Can't Let You Go //One-Shot (3,002) // KyuMin (Kyuhyun & Sungmin), KyuWook // FLUFF, drama, ANGST, FLUFF :p // PG



BETA by mlss_he thanks girl!!!!

 

“Of course Sungmin’s my favorite hyung,” Kyuhyun beamed as he slung an arm across said person’s shoulder.
“And Kyuhyun-ah is my favorite dongsaeng,” Sungmin said in return as he put his arm around the younger’s back, reciprocating the other’s action.
“Aww… how adorable! It’s no wonder why you’re pairing has so many fans! What was it called again? KyuMin? You guys are so cute!” The interviewer said enthusiastically, acting like a fan girl in front of them, adoring the cute pair.
Sungmin blushed at the statement as he laughed with Kyuhyun, their eyes meeting for only a mere second, but slow enough to be captured by the fast lenses.
The interview lasted for another hour as they showed them their stuff and accompanied the crew throughout the entire dorm.
“That was fun! Thank you so much for accommodating us,” the crew bowed as ten beaming pair of smiles sent them out the door.
The minute the crew was nowhere in sight, sighs could be heard around the dorm.
“Aish! Glad that was over!” the magnae muttered, his once cheerful smiles now replaced with frowns.
The leader clapped his hands, getting the others’ attention. “Okay! Back to normal routines, we still have early schedules tomorrow.” He then left, proceeding to the 12th floor dorm.
Sungmin watched the others follow through immediately as he walked towards the “KyuMin room” with boxes in his hands. Once inside, he carefully took all of his things from the table and put them into the boxes.
“Sungmin-hyung, let me help you.” Sungmin looked up to see Eunhyuk coming towards him.
“I’m fine, Hyuk-ah.” The elder replied s he swept the building sweat on his forehead.
“Yah right! I’ll go put this in our room and I’ll come back to help you with the others.”
“Thank you Hyuk,” Sungmin let out a small smile as he proceeded to put his stuff into the box. Eunhyuk just smiled back, seeing the sadness within his hyung. He was about to leave, until a giggling couple went inside the room.
The couple was giggling and saying sweet nothings and stopped upon seeing the two. Ryeowook then quickly escaped from Kyuhyun’s embrace, moving towards Sungmin.
“Hyung, do you need any help?” the eternal magnae asked.
Sungmin was about to decline when Kyuhyun started complaining.
“I seriously don’t know what’s wrong with SM’s minds! This is crazy! Why can’t they just reveal the truth? Fanservice my ! Now we even have to go through this much trouble!” Kyuhyun said, the irritation clearly shown on his face.
“I’m sorry; it’s my fault for putting too much st—”
“Instead of blabbering apologies, can’t you just hurry and finish up immediately so we can get our rest? We’re tired for goodness sake!”
Sungmin hurriedly went back to his task as Eunhyuk continued walking, while Ryeowook picked up an empty box from the floor. He was about to put Sungmin’s remaining belongings in it, until Kyuhyun pulled the box away from him.
“What are you doing?! Just leave that to him. Look how pale you are, you seriously need to rest,” Kyuhyun cupped his lover’s face, caressing his forehead, acting as if it even had sweat on it.
Sungmin felt his heart slowly being crushed as he saw Kyuhyun’s affectionate action towards the other. It hurt even more when he remembered how he used to be the one at the receiving end. He mustered up his best smile as he turned towards the couple, “I’ll just get new sheets and put it here so you can start resting now, Wook.”
“Well, it’s not like we use two beds anyways, so you don’t have to worry about that,” Kyuhyun smirked, looking naughtily at his now blushing lover.
Sungmin’s curved lips fell down in an instant as he felt a sharp blade slice through his already tattered heart. His mind was torturing him even more as images flashed through his imagination, killing him slowly. His heart felt so heavy with restrained tears, that he couldn’t even force a smile anymore. He was thankful when he heard the couple’s steps retreat away from the room, because he felt his weak body giving up and letting his legs fall to the ground. He tightened his grips on the sheets, trying to fight the clenching pain in his chest.
