Chapter 13: V Live Struggles (Part 1)

Quick Note: Please read the A/N below! It's IMPORTANT.

Special Dedication To: All my Satzu shippers after SaiDa's V Live, hang in there buddies, I gotcha!

 When the notification appeared on her lock screen, Tzuyu didn’t waste time and unlocked her phone. She plugged in her earphones quickly and relaxed on one of the chairs near the table in which Nayeon, Jihyo, Mina and Momo were talking around.

 They were preparing for the Musical Awards Festival, but now they had this little thirty minutes brake, ten of which had already gone by. Since she wasn’t too interested in the conversation they were having, she decided it was okay to watch the V Live the members were broadcasting in the other room.

 As soon as she heard Dahyun’s and Sana’s voices… only their voices, and she saw their hairs, she got this bad feeling in her gut.

“You have to be kidding me” Tzuyu murmured in Chinese, not loudly enough for the rest to hear.

 She bit her lower lip as soon as she saw Sana hugging Dahyun.

“Yeorobun!” Dahyun said.

 Tzuyu chewed on her lower lip once, forgetting about her lipstick for a moment. Sana was still hugging Dahyun.

“Sana!” Dahyun introduced the girl and pointed the camera at Sana.

 Sana blew a kiss to the viewers. Tzuyu couldn’t help but stare at her red-pinkish lips while she did so, she was about to get into a daze when Dahyun pulled the camera away and introduced herself.

 She sighed in relief when Sana let go of Dahyun, now there was a good… safe distance between them.

“Wait, I should sit on something” Dahyun said while trying to put away what looked like clothes from a white stool.

“No, you can’t” Sana teased.

 Tzuyu nodded slyly, a little frown had made its way to her forehead.

“This is mine!” Sana whined.

“Get up!” Dahyun begged with a whine.

“Nope” Sana said, looking at the camera.

 Tzuyu tried to hide her smile, Sana looked extremely cute.

“Let me sit on it too~” Dahyun whined again.

“This is mine” Sana said, still looking at the camera.

 Cute, Tzuyu thought.

“Right? This is my sit right?” the Japanese girl asked the viewers.

 Tzuyu chuckled softly at the girl. She glanced around her, making sure her unnies haven’t notice her. She sighed internally in relief when she saw them talking furiously. They were too into their chat to even care. Good.

 Dahyun was making this funny face at Sana, kind of a glare and an offended face altogether. Tzuyu would have laughed, but her sense of humor disappeared as soon as Sana touched Dahyun’s nose.

“You have to be kidding me” she muttered in Chinese again.

 Dahyun looked at the camera.

“Fine, get on here” Sana said finally, she stood up and allowed Dahyun to sit down.

“I’m so nice… right?” Sana asked while they were sitting down.

 Way too nice, Tzuyu thought.

 Tzuyu didn’t pay attention to Dahyun, instead she focused on Sana’s arm which founded Dahyun’s and hugged it way too smoothly. She ignored whatever they were saying; only focusing on Sana who was now nodding and making cute little weird sounds.

 Tzuyu smiled.

 Are you sure you are 21?

 Suddenly Sana started whining out of the blue while Dahyun asked for the time.

“My bad!” Sana said.

“Why?” Dahyun asked confused.

 Tzuyu mentally nodded. What was wrong?

“Lipstick got on!” Sana said while showing her white blouse.

 Tzuyu closed her eyes to stop herself from rolling them. She chuckled; Sana was indeed a very clumsy person.

 Sana started whining and Tzuyu couldn’t help but find it cute and smile at the girl’s attitude.

“I didn’t put this lipstick on”

 Woah

 Woah

 Woah

 Woah

 Stop right there girl

 What?

 Tzuyu breathed in and breathed out, exercise which had helped her lots of times when she was a trainee to not get herself frustrated, and still she used it to this days before going on stage. It helped her relax and clear her mind before saying something stupid.

“Wait!” Sana said.

 Tzuyu blinked to focus on what Sana was saying.

“Look carefully”

 So Tzuyu did, she closed her eyes in order to focus her sight more. As soon as Sana focused Dahyun’s lips she put two and two together.

