s good.” The door opened. Dongho walked out.

“Oh! Hey.” Dongho said to Suzy.

“Hey. I will leave you guys alone.” she got up and left.

“What about Jaeho?” I asked.

“He fell asleep. We should go. It’s getting dark.”

“Go where? I can’t leave Jaeho here.”

“I got permission from Jaeho to take you home. He wants
you to rest also. He’s pretty matured for a four year
old.”

“Duh? He’s my son.”

I got my bag and we left the hospital. I expected him to
live in the same house but it wasn’t/ It was close by the
hospital. We walked in.

“You moved.” I said as I stepped in the house.

“I had to. I didn’t want to have any relationship with my
mother.” He put his stuff down and we sat down on his
sofa.

“How did you manage to get a house?”

“I have ways.”

“What did you and Jaeho talk about?”

“Jaeho told me a secret.”

“A secret?”

“He told me you promised him a dongsaeng (a younger
sibling) when his dad comes back.”

“So?”

“I’m here so... he told me to bring him a dongsaeng.”

“Shut up!” That was the only thing I could say. It was
getting way too awkward.

“What are we going to do?”

“About what?”

“Jaeho. We can’t let him live with his parent seperated.”

“I know.” There was silence.

“Do you still love me?” he asked in a low voice. I didn’t
answer right away.

“I’m pretty sure... that I still do. When I saw you and
Jaeho together I felt so good. I thought how much better
it would be if you could be with us all the time. I know
it’s...” he kissed me.

“You still didn’t get rid of this habit. You need to slow
down.” he kissed me again. I kissed back. He leaned
forward making me flat on my back. I slipped out and sat
on the floor.

“Do you remember when I asked you what you like about me?
The reasons to why you like me.” I asked randomly.

“Yeah I remember. What about it?”

“You told me you liked me because I am me.”

He nodded yes.

“That wasn’t the answer I was looking for. I wanted a
detailed answer. Your answer just made me feel like you
liked me because you had to. Or something like that.” I
looked at him. He got up and picked me up. He walked over
to his bed. Put me laying there. He sat by my legs. I saw
him examining what I was wearing. I wore a light yellow
button down dress. He leaned over.

“You want to know what I like about you? The reasons to
why I like you.” I nodded. He kissed my forehead.

WARNING RATED STARTS HERE

“I love your forehead. I love your big round eyes. I lover
your little button nose. I love you rosy cheeks. I love
you thin lips.” He went on as he kissed the parts he
mentioned.

“Okay. I get it so stop.” I still didn’t like the answer
but it was a great effort.

“I know you don’t like the reasons but I like you, no, I
love you for the way you are. because you are you. No one
in the world can replace you. That’s why if I don’t have
you it’s like not breathing.” those words made my heart
flutter. Those weren’t the words I wanted to hear but it
was sure better than I what I wanted.

“I love you, too.” I whispered to him as I pulled him
closer.

I kissed him. We kissed until his lips made his way down
to my neck. He started to my dress. One button he
, the spot he kissed. This made my body feel warm.
When he was done ing, I took off my dress and he
ed his shirt also. His hands traveled my body. His
fingers touching every part of my exposed skin. My hands
made its way down to his pants. I took his belt off and he
pulled his pants off. When he did, I pushed him down and
sat on top of him. I leaned forward giving him a kiss. As
we kissed, he took and inserted it into me. I
moaned in response. He moved me to help me get
comfortable . He laid me flat on my back with my leg
wrapped around him. He moved in and out of me, making me
shiver in delight. I giggled.

“What’s so funny?” he asked.

“I don’t know. I just feel... good.” He kissed me as he
made his speed higher. I grabbed his hands as I felt my
body reaching its .

“Faster... Please...” I whispered under my breather. And
he did.

A couple of seconds later, I reached my and he had
shared his seeds with me. He fell next to me. I laid next
to him, hugging him as tight as I can. After we had
positioned ourselves into a comfortable spot, we both
drifted to sleep.

So??? How was it? It was pretty bad right? The rated scene
might be awkward because I wasn't sure what was the
correct words to use in situations like this since I never
been in one for seen anything like it. I will try better
for my next fanfic :)