“It’s not that long to meet with you again eoh?” Joon said in satisfaction as he served the drink for them.  “Do you know how frustrated I am because of your sudden presence?” Hyosung blabbered, sipping the juice slowly. “And do you know how mad Jay will be after finding you here?” Joon said back and he won on the debate. Hyosung stayed silent for a quite long time.

“Well.. It’s still your fault at all..” Hyosung mumbled. “Oh.. c’mon! I’m here just to get you back. And look who is fighting because of my presence. Doesn’t it prove to you that your love with him is weak enough to push me out? I’m still in your heart, Hyosung-ah. Just admit it.” Joon said sharply. Hyosung only could sigh. Her mind went to everywhere, to every moment she had when she was still with Joon. She unknowingly had touched her chest, feeling the ache on it.  “Hurt.. It’s very hurt , Joon-ah.. My heart hurt so much when you left me alone every night.. Without any reason..” Hyosung suddenly spoke up. Joon watched her from the edge of his eyes.

“You always left me, saying that you’re working. I always nodded, agreeing on you because I know how hard our life as Idols. I understood. But then, I caught you red handed with a girl. Kissing passionately without any cameras on there. I asked you bout that, but you kept avoiding me. Not even once you said sorry to me. You had never been able to be honest on me, right, Joon-ah? Even when it was our 5^th anniversary night. The night when I decided to just let you go. You would never come back to me, anyway.. But look what are you doing here.. You’re trying to ruin my life, again.. Again after almost more than 10 years, Joon-ah.. Why? Because what you had done in the past not enough for you? Do you want to see me get more pressure than now?” She now completely cried. Remembering every single lies Joon had told her in the past.

Joon shut his mouth. He played with the glass in his hold. “I’m tired to play hide-and-seek with you for these past years. I’m avoiding you and your crazy obsession.. I still can be your friend, but not a lover anymore. Joon-ah.. You had thrown me away from your life since our 5^th anniversary. So now, I’m begging you to realize it and just let me go..” Hyosung slowly said. She was bowing, silently wiping away her tears.

“Seems like I only can give you tears and pressures eoh? Even after the sweetest years we had gone through, I still can’t give you sweet memory than those tears. No matter how hard I’m trying, you will always cry right? Because it’s me. Because you’re not happy with me..” Joon let out a bitter laugh. “I’m sorry then, Hyosung-ah..” “Will you let me go then?” Hyosung whispered.

The silent killed both of them in their own mind. Hyosung didn’t want to break the silence again. Not again. “Then just go, Hyosung-ah..” Joon slowly said. Hyosung’s head snapped, she could feel the hesitate tone in his word. But knowing him for a long time, she knew he was being serious. “I’m sorry.. I’m really sorry, Joon-ah.. for leaving you in the past just like that..Without farewell.. I regret it..” She stood up, walking to his side. “I’m thankful for our talk tonight,” She said again before leaning to him and kissed him for the last time. “My last gift for you..” She said after she pulled herself. “Goodbye, Joon-ah….” She waved to him, a spark was on her eyes. The spark which had died earlier, now it lived again.

***

He watched how the young woman running through the crowded to him. He couldn’t hold his smile. Finally, Hyosung came back to his side. He inhaled in relief. Finally, he still had a chance to meet with her again. He felt thankful because she decided to go back to his side. She had that smile on her face. The gorgeous smile which only owned by her.

He couldn’t help but grinning widely. Watching her safe, running happily to him was such a relief. He had worried about her for the rest of the day and it was almost midnight when he found her running to him. But the luck wasn’t that good. Because her smile slowly vanished as she fell down. She was unconscious. He held his breathe as he watched how her smile vanished slowly and how her body touched the ground in hurt way. He screamed but his scream never reached her.

He ran, passing some people who looked at him in a curious way. He knelt when he was right on her side, giving no care with some people who started gathering around them. He took her, wiping the sweat from her forehead. A scar formed in his heart as he realized how rough the day she had gone through that day. With the help of the caring people, he got a taxi to drive him to the nearest hospital. He waited anxiously for the doctor, worrying for her health.

“Pabo!” He said to himself as he hit his body. Letting the pain to pay a little of his guilty. He kept wishing, not wanting to see her sick body. “Jay-ah!” His friend came next to him, patted his shoulder in worried. “What happened to Hyosung?” He asked, judging by Jay’s face he knew Hyosung was going through a bad day. “Do you want me to be his doctor?” He offered nicely. And Jay nodded, “Please help me..” He said, almost in whispering tone. “Alright.. Let me handle everything.. Just take a rest here, okay?” His partner went away so fast until he couldn’t help but admiring the professional side of his friend.

