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Lol , yup. His dad is gay . I just want to make it more intresting and i had something in mind ....... so yea. And thanks for commenting ! I will update as much as i can ! 

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Junsu's POV

I sigh to myself . God, i'm so bored ~need some entertainment .. 

No whe-WAIT ! Jae hyung's mansion ! I smiles happily, getting up and walking towards my white lightning gt electric car . Gah ~ I love my car , ing y . 

I speed off to jaejoong's house, smiling . I seriously love jaejoong . Not in the love-love way, but the brotherly love way. He had always been there for me. He may appear cold .. well, he IS cold , but deep deep down inside, he's sweet. He only acts like himself when infront of me . I should say, i'm very happy about that. I'm happy he could trust me and depend on me . Hehe ~ Ain't i special 

Author : Yes , you are special .. very special *Evil laughs* 

Author..... Your mean ! Why can't you ever be nice ? your just like jaejoong hyung . 

BUT ! I WON'T LET YOU GET TO ME ! HEHEHEHEHE 

I park the car , got out of the car and unlock the door. And yes , jae hyung give me a key ! Hehe , hyung is so nice ! 

Ugh . I hate the quiteness whenever i enter jae hyung's mansion ... i hate it . How can he live with this quiteness ?

I walk up to his room , huh . The door"s open . I walk into his HUGGGEE room and saw him sleeping peacefully . Gosh, he even looks beautiful while sleeping . Hehe ............ he's snoring ... oh god .. this is epic.

I took out my phone and recorded him snoring . Not loudly but softly ... heheehehe..

"Hyung ... hyunggiee ~ wake up." I shoke him softly . He moved to the other end of the bed, groaning .

"Hyunggiee ~ If you don't wake up, i'll go down there and use your lovely kitche-" Before i could finish what i was going to say, he bolt up from the bedglaring at me.

* shivers * Scary glare he has.

"Don. You. Dare." He hissed. I nodded, backing away . 

"Get up, remember .... today is 'that' day." I spoke softly , not looking up. He just sigh before getting off his bed.

"Yea, i'll get ready. " 

jaejoong-ah .... i'm sorry you have to go thru all this pain. But i'm happy your brave, brave enough not to break down even when you want to. 

Hyung, i owe you so much. I owe you for being by my side, making me happy, but mostly .... i really owe you for always protecting me ..

Thank you, jaejoong-ah. 

No one's POV

Jaejoong walked downstairs, wearing a pair of dark loyal skinny jeans, a black and white striped v-neck. 

Junsu was sitting on the couch, his eyes on the TV. He wore a pair of white skinny and a long black sleeve polo . He smiles widely before jumping on jaejoong, hugging him tightly. Jaejoong couldn't do but smiles at his cuteness.

"Yah junsu-ah, let go ... your killing me." Junsu smiles widely as he let go of the beauty. 

"Lets go, i have to get home eary to finish the report." 

The two walked out to their car and sped off to god who knows where.

Junsu parked his car infront of the cementery. How long has it been since they had been here ?

" ...... it's been years ... years since i've visted you , right ? ... How are you ? are you doing fine ? are you happy ? Me ? i-i'm not going to lie .....

i'm ....broke ...i can't sleep a night without crying to myself ... i cried till tears won't fall anymore ... i .. i miss you so much ... i hate that i can't talk ...laugh and cry with you anymore ... i miss everything about you...your smile ... your voice.. your touch .. your comfort....your eveything... ... why did you have to go .... why wouldn't it be me ...? I hate  Do you remember the first time we got in trouble ? We were so stupid to think we could fly..... Climbing the trees and jumping down ...... dad was so mad .... and that basterd...hankyung ....i ... i hate him... i hate him for what he did ... what he did to you...to me....to dad.....i-i can't forgive him .... and do you remember junsu ? the duck .. our cousin and bestfriend ? He's here........ it's been 7 years since your gone ....no matter how much i wanted you back ... i know you won't be back ... I hope your happy and safe up there ... I-i love you, dongsaeng." 

Jaejoong sobbed as he stoped talking . Losing a person you love the most, is like being stabbed in the knife, in your heart. 

Junsu watched as his cousin cried in his arm. He too was broken .. ever since that event had happened, he had changed too. He acted like he was happy outside, but inside. Just like jaejoong, he was dying . He hated that jaejoong had to suffer ....he hated that he too, had to suffer. 

