[A/N: -_-, I'm very sorry I wasn't able to grant your request for a double update last night. Kekeke.. I just love cliffhangers. But since it's Se Hun's birthday in a few minutes, April 12,2012, let's celebrate! Oh! And it's Joon Myun's birthday too! Heehee. Another reason to celebrate! Back to back birthdays call for  A DOUBLE UPDATE!  Happy Birthday boys!]

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>>>LU HAN'S POV<<<

I knew that I was about to regret this forever.

In one way or another, I would certainly regret not being there for Joon Myun.

Aside from the fact that my lullaby will be with me for a whole day,

the real reason why I want to go to Lotte World is to…

ugh.

I just don't want Joon Myun to grow up like me.

I don't wish to see him grow up without a family.

And here I am.

I can't go to his birthday. 

But damn it, Lu Han. Sometimes, I just want to stop being an idol. I hate Mr. Soo Man. I hate him. He's too greedy.

If not for our fans, I would have given up.

As I watched Chae Rin's shadow grow smaller and smaller along the hallway, I had the excruciating feeling of loss.

But I'm helpless. There's no way out. Star King needs me. EXO needs me for the Mandarin Language segment.

Joon Myun, don't be mad at me. 

I faced the plain white wall and punched it. 

"Damn it!" I kept on repeating.

Damn it I won't be able to see Chae Rin.

Damn it I won't see Joon Myun happy.

Damn it I'm depriving my precious angel of a family.

Damn it Chae Rin did not even show any signs of disappointment when I said I can't make it.

Damn it she doesn't have affections for me.

Damn it Lee Donghyun might replace me and be Joon Myun's Appa.

Damn it he might live happily ever after with Seong Chae Rin if this happens.

Damn it this schedule .

Damn it I have to be at Star King.

Damn it I'll just play sick.

Damn it Lu Han, that excuse is lame.

Damn it, Lu Han, it's not too late.

Wait.

Eff. Krisus. Jackpot. 

Krisus! Kris! 

I scurried back to the training room and abused the keypad of my phone as I began punching Kris's number.

Oh EXO-M, what can I do without you? Thank the heavens three of you can speak Mandarin!

Kris answered my call.

"Kris?" I asked.

"Oh hey. What's up?" He asked. 

"Krisus, Handsome EXO-M Leader, fly your to Seoul on Saturday. Star King wants you." I said. 

I could hear Kris laughing.

"What's up with the urgency?" Kris asked.

"I'll explain once you get here. Come on Wu Fan,