Second Chance.
Romeo + Romeo.
Jonghyun POV:
That has to be impossible.
I stared at the stained patch on the carpet, where the previous dorm owners probably puked or poured stuff on it.
"You do realize that he's going to contact you one way or another? Especially when you were silly enough to blurt out you know him."
"What?" I said through my gritted teeth at his patronizing voice.
I glared at Kibum, who was gentle in one moment, blunt in the other. He shrugged, smiling.
"He's going to want to know what happened in the past with you, whether he thinks it as normal friendship or romantic relationship."
"I..."
You probably won't remember everything but...."
I didn't just remember the smaller, more important things.... I remembered everything, from how he likes to scarf down chicken no matter how hot it was from the kitchen, his unusual liking for long sleeves and hoodies, that selfless character, to the smallest things like which side of himself did he sleep on, the shampoo and toothpastes he used, even the particular brand of pen he liked to use, even the sequence he combed his hair with.
"You honestly have no idea what it's like to know someone inside out for years.... And then lose him just like that."
"I hadn't been useless enough to lose him" He stopped, shocked at his own thoughtless words before grabbing my wrist. "Jjong hyung... just..sorry."
My head snapped up to meet his eyes, seeing my pained reflection in his eyes.
Shaking off his grip, I got up, walking into the room to slam the door shut. I sat at the desk, hesitant. I lifted the edge of the table cloth, before just pulling it off the whole table. I ran my fingers over the cold glass surface, looking at the photo of him and me pressed under the glass slab on the table, the corner of it obscured by another photo of him and me.
And another. And another.
The whole table was covered by the photos, taken from high school. The photos had never even seen the inside of a box. Hidden from view, only seen by those closest to me. The cloth only hid it so that I could live momentarily without the thought of him.
"I don't get it, Tae! He may be heartbroken, but it can't be enough to make him go like this."
"What exactly happened?"
"He was, or still is, insecure about.. being... gay. Jinki hyung couldn't take it. Not any more. The pressure must have been too much, the fights, the desire to love Jonghyun but being pushed away by small fights started by him......"
Taemin's head snapped up with a sickening crack, and Key winced, but his eyes narrowed at the surprise in Taemin's eyes.
"What is it, Taemin?"
"Hyung... hyung... hyung feels guilty! He realizes he was pushing too hard and, and, blames himself, so, he..." Taemin scrambled his words, barely able to get the possibility out of his mind and out into the open.
Kibum's already moving, and the door to Jonghyun's room crashes open.
Not long after, the sounds of relieved crying comes.
We told him to forget. If not forget, then to put it away for a day when he's strong enough to face the past.
Not anymore.
He can't wait for that.
"Throw away whatever we said, hyung. This time, it's life giving you a second chance."
HEY HEY. My first note here on this story~ :DD
Thank you for the support before this story even started! *wipes tears*
I know the story is going a little slow... but it's better slow than fast, don't you think? haha... *excuses*
Anyway, I was just thinking about one of the comments below...hehe, no worries, yes? She mentioned she was having problems associating Kibum with Key... cos she would only think of Suju's Kibum. So what do you think guys? Before this story goes on tooooooo far.... should I change it back to Key? I'll slip in a small part in the later chapters of Key explaining why he's called Key to our darling Jinki if I do, so just tell me in the comments, yes?
(I'm sorry, this just fits in anywhere.)
On the other hand~ I did well for my english narrative! *dances*
OH and another thing, as I said in my previous stories (links will be below for the new followers), I'm not exactly a popular nor social person in class.... which by the way, has caused me to gain people in my class to dislike in less than 2 weeks. like wth. It's barely March?!
It's just... like wow. But you know what? Whenever I'm treated coldly by them or whatever, I'm like all straight faced on the outside, but guess what?
I DON'T EVEN CARE.
AND, the other day one of them had the guts to push past me roughly and then said she hurt her wrist or whatever, and told everyone in the class it was MY fault.
And once again, I ignored it. Because I knew it was useless to retort to ridiculous people like her. I totally wanted to though... like go all...
Best part was, she went to the teacher and told him she couldn't play frisbee because of it, and when he asked her why, she pointed to me. LIKE, WOMAN WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?!
And so the teacher asked me what happened, and I just told him, she happened to brush past me and something must have happened between there, but I was completely sure it wasn't my fault.
And the teacher believed me. And I could feel her stare burning into the side of my head. She was probably cursing at me internally. Probably all---
But hey? You lose. I win.
히히히히. 내가제일잘가~ Comments!
Nanthida6812: Someone noticed! You're one alert reader~
daydreamergirl11: Still missing a part... cos I haven't provided it! Heh!
dubu-love: Onho always came to me as a really close brother relationship ^_^
shieryl: D'awww, thank you <3
princess1996: Update has arrived! hehe
khey_onsooni: Hehehe~
Heavenlee: huhuh~
Later guys! :D
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