Cold night in February I walk down the street with only the shirt and I did not feel cold at all.

 

This is because my heart was too ill to feel other feelings. I walk around without knowing where I'm going, I just want to feel tired so I can know that I'm still alive. But I think my mind refuses to feel other feelings in addition to pain.

 

All in my mind the only conversation in grub earlier. Krystal told us that she chose to accept The boy feelings, thatXX and became his girlfriend. I cannot handle the feeling when the first time I read the message on the grub. My heart is beating so fast and I could not hold the phone properly, my hands were shaking so hard. So I just replied with "congratulations, krys" then I threw my phone, I do not know where. I'm angry, I'm sick, I'm very jealous.

 

Over the years I think the feeling is mutual. That girl always bugging me, I think she knows that I always have something special for her. And I think she was, but now why on eart she became someone else girl friend.

 

As I continue to walk, suddenly I see someone I know.

 

"That cannot be him" I voiced my thoughts

 

First, I do not believe my eyes until we were close enough. And it was really him, "The boyfriend" now what do I do . He was with a girl, they linked arms, this is getting nuts I had to get angry, so I chose to run because I could not watch more than that.   Now, I'm all confuse