Hours passed by just like that when Jay’s friend approached him. A weak smile was on his face. And Jay was hoping for the best, maybe the best for the change of their life afterward.

***

“What?!” He blinked, couldn’t believe what he just heard. Hyosung had got a private room for herself. Jay looked confused as Hyosung was getting IV Treatment next to him. “Yes.. She will need to be resting here for a week or maybe more. She’s too weak, you know. I can’t believe she had that baby in herself while she’s in the weak phrase ever. She’s too tired and I bet if you take her home now, the stress won’t help her.” He explained, looking back and forth between the young couple. “You meant that.. Hyosung is pregnant with my baby ?” He tried to process everything. He wasn’t in the mood to process anything but he had to.

“Yeah. And unfortunately her pregnant is weak. You will have to take a look on her often. You can’t just leave her for a long time. She needs someone.” “But my job..” Jay mumbled. “That’s why I tell you it’s gonna be so hard to take care of her in this period.” “Kim, is there no other way?” He frustrated asked.  “Well.. Maybe you want to discuss about this with her..” “What is it Kim?” Jay stared at Kim hopefully.

“Maybe you want to go back to America, your mother owns a farm, doesn’t she? Maybe you will need that,” Kim shrugged. “I think that Hyosung is already conscious,” Kim pointed to Jay’s back. Hyosung was trying to adjust the light of the lamp with her newly opened eyes. “Baby-ah!” Jay shouted and soon, he got a slap on his head. “Don’t shout in hospital!” Kim warned him. He pouted half heartedly and held Hyosung’s hand in his own hands.

“How do you feel, Hyosung-ah?” Kim asked, he smiled until his eyes disappeared. Showing that he had a famous ‘Eye-smile’. “I just feel a little bit dizzy.” Hyosung replied back. She still light headed as she suddenly got herself sleeping. “I’m wondering if you’ve known about your pregnant before, Hyosung-ah..” Kim once again spoke up. Jay smiled ear to ear when Hyosung snapped her head to look confusedly at Kim and Jay. “What do you mean by my pregnant?” She asked confusedly. “I don’t think I am..” She murmured. It made Jay lost control and kissed her lovingly.

“You’re pregnant, Hyosung-ah..” Kim explained. “But unfortunately you don’t know this.. Your baby is so weak because the mental and physics pressure you have these past days. Am I right that you’re very busy these weeks?” He teased. Hyosung blushed hard, knowing perfectly from the way he spoke that Jay had told the doctor everything. “Oh… I think so..” “And because you were so busy you didn’t know the change in your body,right?” He once again chuckled and once again Hyosung blushed hard.

“Alright then. I’m leaving okay? Ah, and Hyosung, get some rest when you’re here. Ok?” He waved to the couple and walked out. Hyosung sent a death glare on Jay who innocently stared back at her with his small eyes. “And what was that?” She asked, pinched hard his cheeks. “Auch! No, no.. Not something very bad.. Auch.. Hyooooo.. Stop..” And thus, they fought like children again. Just like what they used to do. When the disaster was still far away from them.

“Mind to tell me now what’s going on?” She tried to ask again with a softer tone now. She decided to just lay on the hospital bed as Jay kept staring her with a different look. Hyosung knew, something was up but he just didn’t want her to know. “Tell me.” She forced a smile as worry feeling ate her up. Jay shook his head at first but then, after some pressure, he gave up. Knowing perfectly that he had lost. When he told her everything, the conversation until Kim’s advice, she didn’t do anything except breathing. She just listened to him, just like that.

“So, what do you think?” Jay rubbed her palm, pecking on her cheek to calm her down. “About what?” Hyosung replied. “About our moving to America? We can stay with my mom you know..” Jay shrugged, her hand was still in his hold. “When? Are you sure about that? Will your mom accept me?” Hyosung was trying to ignore the innocent eyes he had. She tried hard not to kiss him at the moment.

“Why not? I believe she will accept you willingly!” Jay grinned. “When?” Hyosung simplify asked him dead-on. “That decision is in your hand. I will not push you to go around this month. I’m not that crazy, ok?” Jay puffed his cheeks, acting totally like a child and it made Hyosung get a big question in her mind. “What about this summer?” She said and Jay just nodded, seemed to think about something when he moved closer, if it was even possible, to her bed. “I want you take a rest from everything. Please? I will take care of Hyobeom and I want you to take a rest with a baby in here,” He patted her stomach smoothly “And to take care of yourself, something you haven’t done since months ago, right?” Hyosung’s tears flew down as she felt how worried Jay was with her. And how he would try or do anything to make her happy.

