JIYONG’S POV

                I am now on the last scene of my new MV shooting for my comeback single. It’s tiring but at the same time fulfilling. I’ve been keeping myself busy for few months already. After our successful comeback and series of tours with ALIVE, I’ll be back with my solo activities for the promotion of my new album. Our latest album is undeniably a huge success after all the scandals happened to Bigbang. The cheering of the crowd, the screams, and unstoppable applause were still there despite of my group’s absence of one year. But after all these recognition, after the stage was done, I long to see the face I cherish for already half a decade.

It has also been months since the last time I personally saw and talked to her. I miss her terribly. I can only see her in broadcast and live streaming of their concert. The last time I saw her in flesh was the Day 2 of their Seoul concert… And that was it.

Yeah, I am referring to her, my butterfly, my apple love, my tokki, my Dara. We are not in any romantic relationship with each other but in my mind and in my heart, I always regard her as my and mine.

                She is in New York now together with the rest of 2NE1 girls for their New Evolution Concert. I am happy for them because slowly, they are gaining worldwide attention by some famous celebrities in the US. They deserve all the love they are getting because they are really hard-working. I am very proud of them. But I am prouder of my Dara Park.

                I have witnessed how she grow to a person she is right now and continue to grow up to now. I have seen her during our training days, been her friend, her big brother, her defender, and everything she needs me of. Actually, she is my secret love. I know it’s no longer a secret to others anymore especially to my Bigbang brothers and with other YG staff as well.

                Its been months since I planned ways on how to reveal her my true feelings.  I should have revealed my intentions with her long time ago even before her ban on dating was lifted but, the timing is not on my side. She is now free to date and have friends with other male idols meaning, this is her chance to explore outside YG. She is always busy, busier than before. She made series of Cfs with the SHINee boys. And roles for drama conceptualized for her are flooding YG office requesting YG’s permission for Dara to be the lead actress on the said dramas. My chance on her is becoming thin as time passes by….