“Sungmin!” Eunhyuk came rushing over to his hyung as he brought the fragile body into his arms.
“Ssh..You can do it. Be strong.” Sungmin started to sob as he felt Eunhyuk’s warm hands on his back, making him release all of the bottled up pain.
“It hurts. It still hurts,” Sungmin muttered, seeking comfort from Eunhyuk.
“Go back to our room and rest. Just leave this to me,” Eunhyuk ordered as he helped Sungmin stand up.
“But—”
“No buts! Do you want Kyuhyun to see you like this?”
Sungmin just bowed his head silently as fresh tears escaped his eyes.
“Just go,it’s fine.”
Sungmin hesitated at first, but proceeded to do as Eunhyuk said after he hugged the guy and told a muffled thank you.
♥
Sungmin wanted to cry all night, the way he always did ever since his break up with Kyuhyun. But, he didn’t want to bother Eunhyuk anymore. The other had already been too nice to him, listening to all his problems, staying up all night to be a shoulder to cry on, and even lending him and his wide array of pink things a space in his room. He couldn’t have been more thankful to have a friend like him. So he just tried to reach Mr. Snuggles instead, hoping to find comfort with his favorite bunny, the bunny Kyuhyun gave him for their anniversary.
He was worried when he couldn’t find it anywhere in his box of belongings, and then he realized that he might have left it in Kyuhyun’s room. He was hesitant at first to get it, but the bunny was very important to him, so he mustered up all his courage and went towards the magnae’s room, hoping he was still awake.
He made a few soft knocks, afraid to wake the magnae, if he was already sleeping. No one was answering so he tried turning the doorknob and was surprised that it wasn’t locked. He quietly opened the door, planning to just grab his bunny and leave.
He let his eyes travel around the room, hoping to see his bunny and was delighted when he caught sight of the stuffed bunny. He hurriedly came near the bunny, but was stopped upon seeing Kyuhyun’s calm sleeping face. He felt his heart beating non-stop as his gaze locked onto Kyuhyun.
Unconsciously, he went closer to the figure, as if a strong force was drawing him closer, calling his heart to come nearer. He kneeled beside the bed, giving him a better view of the magnae’s beautiful face that until now, never failed to leave him breathless and go weak in his knees. He hated it, but no matter how much Kyuhyun hurt and broke his heart into million pieces, only Kyuhyun was what his heart longed for. He was still the one who would forever have a hold on his heart.
He slowly brought his hands to Kyuhyun’s face, making sure to leave at least an inch between them as he traced it; tears spilling down his face, knowing he could never break that space again, no matter how much he longed for it. He felt his heart being tore apart as he tried with all his might to restrain it from its pleas. From its desire to just caress and bring Kyuhyun into his arms as he feels its warmth and comfort, only Kyuhyun could fulfill. It’s deep longing to just capture those soft pink lips, giving him the perpetual bliss and endless pleasure he has been deprived for so long.
“Sungmin?” Sungmin was startled as he saw Ryeowook standing beside the door, immediately trying to think of an incoherent excuse, but who was he kidding? He knew Ryeowook wasn’t an idiot.
“I’m sorry,” Sungmin murmured as he hurriedly left the room.
♥
Sungmin woke up the next day, hoping he could avoid Ryeowook all day. It was kind of hard since they lived in the same dorm and it was impossible to miss the short stares the other gave him from time to time. He just tried to brush it off and continue eating. He was about to get the last piece of chicken when he saw Ryeowook aiming for it at the same time, both staring deeply in each other’s eyes.
Before any of the two could speak out, Kyuhyun had already picked the chicken and put it into Ryeowook’s plate. “You should have this. You’re too thin and you need to eat more. Sungmin-hyung is getting fat anyway.”