“Promise me you will get a rest?” He was bowing on her eyes level, the precious eyes were looking back at him. The eyes he had always loved. “Why I have to disobey your demand, my husband?” She said. Jay grinned. “Good girl!” He clapped. “Hush.. Don’t make noise!” Hyosung warned her and he just giggled.

***

Joon walked to her room in silent. He watched how she breathe slowly, with her eyes were closing tiredly. He pulled the chair closer to his direction. Just to stare at the beautiful girl he had loved for years. He wiped the sweats from her forehead, enjoying the smoothness under his finger as he once again placed his fingers on her cheek. Felt annoyed by the touches on her skin, she opened her eyes. Just to look at Joon again.

“What..??” Hyosung’s words went died as Joon placed his fingers on her lips. “No talking for a moment, ok?” He said, removing the fingers from her. Hyosung watched as Joon bowed, taking a deep breathe to calm him. “What’s up, Hyosung?” He finally talked, with the famous babo smile on his face. “Stop smiling like that.. You don’t look handsome with that kind of smile,” She whined, giving a care on him. For a moment, Joon just looked at her in awe. “You still care on me eh?” Joon softly whispered.

“If not, who will? I know you still need me for some aspects.” She giggled by that thought, ruffled his hair in addition. “Hey! Don’t mess up with my hair,” He winced when Hyosung disobeyed his order and kept ruffling it. Joon caught her wrist, the hold was tight and it made Hyosung whimpered in shock and pain. “Don’t be too tight, Joon-ah.” Was what she could only say as she didn’t want to destroy the moment they were in. “So, tell me. Does he forgive you?” He chuckled bitterly as he let go of her wrist. “Probably so. Why?” Hyosung looked at him in confused. “He’s so big hearted eh? No wonder you fall for him and successfully moved on from me,” He sighed. “No. Joon-ah. Not again.” She protested, not liking the way he talked. And she knew very well what he was going to say. And she didn’t like it.

“Fine then. I’m here just to say goodbye to you. Don’t be jealous if someday you read news about my wedding, ok?” He laughed. “You’re very full of confidence! Just like usual,” She laughed together with him. “I’m sorry because you ended laying here with those medicines going into your body.” Joon smiled in sorry. “Don’t feel in that way. What I get today is a present, a gift from God!” Hyosung cheerfully said. She shushed Joon when he wanted to open his mouth again, her face softened because she didn’t feel the tense anymore.

“Just go if you’re going. Don’t look at the past anymore. Just erase me from your mind and then I’m just gone like smoke.. The smoke is easy to be removed though,” Hyosung smiled, nodding in agreement as Joon’s eyes were full of questions. “Then.. It’s a nice way to say goodbye and end our game for more than 10 years, eoh?” Joon winked, held her hand tightly. “Yep. I really wish you can meet someone who is much better than me.” She wished, rubbing his arms. The arms she used to admire. The arms she used to lean onto. But it wasn’t hers anymore. She had to let go the past, together with his disappeared.

“Goodbye, Joon-ah..” He hesitantly leant onto her, kissing her cheeks lovingly and definitely for a long time. Joon walked out, without even turning back to see a proud smile on Hyosung’s face.

***

“So, Hyosung-ah .. You will go to USA.” Hyosung’s mother peeled the apples in an amazing speed, made Hyosung questioning her act. “Yes. I think so. Jay oppa has been so serious about that too. I can’t refuse the offer,” Hyosung answered. Hyosung’s mother put the last apple she peeled before taking a long breathe. “You know what? I think it’s the best time to tell you that umma wants to start a new life.” Hyosung mother said, her eyes were looking at the other side. “What do you mean by that, umma?” Hyosung blinked, not really understanding what her umma said. “I will go to Japan and enjoy my life there with a friend of mine. She’s living alone without any family too, just like me,” She explained carefully.

“What do you mean by you have no family?” Hyosung’s voice rose. “You still have me! How could you just forget about me?!” Hyosung said, anger was on her eyes. “No, no. Calm down dear. If you’re going to USA, don’t you think that I’m gonna be alone? So that, I will just go with my friends. I want to enjoy my life too. It’s not just your life I have to think about right?” She smiled, brushing the bun on Hyosung’s forehead. “But..” “But what? Your sisters have been saying yes. It’s only you left..” She chuckled as she saw Hyosung’s expression kept changing. “Do you agree with me then?” Hyosung mother said.