"Come on hyung ...... lets go back .." Jaejoong nodded at junsu's word before the 2 men walk towards their car a drove off.

Little did they know that someone was watching them, hurting as bad as they were.

"Junsu-ah ... i ... i really miss him ...... i can't help but feel guilty ! It was my fault ! i ....i .... he died because of me ..." Jaejoong sobbed harder . Junsu just hugged the older man, giving him comfort.  They were in the living room, sitting on the couch .

"It's not your fault hyung ...... it's not your fault .... you have nothing to feel guilty about .." Jaejoong rub jaejoong's back slowly, making the older man calm down .

"But junsu ... i can't help it .....if .. if it wasn't my fault ...he .. he would've been here ...here with me .. with you ..." 

Junsu hugged the older man tighter.

"Hyung ... i told you , it's not your fault . Now shut up and go to sleep. I'll finish your report." Junsu said as he layed the man on the couch . Jaejoong smiles at junsu greatfully .

"Junsu-ah ..... your the only friend and family member i could trust and lean on ......... thank you." With that , the beauty fell asleep with a faint smile on his face.

Junsu smiles as he kiss his hyungs' forehead. 

No matter how cold hearted jaejoong was- to others, he had a soft spot for junsu.

"I'll always be here, hyung." He smiles before writing down the report.

"Awww hell nawh ! This is bunch of boring ! How can hyung do all these stuff !?" He pulled his hair in frustration, staring at the report that he told jaejoong he would finished for him.

"You promised Kim Junsu . SO NOW YOU MUST FINISH IT!" Junsu made some weird hands movement before starting on the report, cursing everytime he wort some stuff down.

Kim Junsu ..... You better get it finish or Kim Jaejoong would eat you alive if you didn't.

"Bring the money , or the kid dies."

Jaejoong bolted up from the bed, sweats visible on his face and neck . He sigh loudly, closing his eyes tightly .

The nightmare .... he kept having it... everynight , the same nightmare. It's like a cycle. Everynight the same nightmare... every year the same nightmare. It never stoped. Everytime he falls asleep,he would dream about that terrible event that happened. It felt so real . The memories seemed like it just had happened.

He got off the bed and look around, he was in his room.

"Junsu must've carried me here." He mumble , walking out of his room . The stairs squeaked at every step he took . He look outside which was filled with darkness.

 He walk towards the fridge and picked up a water bottle and gluped it down in a hurray . He smiles as the cold water made in contact with his sahara-like throat. 

 He stared at the glowing clock on the wall ."Ugh ... 3:50 ? this ..."  He walks towards the living room and lay on the couch, staring at the ceiling .

Thoughts rushed into his head. Thnking about had happened.

Life's not fair. People die. People get heartbroken. People lie. People cheat. Life's full of bull . But that's how it is. That's life . 

Minutes later, he fell asleep.

It hurts so much. To lose the person you cared and loved the most, to lose the person who had always been there for you, to cry with you, to laugh with you, to do stupid things with you, but mostly, the person who had cared and loved you. They say that wounds and scars heals over time, but that's just lies. They never heal . They say that you learn to live without the person as time goes by, but no. That person would always remain in you. They say that you learn to live with it and the pain goes away, lies. The pain never goes away. It stays .. We wish we could hear them, touch them, see them.. .Oh how we wish we could turn back the time and make them stay ... but this is reality.  No matter how much you wished for them to come back, they won't . Cause they're gone . Gone from this world. No matter how many times you cry for them, they won't be back. No matter how much you dreamed about them, they won't be back , no matter how much you begged and begged, they still won't be back . 

Because they're gone, forever.

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Hey . haha , if you guys don't get what this chapter is about , let me summerized it for you.

So jaejoong and junsu are at the cemetery, crying over 'someone' . It seems like that 'person' is really important to them . So after that, they left. Junsu and jaejoong had a little talk ... i give out some clues.. jaejoong feeling guilty and blaming himself for somereason . So in the middle of the night, he woked up because of the nightmare that had been haunting him for years .... well , that's it.

 I'm going to give out clues. The person is very precion to jaejoong and junsu and ... well , since they are in the cemetery, it means he's dead ....... or .. is he ?