Everyone was silenced as they felt the tension building up. The other looked pitifully at Sungmin, who was trying his best not to cry. He knew that Kyuhyun was just kidding, but still, those action and words coming from him, hurt way much more compared to a million of insults combined.
“Kyuhyun-ah! Apologize to Sungmin-hyung right now!” Everyone’s attention shifted over to the owner of the voice.
“What?!” Kyuhyun arched his eyebrows at his lover.
“I said, go apologize to Sungmin-hyung! He’s older than you, so have some respect!”
Everybody flinched, not used to seeing the cute eternal magnae like this.
“Why would I?! It’s just a piece of chicken for goodness sake!”
“You still don’t get it, do you?! You are the most impossible, immature, brat I’ve ever known my whole life!” Ryeowook then bolted up from his seat, walking out of the room with an equally enraged Kyuhyun following behind.
Everybody let out a puff of breath they’ve been holding in for the last few minutes.
“Are you okay?” Sungmin shifted his face to see Eunhyuk looking at him worriedly and the others wore the same look.
“I’m fine guys,” he faked a smile, not wanting to worry the others.
“Everyone! Stop bothering Sungmin!” Leeteuk commanded as he gave a soft smile to his pink-loving dongsaeng, making Sungmin smile back, murmuring a soft thank you.
Everybody finished eating and was already cleaning up when Kyuhyun came bolting into the room, screaming Sungmin’s name.
Sungmin felt his body shake as he heard Kyuhyun yelling at him. It scared and broke him, making him tremble.
“Yah! Do you know what just happened?! Ryeowook broke up with me and it’s all because of you! This is your fault!” Sungmin flinched, his heart breaking with Kyuhyun’s words.
“Why can’t you just let go?! Why can’t you just move on?!”
It was too much; Sungmin already had enough, and he felt like drowning. He felt like he suffocating from too much pain, and he couldn’t fight it anymore. He let his tears fall, streaming like rivers as he bawl with all the pain he felt inside.
“Then why don’t you just tell me how?! How Kyuhyun? How can you just move on so easily?! How can you just let go like that? Am I really not that important to you? Haven’t you even… haven’t you ever loved me?” Sungmin let out in between sobs, murmuring the last words in an almost whisper as harsh realization sinks into him.
Kyuhyun didn’t reply and just ran away, locking himself into his room. He couldn’t bare seeing Sungmin like that. He might not have admitted it, but what broke his heart the most was the sight of Sungmin in tears. Something about seeing Sungmin in that state killed him, and just like the other time, he chose to escape.
“Are you really going to do the same mistake you did last time?” Kyuhyun was startled to see Ryeowook inside the room as he immediately wiped the tears he didn’t realize were there.
“I know you still love him. This wouldn’t have happened if you just talked to him when you had a fight, instead of acting like a child.”
“I, I don’t love him anymore,” Kyuhyun stubbornly muttered, and hesitation could be heard in his voice.
Ryeowook just rolled his eyes at the stubborn magnae. “So that explains why I saw you hugging Sungmin’s bunny last night.”
Kyuhyun opened his mouth, trying to say something but then closed it, having nothing to answer with.
“Why can’t you just make this easier for all of us, and just admit it already? It’s too obvious anyways. Look, I just broke up with you, but it’s clear that it’s Sungmin who’s lingering in your mind; not me. It only shows who’s more important to you.”
Kyuhyun was left speechless again as Ryeowook beamed with joy for outsmarting the genius Cho Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun just sighed, admitting his defeat. “I don’t know hyung. I’ve already hurt him too much. Aish! I’m such an idiot!” Kyuhyun ruffled his hair in frustration, trying to fight the tears that were streaming down his beautiful face.
“I love him… I love him so much that it hurts to not having him in my arms. So instead, I blinded myself with anger, hoping to shield my pain. But ending up hurting him. I didn’t even do anything to stop it. I’m too weak; I don’t deserve Sungmin. I.. I love him, God I love him so much;.. I don’t want to hurt him anymore.” Kyuhyun buried his face in his palms, trying to stop all the tears as he realize how much he’ still in love with Sungmin. How it’s still only Sungmin that had been in his heart all along.