“You really have to be kidding me” she cursed in Chinese again, just a tiny bit louder.

“Is this Dahyunnie’s lip color?” Sana asked.

 Tzuyu’s grip on her phone tighten.

 Dahyun covered .

“This is Dahyunnie’s lip color” Sana answered her own question.

 Tzuyu felt a nod on . She breathed in again.

“No way!” Dahyun whined.

 Yeah! No way!, Tzuyu thought, and her grip tightening just a slyly bit more.

 Dahyun stared at the camera with a smug smile and smug eyes on her face. And Tzuyu didn’t like it one bit. When Dahyun focused on her eyes Tzuyu allowed herself to breathe out slowly. Dahyun was just fooling around.

“Is not mine!” The girl insisted.

 Tzuyu relaxed her grip a bit.

“Dear stylists, it’s my fault but please scold Dahyun too” Sana said as soon as she walked in sight again.

 Oh, please do!

 She watched as Sana tried to wipe the lipstick away with who knows what, it seemed like a tissue. Dahyun decided it was a good idea to put the camera right next to Sana’s face. Tzuyu gulped and she was sure she felt her cheeks were a little warm. She wasn’t sure if it was Sana’s glowing lips or her voice so near the microphone, but it was making her feel all weird inside. Now Sana was pouting and Tzuyu had to bit her lower lip because… dang it, she was going to sue whoever allowed the make-up artists to cover Sana’s lips with freaking glowly-pink-reddish-lipstick. It made them look a whole new level of tempting. Plump, pinkish, glowly, and just… dang it.

 Tzuyu watched as the girls struggled with the camera angle, it didn’t show Sana’s eyes or it the phone was falling down… she couldn’t stop focusing on Sana. She swore the girl was a living-walking-aegyo-machine. She didn’t even try, she just looked naturally adorable with those cute squirrel cheeks and deep dark-brown eyes, and her voice was extremely cute. And dang her smile! Her smile could lighten up a whole city!

“Sana unnie” Dahyun said.

“Sorry!” Sana said softly to who knows who.

“She has something on her shirt” Dahyun explained.

 Tzuyu frowned a bit in confusion, maybe they were talking with their stylist? Or their manager?

“Look at this carefully! This is Dahyun’s lip color, right?” Sana told whoever they were talking to.

 Tzuyu chuckled at Dahyun’s stare at the camera, forgetting for a minute the girl’s lipstick was in Sana’s shirt.

“This is not my lip color, right?” Sana asked.

“Both of you follow me!” Someone said.

 Tzuyu tried to recognize the voice’s owner. Jeongyeon, perhaps?

“Ahh! Unnie!” Dahyun whined while laughing along with Sana.

 Dahyun whined while Sana did what looked like a weird version of her famous “sha, sha, sha”.

“It’s because you hugged me! Right?” Dahyun pouted, looking at the camera.

 Oh, it better be because she hugged you!

“ONCE Saw it too!” she pointed at the camera “She hugged me… I didn’t kiss you” she said.

 Tzuyu’s grip on the phone became tighter again.

“You hugged me…” Dahyun kept explaining, using her arm to show how it had happened.

“I didn’t kiss you either!” Sana said looking at Dahyun.

 Tzuyu bit her lower lip.

 Of course you wouldn’t kiss her Sana-unnie…

 Suddendly Sana changed the subject radically. Tzuyu was relief, they were talking about Christmas day, Tzuyu could bear Christmas day’s talking.

“It was twenty minutes before Christmas was over” Sana said “Am I right?” she asked Dahyun.

“Nope, it was ten minutes” Dahyun corrected.

“Ten minutes?” she asked, Dahyun nodded “No, it was twenty minutes before” Sana insisted.

“It was ten minutes before” Dahyun told her again.

“It was around then” Sana finally said “Dahyunnie said, ‘Sana unnie, Christmas is almost over, we should do something!’”

 Tzuyu bit her lower lip, she was sure her right eye twitched a little, her grip on the phone was so strong she was sure she could break the screen if she tried.

“And she hugged me” Tzuyu breathed in “So I was like, ‘why is she hugging me?’”

