Dream // 1,080 words // angst, drama// PG-13 // Summary: Because all he can do is dream... 

P.S: This is somehow WonKyu/Siwon centric, but it also have KyuMin that's why i thought ill post it here.. so... its up to you if you want to read it ^^.. enjoy my crappy nothingness? hehe

The night was cold; the smooth breeze of the air kissing his bare chest with cold kisses, but all he could feel is that warmth suddenly weighing on his cold fragile body. 

He feel the heat of the other’s bare body like a fire only an inch space away from him, flames almost his chest driving him an intense heated sensation. He shivered as the flame started touching him, heated static travelling through the other’s skin to his. He his bottom lip as his mouth dries up with the strange wonderful feeling eating all of his breath away; making him thirsty for more as he feels the other’s warm candle-like fingers brushing every part of his skin, teasing him in a sensual dance.

He gasp as he feel those wonderful fingers being replaced with the other’s lips, making him lose all his sanity as it kisses every part of his skin, each kiss driving him insane. And if he thought he was already on the peak of his pleasure, he thought wrong as he cried a loud moan of pleasure when the kisses was then replaced by the other’s equally wonderful tongue, drawing circles on his hot erect nubs, his body trashing upward not even caring to hide his want for more as each part of his body itches for the want to be touch and be lavished by the man on top of him. The other seems to get what he wants as he travels his hot tongue downwards making him cry as his heart fills with too much pleasure.

“Siwon” He heard the other murmur, his hot velvety voice making his inside quiver, the other’s hot breathe tickling his sensitive lobe making his mind hazy with dark illusions and lust.

“Siwon.. open your eyes” He bit his lips, trying to suppress a moan as he feel the other’s alluring touches, inviting him, tempting him to give in to his calls, he shut his eyes tighter, even how weak he knows his defenses are when it comes to this man above him, he knows he can’t give in now because he’s sure that once he wakes up……... it’ll all fade away

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“Siwon.. open your eyes.” The called man slowly obeys the caller, slowly adjusting his eyes to the sudden brightness. He blinks his eyes, wondering if this is still a dream as he sees the main star of his reverie just inches away from him. Too close that he could clearly see those holes imperfectly etched on the other’s exquisitely beautiful face. But it didn’t lessen his admiration for the young beauty thus it only wants to draw him nearer to kiss every bit of those imperfections. Each of it just adds to the million reasons why he’s drawn to this man.

“Siwon hyung are you okay? You’re sweating.” He unconsciously closes his eyes as he felt the other’s hand caress the side of his face, seeping all of his breath away. He almost leaned on the soft inviting touch when he heard another voice. 

“Kyu baby what’s wrong?” He gulped, willing to block that unwelcomed voice away as he tries to control all the new emotions suddenly rushing inside him. That voice that no matter how sweet, he had always dreaded so much. He quickly muttered a small apology for feeling such emotion. But as the warmth on his face fades as the voice appears, it just gave him all the more reasons to harbor hate to the other man. 

“Hey baby.” He hears the voice he loves, but this time much different, more precious - laced with intimacy and love. He shut his eyes tighter willing himself not to cry knowing that voice would never be directed to him. 

“I don’t know I just saw him sweating and trashing, so I woke him up. Do you think he’s fine?”

“Siwon?” He heard them call his name, this time with a gentle tap. He sighed before slowly opening his eyes and facing pain, knowing he can’t close his eyes forever.

He already knew what would await him with his action but he guessed there’s just really aint enough preparation as the pain flood in his heart like a water in rush as he sees the man he loves, arms tightly clinging to the other man, their body tightly tied to each other as if mocking him to who Kyuhyun belongs to.

“Are you okay hyung?” He hears Kyuhyun asks and he just replied by looking at him blankly, keeping his mouth shut because really, what should he say? That he’s not? That his heart hurts like hell because of him? He didn’t think so, so he just nodded his head a yes, forever keeping his mouth shut with his feelings forever tightly clasped, forever buried in the depths of his heart knowing it would never be accepted by the one it wants to be with.

“Look, we’ll just call Leeteuk hyung. You should rest okay?”He chuckled in his thoughts, thinking if Leeteuk hyung could even do anything with his problem. Could anyone do? Because seriously, he had heard all the love advices he could ever heard, each just told in different phrases, different ways, but what good could it do when even after a million of advices and preaching, his heart still screams of want for Kyuhyun, words could never make him erase this feeling! No one could give him the right remedy for this pain! And he’s tired! He’s exhausted! He wanted to erase all of these because it freaking hurts! It freaking hurts like hell! 
He didn’t reply to the couple, afraid that his voice would betray him so he just laid there helpless and broken as he sees Sungmin tightly tugging Kyuhyun away from him. 

He saw Sungmin looked back at him with an emotion he couldn’t decipher and in his mind he thinks that he’s the villain, taking his love away. But as Kyuhyun also stops and looks at Sungmin questioningly, and smiled as the older looks back at him. He know that he isn’t, because they’re the main parts of this story and he’d just forever be the third party just asking and hoping to be the one on Kyuhyun’s side, just like how it had always been on those written stories, always the one being left behind, alone and broken. He just smiled at the harsh reality and closed his eyes, because really, all he can do is dream.