“And did you think that by doing this, you wouldn’t do so?” Kyuhyun just looked at him, not knowing what to say.
“You’re a genius, Kyu! I know that you know what will make Sungmin happy,” Ryeowook then gave him a smile before heading out through the door.
Kyuhyun just laid down on the floor, unsure of his next move. His mind and his heart were telling him to go to Sungmin, but he was scared. Million of thoughts were swirling in his mind, driving him crazy.
After a minute of resisting, he finally gave up and let his body and heart lead him. He didn’t care anymore; he loved Sungmin, and that’s all that mattered now.
He felt his heart beating nonstop when he saw Sungmin in the living room; the other members surrounding him.
It broke his heart to see Sungmin cry, knowing that he was the cause; especially knowing that he’s the cause. He let out a deep breath as he swore to himself that he would never let a tear fall from that beautiful face ever again as he slowly went nearer to the angel that always had the hold of his entire being, not minding the piercing stares of the others. His sole attention was only on the one figure that really mattered to him.
He felt his heart being sliced into pieces as his eyes met with Sungmin’s deep orbs; the once cheerful glow was gone, replaced with sorrow and tears. He slowly wiped away the tears, silently promising to do everything to bring back that glow again, to bring back the happiness Sungmin deserved.
Sungmin was confused with the magnae’s sudden affection, but softly lavished the warmth and the heart pleasuring feeling the simple action gave.
He was about to ask a question when he felt Kyuhyun’s lips crash into his, suddenly bringing his entirely dead body back to life. His heart that was enraptured with darkness was slowly getting back its colors; rainbows and butterflies were going back to its own home; all because of the familiar pleasure that gave him the will to live.
They broke apart, leaving both of them breathless. “Kyu—”
“Ssh…,” Kyuhyun brought his finger to those delicious lips, not letting him speak.
“I haven’t answered your question yet.” Sungmin just gave him a questioning look, making Kyuhyun chuckle as he realized how much he missed his cute bunny.
“Well actually, I don’t know the answer… who told you that I moved on?” Kyuhyun chuckled, “I haven’t! And you can’t know the answer either because I can’t let you let go, because I’ll never let you go.” Sungmin smiled upon hearing those words, a sincere smile he hasn’t worn for the past few months as he hugged Kyuhyun, wanting to be assured that this wasn’t just a beautiful dream.
“I love you.”
“What?” Sungmin asked, still in daze.
“I love you Lee Sungmin. I still love you.” Kyuhyun muttered straight in Sungmin’s eyes, stating each word with sincerity.
“I love you too. I love you so much!” Sungmin started crying because he felt too much happiness, making Kyuhyun worry.
“Ssh… don’t cry. I don’t ever want to see you cry again. I swear I will never make you cry again.” Sungmin shook his head as he caressed other’s face, happy that he could freely hold Kyuhyun again. No space and distance, giving him the feeling of oneness with the other.
“That’s impossible though, because you give me so much joy, that it brings me tears of happiness.”
“Well, I promise that from now on, I’ll only give you happiness. I’ll never hurt you again. I was a fool, I’m sor—”
Kyuhyun didn’t have the chance to finish as Sungmin captured his lips. Making him enjoy that familiar strawberry taste, God knows how much he missed it so much!
“That doesn’t matter anymore. I love you Kyu, and now that I know that you still love me, that’s all that matters.”
Kyuhyun just smiled as he brought Sungmin’s lips into his again, loving that hint of glow he saw in Sungmin’s eyes again.
They just continued lavishing the happiness and pleasure they both have been deprived of for so long, not minding the soft awws in the background; both of them letting themselves get lost in a world with only the two of them, and the overflowing love they only had for each other.
 

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