 Yeah, why were you hugging her?!

“She was like ‘Christmas is almost over!’” she ended her story with a laugh, Dahyun laughed too.

 Tzuyu wondered why the heck she was so… strained because of just a simple hug. She stood up from her sit, earphones and V Live still streaming on her phone. She walked to the bathroom, not because she wanted to be in the bathroom, but because she wanted to be alone.

 They’re just friends Tzuyu, you’ve gone through this before…. Stop thinking nonsenses.

 She breathed in again.

 She had never been so thankful for Chaeyoung’s existence like at this moment… When she appeared on camera, she breathed out slowly.

 Momo appeared too and Tzuyu was relieved. She wondered why they had left the room, moreover, why did she leave the room as soon as she, Tzuyu, left the room.

“Momo is here” Someone said, Tzuyu couldn’t recognize who.

“So I hugged Dahyun” Sana said, Tzuyu could see Momo staring at her for a brief second before pretty much launching herself over Chaeyoung’s side, probably to say hi to the camera “But later she said she got a bruise in her nose”

 Tzuyu watched Momo smile and waved, Chaeyoung doing the same. Then Momo, Chaeyoung and Jeongyeon started goofing around, Tzuyu had never been so thankful for their randomness. Jeongyeon and Chaeyoung moved away from the camera, and Tzuyu could hear someone almost dying from coughing. She laughed at Momo’s pronunciation.

“Our ONCE, monkeys” she said.

 Sana and Dahyun laughed.

“ONCE” Dahyun corrected.

 Soon Jeongyeon re-appeared with a Malang Cow blue package, Sana going away and coming back with the same thing. Momo ripped the package open, as expected from her, and started eating. Mina appeared and said hi to the camera. Then Dahyun appeared with a can of Pocari Sweat, a kind of grapefruit tasting sport drink she was used to seeing the members drink at practices. She preferred water, but still had tried it a few times.

 After everybody calmed down and there were only three members on screen, Momo was apparently called for who knows what –probably make up retouches or something. Sana moved closer to Dahyun and whispered in her ear.

 Tzuyu tighten the grip on the phone, but as soon as she noticed she was already in the bathroom and she had the tub in front of her, she grabbed the cold white porcelain tightly.

 Sana blew a kiss to the viewers and Tzuyu felt her heart skipping a bit for half a second until she hugged Dahyun’s neck, height difference struggles as Chaeyoung called it.

“Dahyun is looking more like me nowadays” Sana said randomly.

 What’s that supposed to mean?

“No I’m not!” Dahyun laughed while Sana hugged her closer.

 Tzuyu bit her lower lip.

“Oh no, what should I do with her?” Sana asked.

“No way!”

“You start to look like me” Sana said while swinging herself and Dahyun back and forth.

“No way”

 Yeah, no way

“Yes” Sana said, way to dangerously close to Dahyun’s ear.

 Tzuyu held the tub even tighter if possible, trying hard not to crash her phone screen with her other hand.

“No” Dahyun finally said.

“Look at the height difference!” Sana said happily.

 Tzuyu sighed sadly. If she was there with Sana she’ll be the taller one, and Sana just seemed so happy to be the taller one. It was stupid, but what if Sana wanted to be the taller one?

 What if she wants her?

 Sana hugged Dahyun even closer.

“It’s because I’m bending down” Dahyun whined.

“She bent down just now!” Sana told the viewers.

“I’m bending down!” Dahyun kept on whining.

“What should I do with you?”

 NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING

 Dahyun bended down, apparently she bent way too much or something.

“Ah, she wants to brag about her flexible body” Sana teased looking at Dahyun “You will be an adult soon…” she said seriously, but Tzuyu could hear a hint of mischief.

 Tzuyu felt her heart aching just a little bit, her stomach was playing Twister® and she could feel a huge nod in , like it was pressing from her muscles to the inside. It hurt.

 Tzuyu kept watching as Sana stared at Dahyun, as soon as those words left Sana’s mouth they stared for a second before laughing hysterically.

 Please tell me they weren’t implying what I think they were implying. Please!

“I will be an adult soon!” Dahyun said again standing in front of the camera again, Sana clienged to her neck again and rested her cheek on her head.

