A room full of dreams

Untitled thoughts pt. 2

[2016]

 

A room full of dreams

 

Junsu didn’t know how it started, but by the time he was 30, he realised he had a room in which he had been storing his most precious things through time. It was a small storeroom, right beside the entrance, in which he had been treasuring little objects, old photographs, new musical posters; it was a room in which he came to think, to reflect, to make big decisions. He was used to sitting in the middle and look around, tracing the imaginary line that brought that little kid who loved to sing to the man he was today.

In the small room, there was a videogame.
There was no tv, no computer, but the empty cover stood there, on one of the several shelves, reminding him of sleepless nights spent playing with Changmin until they were both too tired to press the buttons and fell asleep with the game still going on.

In the small room, there was a football ball too.
It was red, covered with golden signatures and cute designs. It reminded him of Yunho and that passion they shared for sports besides the one for singing and dancing. It reminded him of long lost matches and broken laughs, of tiring training days and warm embracing hugs.

In the small room there was also an album.
It marked the beginning of a new career, it was the weapon he and Jaejoong and Yoochun had fought against SM with. It was the first of the many versions that had to be released because of an unfair envioronment, because of mother nature law of how power defies justice.

In the small room, there was a picture too.
It was old and its corners were either ruined or about to be torned out, but there was something about it that made it impossible for Junsu to throw it away. There was something about the way it always managed to reassure him in uncertain situations, something about the happiness the people on it used to feel that made him willing to hope those feelings weren’t lost forever.

In the small room there were lots of things.
There was a ticket from his first musical, Mozart!, his first concert tour dvd and a bright trophy from one of the achivements gained as Dong Bang Shin Ki.
There was a matched ring he and his twin brother bought together years ago, his FC men t-shirt and pillars of his favourite singers’ cds.
There was a box of polaroids that belonged to other times, a stuffed dolphin and many other items that had had role too important in his past to be set aside.

Junsu didn’t know why he had started collecting things, maybe it had been his way to hold memories when his mind was too busy fighting an undesired reality to treasure them. Maybe it had been his way to remember where he came from, a way not to forget all those little things that had forged a part of his personality, that had helped him turn his flaws into his values.

In some way that small room had become his safe place, his refuge.
It was a time machine that allowed him to travel back in time to the times he desired the most.

Hidden in the middle of a damned society, it was, indeed, his room full of dreams.

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jjbrownsugga #1
Chapter 17: I love this. There are many hurdles that we have to get over, thrown at us throughout our lives. There always will be, from time to time. But it's important for us to think things through, and acknowledge, or accept, that this isn't perfect, but 'now is good'.
Katalina50
#2
Chapter 17: 01.Thank you captivating
literary phrased
situation report. You write very well.
Yes, because that's about it.
in 2023.
Actually, in recent years, YunJae fans got crumbs and sometimes 1-1 bigger bites.
"Bites-Crumbs"
In 2017, shortly after, that Yonho, discharge military.
To Japan, After the opening of Jaejoong Cafe
the staff had a private party,
a shortly video about this party was accidentally posted on IG
Jeajoong and Yunho, side by side and
They talk huddled together /because of the noise of the music/........
02.
In 2021. Jaejoong had a profile on Facebook.
He talked to us, and it was good that we exchanged opinions directly, we fans talked
about Yunho defamation.
2021. 02-03- This was at the time when, despite the curfew, Yunho, went to an adult apartment pub
with friends after 11pm...
Someone sent them a inspection, and the authority
he punished everyone.
Half of the netizen gang "jumped" on Yunho
Jaejoong, he was really out of it, and he just told us,
that we think carefully about what we say, and unjustly let's not hurt anyone...
But he made a separate post
"shame on you, stop persecuting the innocent friend"
2022, 11. 12. "duck crumbs"
https://www.instagram.com/p/CmPX-wHsKer/
https://www.instagram.com/p/Ck0_DOLoscU/
I'm sorry I wrote a novel, but I was inspired.
It was a long time ago, and is heartwarming,
that
someone has written a short story that "smells" of reality
About YunJae Thanks again
faithot5 #3
Chapter 16: so sad but hope for the best
Neng2ovid #4
Chapter 16: This is so sad. I wish they can really be together. But society will judge them because where they are both from is not a very accepting society
JaeBeloved
#5
Chapter 16: Bearing with the hits and punches of a cruel society, their strained relationship has taken a toll. Stealing these rare moments for solace, hoping their separation won't be much longer. Thanks for sharing!
nwh-gem
#6
Chapter 16: that's bitter-sweet! beautifully written painful reality! waaaaaah, i am the one frustrated, at least yunjae's found peace with their "circumstances" presently bit yeah, keep on the faith, it's what makes us all going! thank you, thank you authornim!
jcnafaiz
#7
Chapter 15: It's will turn 10 this year (T T)
Cherrynis
#8
Chapter 3: OMG! I can picture Yun said, "I love u too stupid"...this is emoshinki muchhh...
Cherrynis
#9
Chapter 2: And Joongie is er for Yun's hurricane...
JaeBeloved
#10
Chapter 15: YunJae are love, overcoming the obstacles standing in the way towards their hearts. Thank you!