“Fine then umma.. Do what you want to do..” Hyosung gave up.

***

Jay carried Hyobeom carefully as the younger boy couldn’t hold his excited feeling to meet with his mother after a few days not being able to meet. “Yah! Hyobeom-ah! Stop hitting my head!” Jay whined as once again Hyobeom ignored his complain and hit his head because of their slow pace. “Appa! Ppaliwa!! Don’t walk like a snail! I want to meet umma now..” Hyobeom replied meaner than Jay expected.

“I think that you’ve been poisoned by your mother just too much,” Jay murmured. He let Hyobeom walk by himself after the unstopped hit on his head kept continuing. “Walk carefully, Hyobeom-ah.” He warned when Hyobeom almost fell because of his hurry steps. “Appa! It’s umma’s room right?” He asked excitedly while his finger was pointing on the room’s door. “Ye.. Open it slowly, don’t disturb umma.. Maybe she’s sleeping,” And he regretted what he had said because after that Hyobeom’s head hung sadly. “What’s wrong?” Jay asked worriedly. “I want to go home..” Hyobeom whined. “Wae? We just arrived!” Jay couldn’t believe with how stubborn his son was.

“You said that umma is sleeping right? I don’t want to play here then if she’s sleeping. Umma doesn’t want to meet Hyobeom..” Hyobeom started crying. “Pabo.. You’re really pabo,” Jay mumbled to himself as he finally able to understand what Hyobeom was trying to say. “Ani, Hyobeom-ah.. Umma wants to meet you, believe on me okay? Come on, let’s knock the door.” Jay cheered him, he gave him an example. He knocked the door and he could hear a low yet soft yes answer. Hyobeom got excited again as he too knocked the door.

“Umma has been saying yes. Let’s go inside!” Jay cheerfully said, led the little boy into the room. “Hello, Hyobeom-ah!” Hyosung greeted the little excited boy as he rushed into her direction. “Umma!!” He screamed happily, he tried to climb up on the bed but kept failed. “Carefully, Hyobeom-ah.. Umma is still sick, so don’t be noisy eoh?” He caressed Hyobeom’s cheeks lovingly. After helping Hyobeom with his shoes, he put a chair to sit on it. Watching his son and wife played happily together.

“Umma miss you so much,” Hyosung tickled Hyobeom’s waist. “Nado, umma.. Appa is so cruel on me! He kept cooking ramyeon although I had told him that I dislike it,” Hyobeom told Hyosung. “Oh really? Where was grandma?” “Grandma couldn’t cook for me because she went to aunties’ houses. She said that my cousins needed her,” Hyobeom shrugged. “Hey, little boy. Don’t shrug, can’t you? You will look if you keep doing it.” Jay warned him, pinched Hyobeom’s cheeks.

“But appa.. You always do that..” Hyobeom argued back. “It’s because he has been an old man already, baby ah.. Don’t shrug, okay? You’re still too young for that.” Hyosung said, kissed the top of his head. “He looks cute when he’s with you. But he is surely a devil when he’s being left alone with me,” Jay whined, pouted to Hyosung. “Really? Hahaha.. He only loves me then.” Hyosung teased Jay. “Yah! Don’t say that. I feel bad,” Jay sighed. Hyobeom was busy playing by himself on his mother’s lap. Not caring with his parents’ conversation.

“Jay-ah..” Hyosung called him. “Hem? What’s it baby?” he turned to her, tried to read her expression but failed. “I want to sing and dance with you someday.. The song.. Is made by us..” She couldn’t believe she finally had courage to say that. She blushing hard, hiding the embarrassing feeling by playing again with Hyobeom who just accepted her sudden disturb. “Don’t need to be that shy to say such a thing, baby-ah..” Jay giggled, sat next to her on the bed. “Sometimes you’re very cute until I can feel my heart beating very fast for you,” Jay whispered. Hyosung chuckled shyly. “We will do it someday.. Just heal fast and I promise you it will happen soon..” He said, giving kisses on her face.

“Promise hem?” She looked at him in hoping pose. “I promise you for that..” He said, kissing her lips passionately before her stopping him, pointing to the busy boy between them. He just smiled, ruffling the boy’s hair once again.