 Tzuyu felt her eyes getting warm.

Noup

Noup

Noup

Not happening

 She refused herself from crying.

“Sana’s birthday is in 3 days!” Sana read a comment.

 Tzuyu chuckled bitterly. She spent hours thinking on what to gift the girl until she finally decided on something… Now she didn’t feel so confident about her gift at all.

 She kept watching Sana and Dahyun being all lovey-dovey… pretty much standing next to each other, maybe Sana getting a little too close, until Jeongyeon appeared and lifted her mood. She started speaking about her Rookie of the Year Award and Tzuyu smiled, happy for her unnie.

 Sana hugged Jeongyeon and Tzuyu was okay with it. None weird stomache-Twister® games or nod in the throat, nothing at all. That was until Dahyun reached for Sana’s chin and patted it like Sana was doing with Jeongyeon’s… or well, tried to do it. Tzuyu closed her eyes and opened them when she heard Sana asking for a hug, she was glad it was Jeongyeon who hugged her, her squirrel cheeks more notable. Tzuyu smiled bitterly. Tzuyu paid attention at Sana when the girl kept staring at something, who knows what or who. She then rested her head on Dahyun’s. She felt guilty for being thankful Jeongyeon slapped Sana’s arm.

 Later, she could have sworn she heard Jihyo, or maybe it was Nayeon sometimes it was scary how much their voices sounded a like when they wanted them to, calling Sana’s name. Then Chaeyoung appeared again. They started playing with filters, Sana being her clumsy self, fell into the stool behind them, taking Dahyun with her –of course.

 They kept trying filters, one or two, until Jeongyeon seemed to get bored and walked away, Sana walked away a bit later to eat candies. She came back and Tzuyu couldn’t get her eyes off her, even with weird filters on she looked gorgeous and Tzuyu couldn’t understand how she managed to be extremely cute and then just with a move of her head a little, without even being aware of it, she had this y aura around her. How?!

 Chaeyoung was left alone and she heard people talking behind the camera. Suddenly she heard someone saying her name. If the V Live hadn’t been so quiet she would have missed it, she barely caught it thank to the walls which were really thin.  She ignored it since she didn’t hear it again.

 Sana and Dahyun appeared again, Sana resting her cheek on Dahyun’s head for who knows how many times now. Dahyun started reading comments, Sana said random stuff. Tzuyu sighed heavily. She was ready to close the app, way too much pain from a V Live for an eternity.

 She was about to press the ‘home’ bottom when something made her stop.

“Tzuyu, Tzuyu, Tzuyu, Tzuyu, Tzuyu, Tzuyu” She kept repeating “Tzuyu-yah, if you are watching V Live come into the room” she said.

 Tzuyu gulped, her heart had stopped. And she was sure she had gone into a cardiac arrest when Sana used her index finger and did the famous ‘come here’ gesture making her look extremely y, especially with the look she had in her eyes, and it was cute too because… How not to find it cute?

 Tzuyu was trying to process what she had just heard and watched. She didn’t have enough time to prepare herself for Dahyun leaning into Sana, she was ready for the wave of pain but it never came, Sana moved away slyly… and then hugged Dahyun. Still they wave of pain never came, the hug seemed to be a little more… friendly, Sana wasn’t all over Dahyun, she was just hugging her… until she got all clingy again and Tzuyu felt that pain again.

 Your fault for putting your hopes up, idiot

 Sana mentioned her birthday; Dahyun said something about congratulating her. To be honest Tzuyu had spent hours thinking about the perfect gift but right now she kind of regretted it.

  Sana was about to rest her head on Dahyun’s when the girl clapped and accidentally hit Sana’s forehead. Tzuyu chuckled bitterly; Sana had it coming, if not from Dahyun from herself. Sana whined, Dahyun laughed and quickly checked if Sana was alright. Sana stared at Dahyun with that face Tzuyu had been sure until a second ago Sana used exclusively with her, she pouted her lips a little. Dahyun faced her, and did her aegyo voice, probably to make Sana laugh, the camera was covered, she didn’t know what was going on, the only thing she